~SYiF@ SereNiTy~

:+: Entah Sejak Bila Semuanya Dilupakan :+:

2011-01-26T00:53:00.000-08:00

Baru selesai meeting, sekarang tengah hangout menenangkan pemikiran dan hati yang terasa mengantuk sangat2 dengan keadaan.

Recently terasa memang seorang yang sangat menyukai sesuatu namun tiba2 terasa macam 'Entah' macamna aku blh jdi sum1 yang melupai all those things dat i have once like sooo much.

Mungkin bcz of bz or hal2 yang sewaktu dengannya but d problem rise sdari awal lagi, sejak dari after form 3. So it's not bcz of the bz things that i done. it's bcz of sumthing dat might have make me loss my inspiration toward it...

SAAA...who knowsss

:+: 7.Jan.2011 :+:

2011-01-07T00:41:00.001-08:00

Emotions
it's hard 2 b describe
jz like d way d heart beats
dup dup dup dup it goes
up n down
sad n happy
frustratd n xcitd
anxious n curious
jealousy n relaxation
round n round it goes
like d cycle of time
where it wud goes back 2 12.

Emotions
hw nice its could be
when relaxation hits
like a big wave freshng d mind
washng away all d worries

emotions
slowly engulfng d heart
fill it up wit 1001 undescriable dots
may evry dots wud b rcognize as lillahi ta'ala

emotions
are said 2 b pointless
f it's bcz of life's matter
becz emotion's valued 4 it's taqwa 2 Allah

:+: 4.Jan.2011 :+:

2011-01-03T13:38:00.001-08:00

astagfirrullah al azim x3
berulang2 haT mengukirknnya
trhdp dosa2 yg dlakuknkn
nyta sgt memerlukan
1 perubhan yg bekekalan
agar tk terheret kmbli
berkali2 mencuba
namun gagal d persimpangan
mungkin kerna tk cukup mujahadah
atau kerna ktaqwaan nipis di dada
sebuah peringatan
hidup tk slamanya
pintu taubat akan tertutup
d hujung nafas yg tk dketahui
harap terus btaubat
yg akan istiqomah dan mujahadah
agar prubahan menjadi mutlak
kerna maut semakin dkat

[taubat mujahadah]

:+: 3.Jan.2011 :+:

2011-01-03T03:35:00.000-08:00

andai bisa ku merebut hati
akan ku rebut nobat hatiku
andai bisa ku bicara
akan ku luahkan apa yg tbuku
namun nyatanya
aku cuma insan biasa
yg hanya bersikap biasa
bicara biasa selayaknya
mengungkapkn hal2 yg biasa
punya perasaan seperti manusia biasa
bezanya?
Aku sentiasa bhrp agar tarbiyyah menjdikn ku memiliki ksabaran...

Saa...Who Know

2010-08-20T13:50:00.000-07:00

Its been a while now everysince i type myself inside my blo thinking of "hmmph what shud i type in?" and "hmmph what shud i talk about?". Having this thoughts rily make my fingers shiver and stop typing where in conclusion i wud end up not typing anything, deleting my post and STOP.... but the feeling are stil der.. happiness, sadness, anxious, down, and up are still there lingering inside the head jz waiting to be expressed. Why have it been like this?? hmmphh~~ strange of all i have no idea wen its started. Maybe the moment of losing sum1, o maybe the moment of diffracture o wat hppn 2009 o maybe the moment of wen i start closing myself?? "Saa... who knows?" more importantly, this morning i type again. An overflowing thoughts keep revolving around myhead saying "HEY LET TYPE *^-^*" and i end up opening my laptop n type not knowing what are the things that i wanna talk about... So let starts

I might say that today i'Allah is my 6th day of fasting out of the 11 fasting day. So maybe eventhough it super belated already i wud like to greet every muslims out there

" HAPPY FASTING and AHLAN WASAHLAN RAMADHAN"

AlhamdulillahX3

Being 23 yrs old rily make myself a little bit wary of myself especially about my 'ibadah' and 'niat'. It's rily worrying... honestly time are continuously ticking and still there are lot of things that i wanna do. In the end of my day i wud stop thinking about death and continue doing my chorus and routines to the fullest.. *have i?? Saa...who knows??*

Stop thinking about death?? hmmph i wud clearly shud have said that it not that i have stop minding about it. It jz that, being 23 years old remind me that i am much more closer to the end of my timeline of living. It's a good thing obviously but then i was struck with the thought of "Hey have my amal sufficient enough to get me a well living in that 'world'?" Its rily scary...

