Tuesday, December 30, 2008

:+: Updated Entry at my Other blog :+:

Assalamualaikum all

hehehe it was like i have been totally enjoying myself on updating my other blog this day due to d series of event it make me to write related to d blog mood soo seriously f wanna see me updating my blog n daily life jz have a visit*not jz a visit but also reading* at my http://perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com k..chauz dulu..cz it's 31 today and OMG 1.03pm and i haven't clean-up d house yet..ghuhuhuhu k..see u all

assalamualaikum :)

@bilik abg*my lp2p still sakit*, 311208, 1.04pm, condition: later i wud have to stayover at umah nini huhuhuhu...

Sunday, December 28, 2008

:+: Trying so hard :+:

Eversince yesterday i have been having problem with updating my blog due to my laptop/ shud i say my lp2p batteries and adapter problem~~it's totally a chaos to me since my lp2p jz keep on shutting down own it on.*sigh*

It rily make me wanna be angry but ohwell no big deal, i have to start living with d problem and alhamdulillah tz evening i was able to write in my blog wit the always cautious feeling f just in case the lp2p wud suddnly shut again suddenly~~ hehehehe

Hmmph well maybe for this entry i wud be writing on wat i have been doing for the last 3 days... [26th,27th,28th] hehehe....

Well on the 26th my family members (my mum, dad, sisters(3 of them), nawi, alan) are leaving to bintulu for family vacation which dey actually brought me to join them the night b4 but i can't go with them since i have other commitment at tasiklama on the same day they are leaving... So it's decided dat i and 3 of my sibling( apai and 2 of my elder brother) are left at home... *actually i did ask n plead again and again at my mum asking permission f i could go by bus afta my commitment is over dat tengahari of the 26th but my mum with a stricts look n stern look at her face says "NO!! jgn kn ngada2 ani, f nya mama jgn, ertinya jgn kn bejalan ke bintulu with bus" hahahaha which really prove dat she believe me that i wud really be going by bus to bintulu f i have decided to do so *which i really am is serious~~* hahahaha

Around 645 dey leave the house for their vacation journey, while i was pick around 730am by the gengs~~*sigh* man we are late!! ohwell... so when we actually reach tasik lama we are like 30 mins late...we schedual the event shud start at 8am but we ourselves are late 30mins huhuhu sorry to those who wait for us.... *it really is something we shud always jaga n muhasabah diri*

Hmmph i wudn' be saying much abt the event cz it seem like i still got lots to be updated...soo let just cuts certain detail k..

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and alhamdulillah around 12pm we finish our event at tasik lama n succeed in hiking!! ahahahaha...
Den we n d gengs when to sai's place for lepaking and above all solat zohor and asar at her place and alhamdulillah we get back at our home somewhere before malam menjelma with my fren teasing at me saying that "aikk zie slalunya f ur parent are at home u r always late to come back at home, but ani your parent n family nada begagas ko kan balik..." *hhehee strange ryte~~* hahahaha

Dat nyte i was like cooking for myslf and do simple activity like cleaning my room hahahaha den at 10pm i when ZZZZZ xhausted.... noww cut..

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Morning arise..it's 271208...dat day i have nothing to do..no jalan2 o lepak2 o out from the house...it's quite suni actually at home sendiri + my fam says dey wud be home today so i decided to neglect sai invitation in playing bowling with them at grand utama dat nyte cz im worry my family wud be angry with me f i start going out again. hehehe...so dat day i jz fully used my time to clean d house, my room but i thing that im totally aint touching's throwing and burning my sisters past year book n paper huhuhuuu*it seem like alot~~ iath jd mcm malas menjangkau*...Other activity that i do that day is also blogging hahaha it seem as if i been putting to many entry on dat day hehehehe lotzz... hmmph around 11pm yay!! my family is home!!! hehe so i jz when to my bed and ZZZZZzz again xhausted...

281208....I have date with the geng at this date...hmmph we promise to attend KaDiana marriage!! WAAA subhannallah we arrive at her place at 1215pm and already der are lots of ppl..n once arriving we left our thing on the invited guest chair and rush to see her, excited *it been like 1 years we haven't met her and suddenly bila jumpa she was OMG married!! KYAAA!!!* alhamdulillah she look amazingly cute n pretty n cute n pretty....cudn't believe she married dat day whahahaaha...teasing her i say "nda percaya eh u r married ordy" and she say "believe it" at the same time showed her hand to me showing the wedding ring on her hand hahahaha...My My My she is still naughty as before.. hahahaha moga perkahwinan nya dan bro faisal wud be diredhai Allah amin...

