:+: Entah Sejak Bila Semuanya Dilupakan :+:

Baru selesai meeting, sekarang tengah hangout menenangkan pemikiran dan hati yang terasa mengantuk sangat2 dengan keadaan.

Recently terasa memang seorang yang sangat menyukai sesuatu namun tiba2 terasa macam 'Entah' macamna aku blh jdi sum1 yang melupai all those things dat i have once like sooo much.

Mungkin bcz of bz or hal2 yang sewaktu dengannya but d problem rise sdari awal lagi, sejak dari after form 3. So it's not bcz of the bz things that i done. it's bcz of sumthing dat might have make me loss my inspiration toward it...

SAAA...who knowsss

:+: 7.Jan.2011 :+:

Emotions
it's hard 2 b describe
jz like d way d heart beats
dup dup dup dup it goes
up n down
sad n happy
frustratd n xcitd
anxious n curious
jealousy n relaxation
round n round it goes
like d cycle of time
where it wud goes back 2 12.

Emotions
hw nice its could be
when relaxation hits
like a big wave freshng d mind
washng away all d worries

emotions
slowly engulfng d heart
fill it up wit 1001 undescriable dots
may evry dots wud b rcognize as lillahi ta'ala

emotions
are said 2 b pointless
f it's bcz of life's matter
becz emotion's valued 4 it's taqwa 2 Allah

:+: 4.Jan.2011 :+:

astagfirrullah al azim x3
berulang2 haT mengukirknnya
trhdp dosa2 yg dlakuknkn
nyta sgt memerlukan
1 perubhan yg bekekalan
agar tk terheret kmbli
berkali2 mencuba
namun gagal d persimpangan
mungkin kerna tk cukup mujahadah
atau kerna ktaqwaan nipis di dada
sebuah peringatan
hidup tk slamanya
pintu taubat akan tertutup
d hujung nafas yg tk dketahui
harap terus btaubat
yg akan istiqomah dan mujahadah
agar prubahan menjadi mutlak
kerna maut semakin dkat

[taubat mujahadah]

:+: 3.Jan.2011 :+:

andai bisa ku merebut hati
akan ku rebut nobat hatiku
andai bisa ku bicara
akan ku luahkan apa yg tbuku
namun nyatanya
aku cuma insan biasa
yg hanya bersikap biasa
bicara biasa selayaknya
mengungkapkn hal2 yg biasa
punya perasaan seperti manusia biasa
bezanya?
Aku sentiasa bhrp agar tarbiyyah menjdikn ku memiliki ksabaran...

Saa...Who Know

Its been a while now everysince i type myself inside my blo thinking of "hmmph what shud i type in?" and "hmmph what shud i talk about?". Having this thoughts rily make my fingers shiver and stop typing where in conclusion i wud end up not typing anything, deleting my post and STOP.... but the feeling are stil der.. happiness, sadness, anxious, down, and up are still there lingering inside the head jz waiting to be expressed. Why have it been like this?? hmmphh~~ strange of all i have no idea wen its started. Maybe the moment of losing sum1, o maybe the moment of diffracture o wat hppn 2009 o maybe the moment of wen i start closing myself?? "Saa... who knows?" more importantly, this morning i type again. An overflowing thoughts keep revolving around myhead saying "HEY LET TYPE *^-^*" and i end up opening my laptop n type not knowing what are the things that i wanna talk about... So let starts


I might say that today i'Allah is my 6th day of fasting out of the 11 fasting day. So maybe eventhough it super belated already i wud like to greet every muslims out there

" HAPPY FASTING and AHLAN WASAHLAN RAMADHAN"

AlhamdulillahX3

Being 23 yrs old rily make myself a little bit wary of myself especially about my 'ibadah' and 'niat'. It's rily worrying... honestly time are continuously ticking and still there are lot of things that i wanna do. In the end of my day i wud stop thinking about death and continue doing my chorus and routines to the fullest.. *have i?? Saa...who knows??*

Stop thinking about death?? hmmph i wud clearly shud have said that it not that i have stop minding about it. It jz that, being 23 years old remind me that i am much more closer to the end of my timeline of living. It's a good thing obviously but then i was struck with the thought of "Hey have my amal sufficient enough to get me a well living in that 'world'?" Its rily scary...

PREPARATION toward death.. am i ready yet? *am i?... Saa.. who knows**

Well it's really a matter of starting making PREPARATION and praying to Allah that if i was to be dead in a few more second without knowing den may it wud be a blessing death 'husnul Khotima'... Scary but as a person who just temporarily living in a world borrowing every single things in this world (body, soul, materials, living and non-living things) then i rily believe that i wud want to get back to my owner (ALLAH) with my soul, heart and body prepared for it...

* May Allah bless every single souls living and give us strength to live this short lived in the way Allah redha *

:+: newly update :+:

Assalamualaikum :)

What's new is dat im bz tiz day... Baru2 ni ada func.parent meeting pastu 2 days after dat ada Fiesta d'Alif, now 3 days after today ada Konvokesyen for student Alif...WAHHHH!!! bZZ.. anyway wat excites me the most is the fact that im working in the booth part especially the pictures part hehehehhe *besT* Owell that is all for my update hehehhe ADIOS n CHAU :)

Assalamualaikum :)

-----LOC@UBD LAB heehhee Lepak ngan Hani hehehhe@211109 --------

:+: Things as they are :+:

Things are sort of strange this few months *huhuhuhu* ohwell mybe that is just hw i felt but seriously ntahlah.... Mcm kn terus bertabah n hold on pun payah jua p as usual kena pandai2 handle apa2 yg dhadapi. Sometime mcm kn gv up ja p bila buat cmtu nda jua sampai ati. Ngalih lah tz beberapa bulan.

Ketawa, nangiz, marah2, strezzo, silence pun mcm udh jdi part of hidup.*Cramp Cramp* wondering jua cmna blh jd miatu. apapun mcm makin lama makin "whatsoever" huuhuhuhu. Baru2 ni kakak ckp " Nk zie yg dulu~" huuhuhuhu i wnder mcmna zie yang dulu tu?? smpai nangis lh olehnya... n d nxt day pkr punya pkr alhamdulillah Allah buat diri ani realize one thing that zie yg dulu never done that's "terlalu byk take account on things" in which to say zie yang dulu is sum1 yang really wont bother a single things, wont take things to the heart, biarkn benda2 remeh2 mcm angin saja. sum1 yang acuh nda acuh...kuat handling perkara2 yg totally unimportant.... So pagi2 jmpa kakak untuk tnya for her view " azie yg dulu ni cmna??" n ia ckp " sum1 yg tabah" hahahahaaha apapun thankz kak :)

kdg2 rily tired honestly~~~ kdg2 rily feel alone~~~ kdg2 rily rasa takut~~~ n kdg2 rily rasa dissapointed but then kan all those are uncomparable with dgn rasa takut wud kehilangan apa yang valuable kini....

Moga Allah permudahkan segalanya