PREPARATION toward death.. am i ready yet? *am i?... Saa.. who knows**

Well it's really a matter of starting making PREPARATION and praying to Allah that if i was to be dead in a few more second without knowing den may it wud be a blessing death 'husnul Khotima'... Scary but as a person who just temporarily living in a world borrowing every single things in this world (body, soul, materials, living and non-living things) then i rily believe that i wud want to get back to my owner (ALLAH) with my soul, heart and body prepared for it...

* May Allah bless every single souls living and give us strength to live this short lived in the way Allah redha *

:+: newly update :+:

2009-11-21T04:15:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

What's new is dat im bz tiz day... Baru2 ni ada func.parent meeting pastu 2 days after dat ada Fiesta d'Alif, now 3 days after today ada Konvokesyen for student Alif...WAHHHH!!! bZZ.. anyway wat excites me the most is the fact that im working in the booth part especially the pictures part hehehehhe *besT* Owell that is all for my update hehehhe ADIOS n CHAU :)

Assalamualaikum :)

-----LOC@UBD LAB heehhee Lepak ngan Hani hehehhe@211109 --------

:+: Things as they are :+:

2009-11-02T00:25:00.000-08:00

Things are sort of strange this few months *huhuhuhu* ohwell mybe that is just hw i felt but seriously ntahlah.... Mcm kn terus bertabah n hold on pun payah jua p as usual kena pandai2 handle apa2 yg dhadapi. Sometime mcm kn gv up ja p bila buat cmtu nda jua sampai ati. Ngalih lah tz beberapa bulan.

Ketawa, nangiz, marah2, strezzo, silence pun mcm udh jdi part of hidup.*Cramp Cramp* wondering jua cmna blh jd miatu. apapun mcm makin lama makin "whatsoever" huuhuhuhu. Baru2 ni kakak ckp " Nk zie yg dulu~" huuhuhuhu i wnder mcmna zie yang dulu tu?? smpai nangis lh olehnya... n d nxt day pkr punya pkr alhamdulillah Allah buat diri ani realize one thing that zie yg dulu never done that's "terlalu byk take account on things" in which to say zie yang dulu is sum1 yang really wont bother a single things, wont take things to the heart, biarkn benda2 remeh2 mcm angin saja. sum1 yang acuh nda acuh...kuat handling perkara2 yg totally unimportant.... So pagi2 jmpa kakak untuk tnya for her view " azie yg dulu ni cmna??" n ia ckp " sum1 yg tabah" hahahahaaha apapun thankz kak :)

kdg2 rily tired honestly~~~ kdg2 rily feel alone~~~ kdg2 rily rasa takut~~~ n kdg2 rily rasa dissapointed but then kan all those are uncomparable with dgn rasa takut wud kehilangan apa yang valuable kini....

Moga Allah permudahkan segalanya

:+: AHLAN WASAHLAN RAMADHAN :+:

2009-08-25T22:58:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah still living..alhamdulillah still breathing... alhamdulillah still got the chance to fast this year.. alhamdulillah... Well i wont be writing/ updating lotz but what i wanna say is dat ALHAMDULILLAH we all still living and been given the chance to buat amal kebajikan,Time2 puasa ani lagi... hmmph pi myb a bit peringatan 4 myslf that bkn time posa saja blh buat amal byk2 p time2 bulan2 lainnya jua...

Kadang2 kecian jua melihat org diluar sana *also to myslf*, bila ramadhan baru tah kn kemasjid tunggang langgang sembahyang p bila bulan lainnya hmmph time sembhyg jumat baru tah nampak hidungnya. Ohwell not to criticize p tiz is d dilemma of ppl tiz day... mcm ikut musim2 beribadah ani.. * reflect upon myslf jua* . The same goes with rasa sabar n jgn marah, Time posa ani tah ganya org kn ckp " jgn marah, sabar~sabar~" p bila abiz ramadhan entah kemana ilangnya d so call 'sabar' atu~~ *reflecting myslf again*.

