:+: Last Year May :+:

F i been asked abt how i spend my MAY last year, i wud be answering "hmmph melayan jiwang kali... n mybe as usual jadi as restlezz as possible+++ gila bgambar+++main PingPong". Bcz seriously ani tah aktiviti ku tahun lapas::

(Lepak with d ALERTZZ)
:+: Ani period masa kn escape ugama lastyear skalinya nada jua kelas ugama ahh :+:
---May 1st 2008---









+ Cute jua kataknya ani mun liat balik hehehe +

(Oh Ya!! tym May 1st ani tah jua ku last year berusah untuk assignment Java hahaha kes excited wah iath membuat... aside from dat shopping2 untuk b'day org...hehehe)





(lepak with my ukhuwah fillah) :+: Sushi day :+:
---(May 2nd 2008)---



(Lepak with SDP group)
:+: Ani tym period after jumpa supervisor SDP :+:
---(May 3rd 2008)---





(My 1st tym jumpa Muqri and Mulhim-- jln with KWaN)
:+: First tym kumah Muqri, kn liat adiknya yg baby :+:
---May 4th 2008---



(Ngambil Pictures tym Lectures)
:+: Wahahaha ani ulah org yg nda cncentrate nah~~ hee.. suasana belajar org CIS-int 22) :+:
---May 5th 2008---







(Lepak dalam lab saja)
:+: Not going kemana2 with P.ALERTZ Energetic, Lovable n Teaser rini...sma P.ALERT Acoustic ja in itb :+:
---May 6th 2008---

(My Mum Present...my 1st assessory)
:+: ani time d umah ijau dulu... hehe a gv dari mama, saja2 dgmbr, msa ni ilang dh d clip :+:
---May 7th 2008---



(Makan Martabak+Meeting 4 KM+Jumpa cQawi)
:+: hehehe it been long time dah nda makan martabak... suddenly rindu Qawi :+:
---May 8th 2008---








(Gathering beramai2 with UF+Puppet's pictures day)
:+: Match maker, kwengx3 :+:
---May 9th 2008---









(Ping pong*things dat i miss lotzz*+ LunchOut with Zizah+jd PostMen*hahahaha*)
:+: A sport which i totally jz learn dat's Pingpong.. n 1 day jd Postmen's cool :+:
---May 10th 2008---







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See how much freaky i was last year.. almost kn tiap ari bgmbr uhuhuuu pastu kan tiap ari lepak dkt tgga liat org main pingpong*eventho sometime i play oso* n again as usual me'Restlezz'kan diri....

Well that is my 1st 10 days of May last year... This year hmmph i guess im having fun with d kids... mcm dey rily2 help me...alhamdulillah...

Difikir kan balik kn, how times rily are mcm laju melintasi ruang masa and how manusia ani kan kadang2 lupa on mcmna kan spending kn masa... Well to reflect back, i miss those time but kn i do miss it now*this present* mudah2'an i hv fully value masa yang ku ada time ani... AMIN~~~

:+: Walking along the pathway :+:

2nyte is the 080509... i went to the empire with some of my housemate.. Jz spending some times there.. Going to the empire is kind of my housemates favourite activities where they wud go near the empire swimming areas and have a sit on the stones facing the beach*quite romantic actually hehehe*. Well as for me that was my 2nd time having my legs touches the ground of Empire*seriously*. My first time's with ka Pija*Paci pluru wife* last year. Soo honestly speaking, im quite unfamiliar with how empire's ground looks.

So tonyte was like my biggest explore on the place. I was left to do Solat Maghrib at the Empire's Surau by myself *since my housemates can't pray*

"Zie naik rh tangga ni lepas tu belok ja kanan, ada tu suraunya" say 1 of my housemate.
"Okai".i say
"Kami wud be rah area tmpat bpayung2 tu k. cari ja sana after solat" say my housemate again.

so there goes the start of my journey tonyte.

Tap tap tap, d sound of myshoes filling the quiet air of the stair that i step on. Feeling thrill and adventurous, i lead my way to the surau according to my housemate guide earlier... Hmmph jz go up the stairs den move right...

"Surau Perempuan" -- my eyes catches the sign on the door. *Alhamdulillah i found it* feeling a bit ease, i move to open the door and get in.

"WOW!! nice.. boleh tidur ni~~ mcm bilik hotel ja" I say out loud. Amazed with the surau... Feel the air of an hotel in it*heheheh empire is really a hotel, even it surau smell like one too*

After my solat maghrib, i was like *hmmph adventure time* well *there are quite funny story that hppn in the surau actually but hehehe i won't say it yet, it like im having halucinations this days hehehe*

Soo let continue on my journey...

Holding my mobile, i carefully wore my shoes, out the surau room. Tap tap tap, going down the stairs slowly and then suddenly something bug me, 'i wanna take the stairs picture. So i start having one shot of the stair. *Success!!! yAy i got a stair picture with the mind saying how much is the stair leading me*

Reaching the land where my housemates have left me i suddenly when all blank..

"Where should i go next?? hmmmph~ maybe i should just go to the right.... " My mind start playing it role that is 'thinking'.. so i when all the way to the right which it is leading me near to the lobby..

"Ok, now maybe i would wanna go down every elevators and stairs" Sooo there goes my steps following the instruction that my head display. Which at some point i do felt embarassed bcz people are watching me as i walk *Fuhh luckily i was wearing one of my best clothes or else i would feel alienated*.

