Saa...Who Know

Its been a while now everysince i type myself inside my blo thinking of "hmmph what shud i type in?" and "hmmph what shud i talk about?". Having this thoughts rily make my fingers shiver and stop typing where in conclusion i wud end up not typing anything, deleting my post and STOP.... but the feeling are stil der.. happiness, sadness, anxious, down, and up are still there lingering inside the head jz waiting to be expressed. Why have it been like this?? hmmphh~~ strange of all i have no idea wen its started. Maybe the moment of losing sum1, o maybe the moment of diffracture o wat hppn 2009 o maybe the moment of wen i start closing myself?? "Saa... who knows?" more importantly, this morning i type again. An overflowing thoughts keep revolving around myhead saying "HEY LET TYPE *^-^*" and i end up opening my laptop n type not knowing what are the things that i wanna talk about... So let starts


I might say that today i'Allah is my 6th day of fasting out of the 11 fasting day. So maybe eventhough it super belated already i wud like to greet every muslims out there

" HAPPY FASTING and AHLAN WASAHLAN RAMADHAN"

AlhamdulillahX3

Being 23 yrs old rily make myself a little bit wary of myself especially about my 'ibadah' and 'niat'. It's rily worrying... honestly time are continuously ticking and still there are lot of things that i wanna do. In the end of my day i wud stop thinking about death and continue doing my chorus and routines to the fullest.. *have i?? Saa...who knows??*

Stop thinking about death?? hmmph i wud clearly shud have said that it not that i have stop minding about it. It jz that, being 23 years old remind me that i am much more closer to the end of my timeline of living. It's a good thing obviously but then i was struck with the thought of "Hey have my amal sufficient enough to get me a well living in that 'world'?" Its rily scary...

PREPARATION toward death.. am i ready yet? *am i?... Saa.. who knows**

Well it's really a matter of starting making PREPARATION and praying to Allah that if i was to be dead in a few more second without knowing den may it wud be a blessing death 'husnul Khotima'... Scary but as a person who just temporarily living in a world borrowing every single things in this world (body, soul, materials, living and non-living things) then i rily believe that i wud want to get back to my owner (ALLAH) with my soul, heart and body prepared for it...

* May Allah bless every single souls living and give us strength to live this short lived in the way Allah redha *