Conclusion ?? : Bila difikir2 kan memang lah org masa ni bermusim beribadah. 'ada masa-masa nya'. Last2 nya yg kluar dari mulut bila bkn musim beribadah ialah " tunggu tah sampai seruan".Aikk~ pelik nye seruan kn ditunggu batah bah~~mun nada usaha dari sendiri, nda bah timbul2 nya rasa kn beribadah atu... Mungkin bila kan mengadap ilahi baru th tersentak*huhuhu reflect to myslf*. Rasa kn buat ibadah ani aka buat baik ani datangnya dari usaha sendiri dengan meminta pertolongan dari Allah, mudah2'an kita dpermudahkan buat ibadah. So di manapun, bila kita kan beribadah nda kira bln ramadhan kah o not, Allah mmg beri kita kemudahan untuk beribadah dimana sahaja dan bila2 masa sahaja.

So jadikan lah setiap detik nafasmu untuk beribadah *buat baik, amal maaruf nahi mungkar*, bknnya time2 ramadhan sahaja k*^-^* *Refleksi diri*. Again kn ucapkan dicini

AHLAN WASAHLAN RAMADHAN

---Betulkan Niat, mudah2'an stiap amal perbuatan kita mendapat keredhaan dan keampunan darinya ----

:+: i misses times :+:

2009-06-18T04:44:00.001-07:00

2day's quite a big day actually. Klmarin buat dosa huhuhu *sedihnya* . 2day 4 d 1st tym pigi duduk lma2 d tmpt tnjung bunut*i cnt stand der b4 ani,tingat dosa lma huhuhu* sigh p lbih teruk lh i hv 2 withstand it utk muhasbh diri ani jua bcz lbih daring buat dosa huhuhu...

Cutting ceta... Mudah2'an lepas ni i wud go strong melawan myslf wit d memory. Mudah2'an huhuhu. Jazakallah pd
HN bcz send msg abt peringkt2 org yg dberi ujian... I wnna b org yg dberi ujian yg berat bknnya ujian yg akhrnya menjdikn ku d biarkn sja d muka bumi...Huhuhu mudah2'an...

I wnna move 4ward...More den ever...

:+: Last Year May :+:

2009-05-12T05:15:00.000-07:00

F i been asked abt how i spend my MAY last year, i wud be answering "hmmph melayan jiwang kali... n mybe as usual jadi as restlezz as possible+++ gila bgambar+++main PingPong". Bcz seriously ani tah aktiviti ku tahun lapas::

(Lepak with d ALERTZZ)
:+: Ani period masa kn escape ugama lastyear skalinya nada jua kelas ugama ahh :+:
---May 1st 2008---

+ Cute jua kataknya ani mun liat balik hehehe +

(Oh Ya!! tym May 1st ani tah jua ku last year berusah untuk assignment Java hahaha kes excited wah iath membuat... aside from dat shopping2 untuk b'day org...hehehe)

(lepak with my ukhuwah fillah) :+: Sushi day :+:
---(May 2nd 2008)---

(Lepak with SDP group)
:+: Ani tym period after jumpa supervisor SDP :+:
---(May 3rd 2008)---

(My 1st tym jumpa Muqri and Mulhim-- jln with KWaN)
:+: First tym kumah Muqri, kn liat adiknya yg baby :+:
---May 4th 2008---

(Ngambil Pictures tym Lectures)
:+: Wahahaha ani ulah org yg nda cncentrate nah~~ hee.. suasana belajar org CIS-int 22) :+:
---May 5th 2008---

(Lepak dalam lab saja)
:+: Not going kemana2 with P.ALERTZ Energetic, Lovable n Teaser rini...sma P.ALERT Acoustic ja in itb :+:
---May 6th 2008---

(My Mum Present...my 1st assessory)
:+: ani time d umah ijau dulu... hehe a gv dari mama, saja2 dgmbr, msa ni ilang dh d clip :+:
---May 7th 2008---

(Makan Martabak+Meeting 4 KM+Jumpa cQawi)
:+: hehehe it been long time dah nda makan martabak... suddenly rindu Qawi :+:
---May 8th 2008---

(Gathering beramai2 with UF+Puppet's pictures day)
:+: Match maker, kwengx3 :+:
---May 9th 2008---

(Ping pong*things dat i miss lotzz*+ LunchOut with Zizah+jd PostMen*hahahaha*)
:+: A sport which i totally jz learn dat's Pingpong.. n 1 day jd Postmen's cool :+:
---May 10th 2008---

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See how much freaky i was last year.. almost kn tiap ari bgmbr uhuhuuu pastu kan tiap ari lepak dkt tgga liat org main pingpong*eventho sometime i play oso* n again as usual me'Restlezz'kan diri....