"Ok now... how do b4 during the 1st time at this place do i when to the ground near the pool??" *hahaha at this point im stuck* "is there a door to the ground o what??" or " do i have to 1st go outside thru the parking lotz??" hmmmph~~ question by question are pumped into my head but eventho thinking my legs keep on pacing moving 4ward, relaxing myself from starting to panic. THen alhamdulillah there goes an answer. i saw a door jz right 1 elevators away from me. So i near my self to the elevator* i couldn't see stairs, that why im walking to the elevator planning to actually walk down it. Strangely that night the elevators aren't moving, it jz numb.. which i thought it's aint working* but when i just about to step on it suddenly "Click" a clicking sound comes out from the side of the elevator and it move. *hahahahaha* So slowly jz like some1 charming i when down and reach the floor... Slowly and confidently also i walk my self to the door that i saw. My hand reaching out the handle of the door wishing that it wasn't locked and that is the door or else it wud be an embarassement to me*There are a couple who sit down at the couch near the door*..

"Really hope this door is the door outside, really~~" and Alhamdulillah it is but hey there is another door after the 1st door..sighing "Let wish this door also are open" and Alhamdulillah it is....

"hmmph~~Now what??" where should i be going next??"flashes of memories from b4 during my 1st tym with ka Pija hit me...mybe i should go left to the restaurant.... Tap tap tap i walk slowly to the restaurant but when i reaches it i suddenly turn back

"No no no, that isn't the place i wanna be..." saying to myslf i look around the ground areas scanning for the 'Payung' my housemate has pointed before. but gez what i can't find it. So i jz let my legs again to lead me until i reaches a point near the restaurant on the right, a place which is shone with light and it was SUBHANNALLAH beautiful.... i start moving toward it and have a sit.... Engulfing the beauties...

"It have been a long time" my mind says. "Maybe of instead of asking their whereabout why not i got do a little walk all by myself a bit more" Sooo... after fully recharged and releasing myslf from been too unMe, i started to let my legs to take control of myslf. to let my heart to feel the things that i hv carelessly forgot to feel.. 'Being a walker' I used to walk lotz b4... when i walk i think of natures... i thinks like lots of stuff.. i release myslf from stress and so many things. Jz like i love running, badminton and doing all those sporty stuff, tough stuff... because that is me... been nurtured in a family surrounded by 6 boys and im the eldest sister., i hv owez hv to bdikari and having the tendency to owez be strong... been nurtured in that way was it my fault if i sometimes too not ladylike??

*GASPP* what im i blabbering about?? hahahah im started to go out of topic right now... hhuhuuuh* soo a few steps on the right at the point where im standing, i reaches the swimming pool but WAIT!!! huhuhuh der are people on the swimming pool laughing...it is a 'MIXTURE OF ELEMENTS' as i wud like to highlight it here which is quite embarassing for me to see it so i move away from the swimming pool and by using the track which lead away from the swimming pool, i used it to lead my self... Slowly i follow the walking track... to be captivated by a scene which i have dream to be in during my childhood.. It is a scene where i was surrounded by building as expensive as it wud be * in this case it is the empire hotel building...rooms and etc* and i was on a pavement which are light by small track lights on each side of the pavement..

"SUBHANNALLAH, WWOOWW " My heart when all Cherish while my legs felt as if it wanna start exploring the pavement... Without the feeling of worries, i walk along the pathway*dancing actually*. With the tall building it really make me feel that i am small, with the lighted pathway i felt quite secure... *THANKZZ ALLAH*

Still walking along the pathway using the walking track, it in the end lead me to the Empire's Beach.. "SUBHANNALLAH no wonder i could smell the Sea breeze and hear the sound of waves hitting the shore"... taking a proper stand i inhale the fresh air.. It was wonderful....

Tonyte i was really, really, really happy alhamdulillah... the journey was not jz that once but i keep on walking to the pathway like 4 times tonyte feeling the same air in me b4 i search for my housemate, and again before leaving i walked down the pathway another once more time looking closely at the side of the pathway(buildings, tracks, lights) as if i never walked on it b4...*I really love it, THANKZZ ALLAH*....

"Ya Allah, let me stay strong... let me keep on feeling that YOU are always close to me, Ya Allah thanks for every breath that YOU given me... May my heart stay unchanged and myFeet stay Firms... And may i always look forward and working hard to get YOUR redha" THANK YOU ALLAH.....


080509@buruj'@11:29 condition:: we are reach the empire at 630pm and leave the empire at 830pm... now how times really passes that fast... Masya'Allah

:+: d Arrival of May :+:

Today is the very 1st day of May. *sigh* i really really really felt as if time's ticking quite fast... Totally agonying and disturbing.... May isn't my fav month but still Alhamdulillah it arrived. Jz that may Allah help me strenghten my connection with HIM (Allah) so dat i cud go thru each day of May.... Im Scared actually but d facts dat all is mindset and everything lies in the hand of myself whether i wanna make my May a misery o a sort of challendge well that rily goes at my Hand jz like in surah ar-Rad ayat ke 11 where Allah mention in d Quran:

"Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sebelum mereka mengubah keadaan diri mereka sendiri" (ar-rad:11)

Well in which in my context is rily goes with how much myself ani udah mujahadah untuk rily wanna change my mindset and obviously LOTZ of matters which quite menganggu pemikiran, emosi dan juga amal ku... Hmmph well really, really, really harap that i cud be mujahadah...

Ya Allah may myHeart stay unchanged and myFeet standfirm...May i be able to do all my very best in Mujahadah dalam mencari dan beramal untuk mendapat keredhaan-Mu

@010509@9pm@Buruj' Condition: im tired