:+:Havent ada masa:+:

ermzz ngalih ku 2,3 ari ani menghadapi perjalanan yg panjang2 saja...tired lah...tau2 saja everytime blik umah, slalu saja akhir2 nganya afta hal2 family...

tired~tired~huhuhu...kekuburan g tu aritu..hmmph no komen on...

tired~tired~tau2 everytime blik ja kumah, tmpat pertama is TILAM kwengx3 tinggal smbhyg i'sya ku which in d end terkena jua ku bgn kul 1am jz utk smbhyg isya...

tired~tired~siap solat, kena plak ku buat assignment d tgh2 org lain tdo dgn seronoknya udah*aii best tul tdo*

tired~tired~dah lah spnjg masa yg p2tnya ku tdo, esok paginya aii upa2nya kerjaku yg cmplete udah upa2nya salah cara buatnya...

tired~tired~jadi kenalh ku hdpi masa lunch ku 24 hr buat smula...

tired~tired~hnya tinggal 1 features saja lagi namun aku kena blik cz nnT dimarahi oleh bos ku huhuhu tk nak aku dimarahi cz nda attend fam.function jdi dgn jnji "esok pagi akn ku serahkan kerjaku" aku pun berlari ke kereta

tired~tired~ kpalaku headache dan nak pecah rsanya, pening dan berputar2... alhamdulillah malam smalam awal balik dari perjalanan family yg jauh itu sampai keumah lebih awal dari hari sbelumnya...

hari ini skali g dgn "senangnya" diminta utk mengubah assignment yg sudah siap...waa!!

tired~tired~unExpected thing is happening here~~rily2 bisa membuatkn org kehilangan kesabaran...

apapun

HAPI to b in dz State...state

24608

:+:PUITIS_02:+:

perlahan2 masa berlalu
berdetik2 berputar menyelubungi diri
riang, sedih, tawa, tangis, jatuh, bangun diri lalui
setiap kali berkecai
diri cuba mengutip kembali serpihan2
yg jatuh berderai dan berselerak

kebangkitan datang dan pergi
seperti datang dan perginya angin ribut
seperti hilangnya memori diri
dalam meraih nekad yg kerap kali memerlukan muhasabah diri

kala hadirnya kekuatan untuk bangkit
bertungkus lumus diri mengejar impian
berlari dan berlari
mengejar impian, mengejar tujuan kehidupan
Alangkah indahnya tika itu...

Kala kemunduran meniti hari
jiwa dirundung kegelisahan tak henti2
terasa kedewasaan tersekat2
sedih,sgt2 sedih
andainya diri bisa berfikir seeloknya
pasti kesesalan dan kesedihan itu takkan pernah merelung hati ini

Takdir??
usahlah disalahkan takdir,
kerana keputusan berfikir tetap ditangan sndiri

Kasih??
usah salahkannya
kerana ia mengundah hidup
namun ia tetap satu ketetapan yg mengikut alam

Cinta??
tidak..
ianya bukan salah cinta
kerana cinta tetap satu anugerah ilahi
namun terpulanglh pd diri untuk mengawalnya...

diri??
ya...setentunya ianya salah diri..
kerana gagal mengawal cinta yg hadir
gagal memandu kasih yg terbit.

Kini hanya bisa menyusuri perubahan
menyusuri arus yg perlahan2 merubah diri
meskipun terseksa dan terusik dgn kehidupan
namun tetap perlu meniti kehidupan
berlari-lari tanpa perlu menoleh smula kebelakang
jika tertoleh lekas2 menarik diri
jika tertenggelam smula lekas2 memegang pelampung penyelamat
jika terlantar kepenatan jgn pernah berfikir utk berputus asa
hidup bukan utk masa silam
hidup adalah utk hari seterusnya
meskipun perlu menyusuri dlm kesedihan
itulah kehidupan
itulah arus nafas diri....

:+:PUITIS_01:+:

Sinking down the darkness

Missing as the darkness polluting
Wanting as the desire engulfing
Shaking as the tide enlarge
Could only see the one whose own the heart
Could only hold the temptation as time pass by

Time feel as if it rotate so slow
Couldn’t feel the presence was the cause
Slowly it freeze this small heart
Freezing it to a maximum temperature
Till it could no longer feel happiness
Just pain, agony, sadness, darkness

Sinking down the darkness
The small heart misses the presence
Grieving for the loss make it so sore and painful
Pretentious even make it breaks slowly forming jigsaw
Loved, hatred and forgiveness even start to lost it balance

Could not stop the heart from loving
Couldn’t even stop the heart from hating
Or from beating so hard
Because really it is a temptation of the heart
To love & hate
To cry & dumbstruck because of u
Even though its shattered this small jigsaw heart to more smallest pieces
Which BREAKS vulnerably like a thin glass
But still it just could not be stop
This heart misses u so much and it’s an agony

The love is painful
But as sinking down the darkness
It is still valuable and memorable
Even though
it produce more hatred and tears everynow and then
but still couldn’t stop the heart from loving u each single days…

:+:TEST TEST TEST:+:

okai dlm 10 min g aku test nam..heheheh ALL D BEST TO ALL OF CP INTAKE 22&21...JAYO !!AZAAZA!!! hehhehe