Well that is my 1st 10 days of May last year... This year hmmph i guess im having fun with d kids... mcm dey rily2 help me...alhamdulillah...

Difikir kan balik kn, how times rily are mcm laju melintasi ruang masa and how manusia ani kan kadang2 lupa on mcmna kan spending kn masa... Well to reflect back, i miss those time but kn i do miss it now*this present* mudah2'an i hv fully value masa yang ku ada time ani... AMIN~~~

:+: Walking along the pathway :+:

2009-05-08T06:42:00.000-07:00

2nyte is the 080509... i went to the empire with some of my housemate.. Jz spending some times there.. Going to the empire is kind of my housemates favourite activities where they wud go near the empire swimming areas and have a sit on the stones facing the beach*quite romantic actually hehehe*. Well as for me that was my 2nd time having my legs touches the ground of Empire*seriously*. My first time's with ka Pija*Paci pluru wife* last year. Soo honestly speaking, im quite unfamiliar with how empire's ground looks.

So tonyte was like my biggest explore on the place. I was left to do Solat Maghrib at the Empire's Surau by myself *since my housemates can't pray*

"Zie naik rh tangga ni lepas tu belok ja kanan, ada tu suraunya" say 1 of my housemate.
"Okai".i say
"Kami wud be rah area tmpat bpayung2 tu k. cari ja sana after solat" say my housemate again.

so there goes the start of my journey tonyte.

Tap tap tap, d sound of myshoes filling the quiet air of the stair that i step on. Feeling thrill and adventurous, i lead my way to the surau according to my housemate guide earlier... Hmmph jz go up the stairs den move right...

"Surau Perempuan" -- my eyes catches the sign on the door. *Alhamdulillah i found it* feeling a bit ease, i move to open the door and get in.

"WOW!! nice.. boleh tidur ni~~ mcm bilik hotel ja" I say out loud. Amazed with the surau... Feel the air of an hotel in it*heheheh empire is really a hotel, even it surau smell like one too*

After my solat maghrib, i was like *hmmph adventure time* well *there are quite funny story that hppn in the surau actually but hehehe i won't say it yet, it like im having halucinations this days hehehe*

Soo let continue on my journey...

Holding my mobile, i carefully wore my shoes, out the surau room. Tap tap tap, going down the stairs slowly and then suddenly something bug me, 'i wanna take the stairs picture. So i start having one shot of the stair. *Success!!! yAy i got a stair picture with the mind saying how much is the stair leading me*

Reaching the land where my housemates have left me i suddenly when all blank..

"Where should i go next?? hmmmph~ maybe i should just go to the right.... " My mind start playing it role that is 'thinking'.. so i when all the way to the right which it is leading me near to the lobby..

"Ok, now maybe i would wanna go down every elevators and stairs" Sooo there goes my steps following the instruction that my head display. Which at some point i do felt embarassed bcz people are watching me as i walk *Fuhh luckily i was wearing one of my best clothes or else i would feel alienated*.

"Ok now... how do b4 during the 1st time at this place do i when to the ground near the pool??" *hahaha at this point im stuck* "is there a door to the ground o what??" or " do i have to 1st go outside thru the parking lotz??" hmmmph~~ question by question are pumped into my head but eventho thinking my legs keep on pacing moving 4ward, relaxing myself from starting to panic. THen alhamdulillah there goes an answer. i saw a door jz right 1 elevators away from me. So i near my self to the elevator* i couldn't see stairs, that why im walking to the elevator planning to actually walk down it. Strangely that night the elevators aren't moving, it jz numb.. which i thought it's aint working* but when i just about to step on it suddenly "Click" a clicking sound comes out from the side of the elevator and it move. *hahahahaha* So slowly jz like some1 charming i when down and reach the floor... Slowly and confidently also i walk my self to the door that i saw. My hand reaching out the handle of the door wishing that it wasn't locked and that is the door or else it wud be an embarassement to me*There are a couple who sit down at the couch near the door*..