For that day i was like happy for those i/a that have got married ordy... may Allah bless their wedding, may Allah gv them marriage which cud lead them to happiness n berada dalam biah yang soleh dan solehah n may dey are owez dapat terus maintain kuat dalam bidang SH dan petani....AMEEN AMEEN AMEEN...

Afta d wedding finish, we when to mall to disturb ukhti Qilah at her working place and lepak there for like 6 hours i guess...hmmph yep 6 hours, we been in mall from 1pm-6sumthing2...even we are able to actually meraihkan awal tahun baru hijrah der at the mall area...aduhai... it was like d full gengs was der accept for nurul and mimie...hmmph which Aisah thankz to her blanja kami mkn at cheezbox...jzkk aisah...we read msg ummi sama2 n also doa sama2 for the awal tahun baru hijrah 1430... May Allah give us all strengh to continually tsabat n may we are able to always berusaha perbaiki diri di jalan yang diredhai-NYA...AMEEN AMEEN AMEEN....

Well den afta solat maghrib d surau mall we decided to go to sai's place n to my terror der we hv curahat huhuhuhu it was about "Marriage" wahuhuhuhu no komen i wud cut dat part....cut

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n OMG!! me and cicitnya was at central mall at 1045pm huhuhu here i wud like to say "afwan cicitnya cz i hv make u felt terrible infront of ppl u wudn't wanna be feeling terrible to...afwan"

i was home at 11 something dat nyte and back home i was like OMG!! innallaha maal sobbirin*sabar2* bcz my room was a MESS!! *sigh* wat shud i do with my sibling~~~huhuhuhu ohwell

n today i was late in waking up..huhuhu it's 29 today n i hv dinner with ukhti ness later .. it's 3.09pm rytenow..k. i chau dulu..hehhe promise my driver dat i wud be ready at 330pm hehehe *let see wat shud i wear tonyte*

SLAMAT TAHUN BARU HIJRAH SMUA!!!
AHLAN WASAHLAN 1430H

asslmualaikum...

Friday, December 26, 2008

:+: Perginya seorang ibu.. :+:

Aku ingin mengongsi satu post yang terjadi baru2 ini pada seorang guru yang ku anggap seperti abi ku sendiri yang ku gelar babah, buat telahan kita semua.... Meski tidak punyai hubungan darah namun ukhuwah islamiah juga yang menyatukan kami, ku dan rakan2 seperjuangan lain turut merasai kesedihan beliau kala mendapat tahu pemergian ibu beliau... ..takziah dari kami semua....

Perginya seorang ibu..
Masih tergaman hingga kini. dia meninggalkan aku semasa aku menggemggam erat tangannya.
Malam itu aku hampir tertidur setelah penat sebelumnya tidak tidur. Setelah membaca yasin sebanyak 3 kali (ada hadis dhaif yang menyebutkan bahawa elok membaca yasin pada orang yang orang hampir meninggal, kerana ia akan memudahkan keluar ruh).

Aku terbangun, mengambil wudhu’ lagi dan mula ingin menyambung bacaan yasin untuk kali keempat. Waktu dah jam 1.00 pagi. Aku pegang tangan ibu yang agak tercungap-cungap susah untuk bernafas. Aku pegang nadinya… aku mula membaca yasin.

Tiba ayat-ayat ke belasan, nafasnya mula pendek… kakak, abang dan nenekku semua berada di keliling. Aku membaca lagi perlahan-lahan. Ayat 15, 16 dan ayat 17. Ku rasai nadinya telah terhenti. aku baca lagi mengulangi ayat 17. Nadinya terhenti….

Ummmiiiiiiii……..

Ummi telah pergi. Aku pegang kepalanya merasai nadi pada tepi dahinya. semuanya telah terhenti. Terasa benar betapa dekatnya kematian yang baru sahaja melalui tepi tanganku.
Aku menangis habis-habisannn.. Semua adik beradikku menangis. aku tutup matanya (sebagaimana sunnah).

Alhamdulillah. Walaupun ummi telah pergi, namum aku puas. Ummi selalu sebut pada Abi yang sering kadangkala tidak membenarkan aku keluar dari kampung lama-lama. “Biarlah dia pergi. kita dah tak boleh buat apa yang dia buat. Kita tumpang pahala anak kita”.

Ia beri kekuatan padaku. Ummi tak kesah aku keluar. Tapi aku tetap akan pulang jika ada peluang. Memang, lebih separuh dari pendapatan bulananku adalah digunakan untuk membeli tiket untuk menziarahi ummi.

Paling ku hargai dan menyayukan aku, ummi berkata di saat-saat akhir dia boleh bercakap: “ummi maaf semua kesalahan….” selepas itu, ummi tidak lagi boleh berkata-kata lagi.
Jzklh ummi….. Allah lebih menyayangi mu.