:+:The Pain is an agony:+:

hate myself ryte now, sick with myself....trouble th bnr ehh!!! huhuhuhu ol i wish ryte noe is blik 22ng hving my shower, tdo n kcu2 my mum n ulit2 myNawi... just cn't stand perpisahan diz coming few weeks as days passes i wish dat i wud be strong but dat not it!! tears jz couldn't held anymore!! %#^$%&

huhuhuhu not seeing dat particular person dat i hate, make me sad but why??
den remembering dat kWaN is leaving brunei tz july also distressing me as Kwan is d only person who understand and talk to me as clear as ever, hugs me when i cry, guling2 n ulit2 with me during tdo tym. i afraid it wud b jz like last tym when Kwan left without telling me, making me frustrated as ever...it rilys is broken me
Den it either tiz month o nxtmonth, akhi D also would left brunei as he got to leave for work travelling again on d wide ocean...huhuhuhu i mz him ordy as he is part of d reason i hold on my tear til d end of that particular exam as he gv me spirit to fight myself n love myself...he does means something..

up til d end i wish i wud b strong..rily~~~ i mizz lotss and it's an agony

:+:My Otha Update:+:

-gmbr adikku Aznawi, kuat main gameboy yo!!kalah aku masa ni dlm bab2 games hehehe lating lah dz adi of my cz kn ada tahilalat wah dkt2 mulutnya iath kes nyeluru kakaknya cAzlina(another adik of my yg miliki tahilalat dkt mulut) siap adikku c Nawi ani panggil kakaknya atu cAzlina "TaieLalat basar" hahaha sarcastic jua tu...tuptup ja ia pun baru2 ani betai'e lalat jua rh dkt2 mulutnya hahahaha






-another koleksi gmbr kura2 hehe tz tym kura2 ani milik myUkhti Nurul hehehe lasttym lepak umahnya, iath smpat bergmbr ma kura2nya ani c Joyah & Dan



--Bila balik kpg lasttym@tutong,umah nini makan 100 hari tkajut liat d place yg slalu jdi tmpat lepak kmi org bujang2 (cuzin2) kana robohkan huhuhu sedihlah cz it is kira childhood playground kmilah dulu tu..kini yg tggl hnyalah kenangan--



l8r g kan skulah plang ku ni...@umah nuneh @703am....status:: kurg tdo

:+:another xpired update but stil fresh yo!!:+:

Ok~i'm not making a big deal on fuss just dat im sort of bz lately kuikuikui well bz with sumthing,sum1 and sum event anyway hahaha + internet connection yg slalu out of my box rily make me nda t'upate2 my blog huhuhuh nyway since ada org menagih gambar soo i juz gv gmbar2 yg swktu dgnnya lah hehehe XP (*no idea kn buat apa wa ni actuallynya kuikuikui*)

-tym celebration b'day nuneh-









-Me n Liz new badges hehehe thankZZ YaN 4 d badges rily love it hehehe-

--our activity dat day--

--para hadirin--

k aku malas tym ani kn update actuallynya cz kul 3 lbih udh n aku alum tdo huhuhuhu ngantuk...k.nyte2...

:+:GuppiesKu:+:

well for the last 1 week, i been going out spending my lots of time with my guppies hehehe well i stil hvn't got myself a guts to introduce my cute guppies to any of mt frens yet cz rily hehehe dey are quite cute takut ku guppies ku kna culik heheehe

sooo..wat i like abt my guppies is dat no matter watever name i gave to dem dey are stil myGuppies...hw to say ahh looking upon dem gv me d sensation of responsibility since dey r my fav. afta myMoon die 5 yrs ago..n making d guppies as part of my family is rily SWEET!!

d otha things is bcz dey are "fish type".
"jdilah seperti ikan, meskipun tggl d air yg masin/tawar rsa mereka stil tidak masin/tawar mengikut air" kta2 ummi mnjdi motivation buat ku..terasa akan kebenarannya hehehe jdi kiranya i wanna b jz like fish no matter in wat situation/cndition/environment i rily shud be able to jaga things dat shud be take care of n be wat i'm suppose to be..not taking side o emotion i'Allah :)

well been seeing myPanda jua hehehe bgolek2 ku olehnya hahaha well my fav.word recently ani "bgolek2" kahakahakah...

enuf abt myGuppies, nnT f i got d chance i wud introduce myGuppies..hehe evn guppyLoveyDovey pun ku introduce i'Allah heehehhe

:+:Lain2 hal:+:

1. i'm bz wit yahooGrp masa ni..hv to update every now n den
2. cramp cz bnkrap
3. bgolek2 cz tym ani durg mamaku ke miri hmmph nda bw2 org alahai~~
4. yesterday 31508 lepak umah nurul hehehe jumpa ngan kura2 nya yg nama durg joyah&dan hehehe cute lah jua p c joyah pemarah type nya bkn cam kura2 pkck Y hehe yg mau bgambar...c Dan plak jenis aktif maybe sal ia damit atu...hehehe mybe afta a while kn ke petlink ku bli kura2 4 my self oso
5. BBQ @ umah ummi yesterday jua heheh n talking abt ummi ani kn teringat ku akhi dini marah2 kmari, beri watir p mlm atu hee...*rhsia*
6. aku rajin baca buku dasar2 islam tz day yuhooo siuk kali ahh
7. hmmph~~i dunno ahh cz aku mls on9 tiz day..hmmph kn kai email baru ku online karang kana marah ku iath
8. well overall i hving a guppies days!! k,janei!!

::QUDWaH HASSANaH:: fiQh Aulawiyat--pilihlah yg TBAIK&PRIORITY agar hidup lebih bermanfaat

1608\sunday\@hoMeSweetHoMe\song::none\Condition:: i love myGuppies,myPanda,myBunny but overall i love ....hehe ana uhibbuki fillah*hugs*