"Really hope this door is the door outside, really~~" and Alhamdulillah it is but hey there is another door after the 1st door..sighing "Let wish this door also are open" and Alhamdulillah it is....

"hmmph~~Now what??" where should i be going next??"flashes of memories from b4 during my 1st tym with ka Pija hit me...mybe i should go left to the restaurant.... Tap tap tap i walk slowly to the restaurant but when i reaches it i suddenly turn back

"No no no, that isn't the place i wanna be..." saying to myslf i look around the ground areas scanning for the 'Payung' my housemate has pointed before. but gez what i can't find it. So i jz let my legs again to lead me until i reaches a point near the restaurant on the right, a place which is shone with light and it was SUBHANNALLAH beautiful.... i start moving toward it and have a sit.... Engulfing the beauties...

"It have been a long time" my mind says. "Maybe of instead of asking their whereabout why not i got do a little walk all by myself a bit more" Sooo... after fully recharged and releasing myslf from been too unMe, i started to let my legs to take control of myslf. to let my heart to feel the things that i hv carelessly forgot to feel.. 'Being a walker' I used to walk lotz b4... when i walk i think of natures... i thinks like lots of stuff.. i release myslf from stress and so many things. Jz like i love running, badminton and doing all those sporty stuff, tough stuff... because that is me... been nurtured in a family surrounded by 6 boys and im the eldest sister., i hv owez hv to bdikari and having the tendency to owez be strong... been nurtured in that way was it my fault if i sometimes too not ladylike??

*GASPP* what im i blabbering about?? hahahah im started to go out of topic right now... hhuhuuuh* soo a few steps on the right at the point where im standing, i reaches the swimming pool but WAIT!!! huhuhuh der are people on the swimming pool laughing...it is a 'MIXTURE OF ELEMENTS' as i wud like to highlight it here which is quite embarassing for me to see it so i move away from the swimming pool and by using the track which lead away from the swimming pool, i used it to lead my self... Slowly i follow the walking track... to be captivated by a scene which i have dream to be in during my childhood.. It is a scene where i was surrounded by building as expensive as it wud be * in this case it is the empire hotel building...rooms and etc* and i was on a pavement which are light by small track lights on each side of the pavement..

"SUBHANNALLAH, WWOOWW " My heart when all Cherish while my legs felt as if it wanna start exploring the pavement... Without the feeling of worries, i walk along the pathway*dancing actually*. With the tall building it really make me feel that i am small, with the lighted pathway i felt quite secure... *THANKZZ ALLAH*

Still walking along the pathway using the walking track, it in the end lead me to the Empire's Beach.. "SUBHANNALLAH no wonder i could smell the Sea breeze and hear the sound of waves hitting the shore"... taking a proper stand i inhale the fresh air.. It was wonderful....

Tonyte i was really, really, really happy alhamdulillah... the journey was not jz that once but i keep on walking to the pathway like 4 times tonyte feeling the same air in me b4 i search for my housemate, and again before leaving i walked down the pathway another once more time looking closely at the side of the pathway(buildings, tracks, lights) as if i never walked on it b4...*I really love it, THANKZZ ALLAH*....

"Ya Allah, let me stay strong... let me keep on feeling that YOU are always close to me, Ya Allah thanks for every breath that YOU given me... May my heart stay unchanged and myFeet stay Firms... And may i always look forward and working hard to get YOUR redha" THANK YOU ALLAH.....

080509@buruj'@11:29 condition:: we are reach the empire at 630pm and leave the empire at 830pm... now how times really passes that fast... Masya'Allah

:+: d Arrival of May :+:

2009-05-01T05:33:00.000-07:00

Today is the very 1st day of May. *sigh* i really really really felt as if time's ticking quite fast... Totally agonying and disturbing.... May isn't my fav month but still Alhamdulillah it arrived. Jz that may Allah help me strenghten my connection with HIM (Allah) so dat i cud go thru each day of May.... Im Scared actually but d facts dat all is mindset and everything lies in the hand of myself whether i wanna make my May a misery o a sort of challendge well that rily goes at my Hand jz like in surah ar-Rad ayat ke 11 where Allah mention in d Quran:

"Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sebelum mereka mengubah keadaan diri mereka sendiri" (ar-rad:11)

Well in which in my context is rily goes with how much myself ani udah mujahadah untuk rily wanna change my mindset and obviously LOTZ of matters which quite menganggu pemikiran, emosi dan juga amal ku... Hmmph well really, really, really harap that i cud be mujahadah...