Dan keesokan harinya, anak saudara ku telah bermimpi melihat ummi dalam pakaian yang baru dan tersenyum, datang berjumpanya… dan sedang berjalan menuju ke taman yang sangat indah !

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

:+: Ahlan Wasahlan :+:

Alhamdulillah Allahu'Akhbar Subhannallah to those who are been having 'jalan2' sekitar dec ani. no matter ke Andalusia/ KK/ etc d main thing is dat all of us are looking forward to stand on our SH i'Allah.. ALLAHU'AKHBAR!!! Ahlan Wasahlan ke destination masing2

Oppsy b4 forgetting, assalamualaikum bloggy *^-^* it been 6 days dat i been away from having myslf on9/ blog/ surfing and alhamdulillah yesterday me and d gengs alhmdulillah reach brunei around 7am afta a nyte delay at limbang...

Subhannallah lots hv been happening during d 6 days which was quite alhamdulillah Allah hv give strength and melt up d ice dat hv been threatening d heart of the belonger, alhamdulillah... Seem like eventho d environment at our homestay in KK was as chilling as wat it suppose to be but still d heart are as starting to be burning each days it gone through Masya'Allah...

alhamdulillah Lots of knowledge are gained, experiences gathered, relationship mended, iman fulfilled and niat refreshed.

Above all, im grateful dat i was still at the road which i wanna be dgn Izin-NYA jua... May Allah give us strength every second and moments of our life to be able to do [2:30] and [51:56]...

For more go to http://perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com

Thursday,251208,@home,8:29am,condition: Im backk!!! alhamdulillah ahlan wasahlan 4 myslf

Thursday, December 18, 2008

:+: Missing In Action :+:

191208, Friday@Kumi for slpover....

Assalamualaikum bloggy and all keen readers..


It's 3.05am rytenow and im totally kinda getting myslf prepare for the journey that gonna be a 7 hr journey which the countdown are less than an hour now heheheehe so that mean that im ain't gonna be blogging/ onlining just after today heheheh*well that if i cudn't find any internet access*. SOOO don't miss me but jz rindu me hahahaha.. Well Take good care of each of urslf and make sure you guyz are well prepared for my return hahaha. Im gonna be Missing in Action starting tz 19-23.


This is it that i been waiting for.. A journey to which i cud start shaving on my physical, mental and spirit *gee i have been totally a mess eversince this last few months* Soo doa2 kn ku k all :) mudah2'an when im back already i wud be a total good fuel and a boast hehehe...

K. all i cud write is up til dat i gez *hahahah so much for an early waker i gez XP* heehe got other thing to do and etc...I pray for e.one of u guyz out 4 u guyz punya happiness i'Allah *wait 4 my return K*

PS: CONGRATEZ TO ALL HND intake 22 WHO CONFIRMLY ARE NOW HND HOLDER 99% STARTING FROM YESTERDAY 4.30pm*d result are out yesterday 181208* HOPE GONNA MEET YOU GUYS DURING GRADUATION DAY *hehehe i'Allah we gnna met b4 dat*

pray for the best and always rmmber to be grateful to Allah bcz have gv us all strengh in doing our exam and also gv us the capability to betawakal during waiting our result... Whatever that Allah have decided that is the best for us... Ketentuan-Nya there nothing less that we could expect dari-Nya because our fates lies at the hand of Our Maha Pencipta..hee don't forget that all.

Rabbi yassir Wala Tuasir *Ya Rabb Permudahkanlah dan Jgnlh disusahkan* Amin

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

:+: ppl are counting :+:

i felt totally cramp with ppl surround me are actually counting hahahaha counting when the result are actually out... Which is 2day!! It's making me overall totally wholely OMG...Well dn't know f i shud count it too or not but i dn't hv d tendency to count it bcz i hv like lotz to think abt for today itslf such as hmmph



1. what things shud i pack 4 my KK since it is esk *KYAAA!!! I HVN'T PACK YET!!!*
2. Shud i bring my lptp??
3. Bunoi gonna b arriving at tutong around 4pm l8r huhuhu wat shud i do to get out from d event at kpg to get to kumi house? *ia blik hj*
4. Im,myslf nervous for the prog in KK *wahuuhuhuhuhu mcm nda pernah2 pigi jln2 4 prog*
5. Im not worrying abt money but wat i worry most is myslf preparation*i wnna d prog to gv impact to me wit a great hit*
6. My Niat!!
7. How are we gnna fill those 7 hr journey with something useful instead of talking nuisance
8. Myhead is on KK rytenow huhuhuhuhu im worry but at d same time excited.
9. Hving myslf reading more den usual....
10. MyGOSH no area for spacing out
11. Mttrs that shud be resolve after blik dari kk...