Ya Allah may myHeart stay unchanged and myFeet standfirm...May i be able to do all my very best in Mujahadah dalam mencari dan beramal untuk mendapat keredhaan-Mu

@010509@9pm@Buruj' Condition: im tired

:+: Check back wat hv LOST :+:

2009-04-10T06:57:00.000-07:00

..........berdikari wlu dimana pun kita berada pasti ada. Mslh nya cuma Penyakit M kita saja yang berkuasa lebih dari anti biotik R* satu teguran untuk diri ini*

Conclusion :: Kaji semula SH... adakah sudah tertunai dengan penuh daya atau masih lagi ada sisa-sisa Jahiliyah yang masih terbuku... Periksa semula "kenapa disini".....

4 more @ http://perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com/

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:+: Kebaikan & dosa :+:

2009-03-31T14:12:00.001-07:00

Dari Nawwas bin Sam'an radhiallahuanhu, dari rasulullah shollallahu 'alaihi wa sallam beliau bersabda :

"Kebaikan adalah akhlak yang baik, dan dosa adalah apa yang mengganggu jiwamu dan engkau tidak suka jika diketahui manusia" Riwayat Muslim

dan dari Wabishah bin Mabad' radhiallahuanhu dia berkata:

saya mendatangi Rasulullah saw, lalu dia bersabda : "Engkau datang untuk menanyakan kebaikan?" Saya menjawab: Ya. Beliau bersabda : " Mintalah pendapat dari hatimu, kebaikan adalah apa yang jiwa dan hati tenang kerananya, dan dosa adalah apa yang terasa mengganggu jiwa dan menimbulkan keragu-ragu dalam dada, meskipun orang-orang memberi fatwa kepadamu dan mereka membenarkannya". (hadis hasan diriwayatkan dari dua musnad Imam Ahmad bin Hanbal dan Ad Darini dengan sanad yang hasan).

I have been looking 4 this hadith beberapa hari ini. Can't say it a bit sharing purposes but actually it's more to memuhasabah kan diri ini. Rhythmically this few weeks byk berfikir mengenai benda2 yang hendak dibuat, sedang dibuat and ingin dibuat which kadang2 those things really tick the hati and make ragu2*sigh* Sooo sebab atulah this hadis mengingatkan kembali apakah itu kebaikan dan apakah itu dosa so dat benda2 yang actually dilarang tidak dilakukan which really menakutkan* takut jauh dari redha-Nya* huhuhuhu

"Ya Allah, timbulkanlah kesensitifan diri ini dalam menilai keburukan dan kebaikan agar hamba-Mu ini mendapat redha-Mu sentiasa"

010409 0507am @Buruj'

Condition : really memuhasabahkan diri

:+: More den jz Reading Requirement :+:

2009-03-31T06:39:00.000-07:00

When to the bookstore today*310309* with cicitnya. seeing the english books rily makes me happy. it was like *KYAAAA!!! BOOKS,NOVELS*. Burst myslf with pleasure, my hand keep on scanning and touching each novel that are written by my favourite arthurs.. GASPP!! SIDNEY SHELDON,ARGHH JODI, KYAA JOHN GRISHAM!! breathtaking me for a moment...*hehehe EXCITED*

Its been a long time i havent read any of those novel book, which are my source refreshment and correction and inspiration in always having the passion to write and more importantly my SOURCE OF ARTS... Eversince not touching any of those books, i hv been rily trying to extract feeling and improving myslf in another method*searching for english books which are useful for D&T* but REALLY-REALLY HARD to find such books. So to honestly said is i have been rily poor in English this day not jz in writing, grammatical but also in oral. *GASPP!!* a Lacking which really knock me a bit since English is a second language in the world..

Well it also correct with Malay. Hmmph things with reading malay wud be i am to 'bertangguh2' in reading all those resources that are supply*sigh*. Honestly i got like lots of D&T books which hvn't been touch and still new*shocking ryte??!*

So conclusion would be i need to put more effort in reading all those malay books and also tried to search articles in english which help me more and more...*Gez that in a solver to my English resource problem then~~* *^~^*

310309 1027pm @ Buruj'

condition : Really need to work hard and more

importantly manage my tym

Ya Allah

let my feet stand firm&my heart stay unchanged

:+: thought of the day,250309 :+:

2009-03-25T03:47:00.000-07:00

250309, another day which i had to rush to school. *kes plupa dat we hv to panyap2 staff room hu3*. it was another memory which i wud treasure lots... its been march ordy:) 3 month in a school which hv been 1 of the most fav. topic which me and cicitnya like to talk about for the last 3 month. Happy, sad, angry, annoy, cherish thought hv started to built up inside the school. I honestly like been a part of the school. Whenever i was sad o on loss of hope; the kids dengan izin Allah made me able to stop thinking and move forward. Feeling totally lighten whenever i was around them *well right now im smiling*. For the last 3 months, i've more o less change a bit*i believe*. i learn interactive communicating with kids which are below 12 yrs old. Acknowledge their thought and creativity and for the first tym ever, i started to believe that out there, there are still many who still believe and 'looking'

I ain't sum1 who cud be istiqomah in a day o two, but im trying to istiqomah... i ain't sum1 who learn from mistake but im trying hard not to make the same mistake twice.. may Allah help me and all those people to be strong on the path...

:+: HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :+:

2009-03-18T07:11:00.000-07:00

JUST WANNA SAY :

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO ME TODAY!!!*KYAAA* 180309...HEEHEHEH WRITING FOR LIKE A YEAR B4 4 THIS BLOG... HEEHEHE NYHOW... QUITE HAPPY *^-^*

:+: sesuatu untukmu :+:

2009-03-18T00:09:00.001-07:00

kasih itu bernama cinta
cinta yang disemai dengan keikhlasan
dan sulaman kedewasaan
bersumberkan satu rasa
yang bukan dari kita...
pastinya,
ia sesuatu yang indah
kerana disetiap kesusahan,
disitu ada kemanisan dan kesungguhan
yang hanya aku, kamu dan kita yang mengtahui..
moga setiap jalan di hadapan
masih ada aku, kamu dan kita
bersama redho dan kasih sayangNya..

salam ukhuwah...
ana uhubbuki fillah

:+: teenagers :+:

2009-03-16T02:49:00.000-07:00

Im reflecting myself again today (160309) when i still under 12 years old. Less Technologies, less cursing, less spoon feeding, Less internet, less chatting what more LESS INTERNET aka TECHNOLOGIES!!! *im repeating stuff* . Means that during those ages i have no laptop or computer nor ever desktop, no mobile which means no internet, or chatting or all those technologies that kids nowadays have.*Hey~i only hv my very first mobile when i was in ITB which is when i was 18yrs old daaa~~* Sound lame and tragics right?? but that is the 'no so tough' part of some kids during my time too actually be studying harder and work to the limit of 'no spoonfeeding'

Im blogging about this thing because i felt totally frustrated with some of the kids who uses languages/ words that they actually doesn't know what it meant just because their's elders used them.. *sigh* SAD and EMBARASSING~~ well really sorry to say, that kids nowadays should really check up/ google up those 'unmanner' words before using them. Not just "FOLLOW THE ELDERS". GeEZZ thinking about this really give my self a headache* if my mum hear what the kids just say, she would really 'lada' the kids just like she wud do to me and mySibling if she heard us talking rubbish words* again *sigh*

:+: Ke Pesta buku with d kids :+:

2009-03-07T04:38:00.000-08:00

The date is 070309.. hari dimana lepak with the kids ke pesta buku hehehehe well ain't saying much jz wanna tunjuk gmbr durg berasak2 dipesta buku and ulah durg disana ja.... hheheheeheh KAWAIEEE!!!

:+: Pesta Buku YAYY!! BOOKS :+:

2009-03-02T05:33:00.000-08:00

KYYAAAA!!! alhamdulillah sampai jua ke pesta buku dimalam, buying book not just for the kids but for myself hehehe.. Quite interesting meround2 d indoor stadium looking for suitable book which are knowledgeable and helpful for the kids punya progress interm of IQ and also durg punya Iman.... hehehehe...