*KYAAA!!! im panicking* may Allah gv us ol strength to face all the things that been bothering the head...

"ya Allah gv us strength and may us all succeed. Sungguh if we are bhijrah because of You&Your Rasul den we would behijrah kearah-Mu dan RasulMu, namun jika kami berhijrah kerana inginkan dunia, maka kami akan berhijrah kearah itu. Ya Allah, sungguh takdir kami ditangan-Mu. Moga kami terus tsabat dijalan yang Engkau redhai, Permudahkanlah Ya Allah dan bantulah kami" Amin...

Rabbi Yassir Wala Tuasir

PS: May All Of us get thru HND tahun ani...AMIN

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

:+: Difficulties to write again :+:

It been quite sometime that after last entry that i was trying to put words on my finger but nothing came up... I felt soo frustrated on how i have been..*i cn't no longer be a writer who could wrote a long essay and stuff..Sad*. It make me reflect on myslf wat have i done tiz time which make my words soo stiff and have no feeling at all*since i cn't expressed my feeling well and could write it to the limit of real*. i keep on asking until i remmber abt how UkhT Nurul saying during d nxtday of bbQ " Stop making Sin, because d sin would stop us from doing goodstuff"-- she was saying tz advice bcause she was sharing wat she had heard in d radio how imam *huhuhu i forgot his name, but basically he's one of the 4 imam besar* well leave dat 4 now basically d imam was quite good in hafalan n etc but for some period of time the imam cudn't longer do hafalan as good as b4 so he when to see another imam and tell him abt what he was facing.. d imam told him " Berhentilah buat maksiat kerana maksiat itulah yang menjadi punca kenapa Allah tidak mengizinkan lalunya kebaikkan" n d problematic imam did wat have been told and soon after he finally got into his original form...

huh?? wat relate d above story with me?? hmmph bcz it's d same as me tz day *im reflecting myslf* bcz i made sins tiz few days hence dat's y im totally a mess. I cudn't write, do thing properly, i also hv a v.hot temper recently+ my time gone totally a waste doing stupid and jahiliah stuff more worse is dat my mind is totally a mess *astagfirullah,masya'Allah...what hv i done to myslf* d worse part of all is i cn't do my MA properly...

It scared me.. rily does bcz it in d sense make me wanna say hello~hv i ever feel d fear to Allah doing all those sin?? . I cn't write a good words because my heart itslf is unsettle..my iman itself is unsettle...i cn't settle because my amal is also unsettle. It make me sad not because i cud't write but d fact dat my condition ryte now is not the ryte cndition to face people with a good example... n it's not a condition which i wanna present infront of Allah...*unsettled*

I wouldn't say it's ok to continue living like this bcause it's a nuisance..Iman mmg ada turun dan naiknya but setiap turun iman itu pastikan naiknya adalah lebih tinggi dari naik sebelumnya.. Hence Trying to improve is d only solution...Sungguh Allah Maha Penerima Taubat..

* a doa in d heart *

Back to Allah because there's everything dat a person could always have been confidence in doing kerana salah satu dri hak Allah ialah kita kembali kepada-Nya dalam sgala hal dan urusan..

Assalamualaikum....

Saturday, December 13, 2008

:+: vacation :+:

KYAA!!!!! it been abt more than a week dat i hvn't update my blogs whether tz blog nor my other blogs during this holiday... not dat im ain't dn't wnna blog anymore nor having a boring holiday but bcz of i jz dn't know wat to type in / tell abt. hhehehehe. *blushing* plus im having difficulties in having my fingers to create words and phrases appropriately tz day soooo dat is 1 of the thing which make me hesistate to be a writer hahahahaha

Well a lot been happening after the final exam which last on the 29thNovember2008 example like a visit n stayover from sis IPBA which are like 21 ppl to brunei(stay here from 291108-51208), den dgni k.mehran to be jln2 with sis labuan, perihal pindah rumah, blik tutong, buat ambuyat, hmmph pigi limbang wit parent, dinner invitations, hmmmphhh bbq, jmpa sis jepun with her family, akhi A flight, tkbir umah nini, wireless@home bepasang n bla bla bla.... *basically byklah hehehe*

Overall it was like those days are like a full days which flews slowly but at d same time a tressures to me..

well no pixes dz entry cz aku ngantuk tba2 kwengx3 heheh well nxt tyme lah ek:) k. that ol assalamualaikum..

CUTI TIA JUA BLOG KU ANI KWENGx3 heheheh

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