Alhamdulillah in Alif, im able to see kids who are truly exposed with islamic value where the educational system are not secular. There are a balance in the science, maths, arts, history, geography and religion. Which everytime there are chances, the teachers teach some islamic values in each of the subject which make the student actually more and more interested in islam in every things they learn... Remembering all this make me realize how i never get soo much expose which such stuff when i was in my secondary school nor primary school... Realizing all this too make me pity kids who are going to school which are unknowingly having such a secular educational system... Jz imagine a primary 1 kids in Alif already know how they shud jaga aurat durg, they are train to jaga perbatasan pergaulan durg, the primary 2 kids are quite interested with kisah nabi2, d primary 3 are quite knowleadgeable in tahu kisah2 surah macam surah Al-Fil, d primary 4 are soo aware if they cud die in Kafir if they nda sembahyang, d primary 5 knows what it meant to hormat org in islam values while the primary 6 they really are trying to relate their history studies with religion. Above all, all the kids really are quite concern with PALESTIN and soo much other issues about islam in every subjects they learn.... Interesting right??

I found it interesting bcz it really are touching to see the possibilities to nurture kids with islamic values. it ain't possible, it jz happen to be how the educational system are... Hence that why i hv to goo and search for books which are containing everything hhehehe... k. chauz have fun looking at the picture taken during the pesta buku::

:+: Palestine Fund Raising Event :+:

2009-03-01T06:29:00.000-08:00

Kelmarin setelah sekian lama nya, i was attending a fund raising event for Palestine at MS auditorium.... It been awhile nda attend event yang macam atu o getting involved in such event*repeatedly say which prove confirm lama udh kwangx3*. Well from what i heard from the visitor booth commitee the ppl that attending the prog was like 208++ not including the AJK..Subhannallah Alhamdulillah it succeed in term of accomplishing it's objective and so on..Alhamdulillah...Eventho there are some improvement to be made if the AJK wanna do another vast program like such again...apapun Alhamdulillah.. What made the Fund are not just the mini concert held but also the food booths which sold varieties of nice2 food such as icecream, cupcorn, puspa, tudung, clothes, muffins, pizza, and etc *Nyum~nyum~*. Aside from that the Info Booth are Well done!! it done a very good job in explaining about Palestine and soO WELLDONE!! alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah may Every Effort are Lillahi'taala....Amin *^-^*

K. below are some picture that i taken in the event hehehe

:: Name tags ::

:: FingerPrinting of the Visitors ::

After The event myFrens and i went to the SOTORINDU..kes apanah?? KES LAPAR wahuhuhuhuu lapar amat eventho headache and tired

Condition : Seeing the AJK working remind me about the time in SMSO*Miss those moment working dalam dewan and preparing for every events in SMSO* k. dat's ol basically SIUK LAH~~

:+: After a very long time :+:

2009-02-28T15:23:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum*^-^*

Alhamdulillah IM BACKKK!!! wahahaha alhamdulillah after a very long time finally im back again with blogs... heheheh quite not update with my daily event rcntly bcz hmmph LOTZZ wahahaha *blushing* anyway there are lotz of thing that i done to keep my self chill and settle down hehehe ohwell ohwell soo update::

Life :: hmmph alhamdulillah eventho everynow and den headache alhamdulillah still ongoing

Work :: BZZ banget p kan alhamdulillah adapt udah rh tmpat kaja... One thing 4 sure about work's bila mana im quite lazy doing weekly report*NGALIHH~~* p one thing yang siuk is dat dapat jumpa Ahsan everyday hehehehhe *missing him*

Family :: Alhamdulillah relationship with fam.members is going quite well jz dat since recntly ani jarang2 balik kampung soo yeahh pyhlah~~.. *Missing NaWi*

Friends :: Hmmph mcm 2,3 ari ani ramai org kuat nyamal and emosi2, agak totally cramp lah jua *sigh* aku g jenis acuh nda acuh soo mcm malas th ku mujuk2 org*sigh* p basically every1 need times and so do i...

Apa g ahh kn di update ahh~~ ohwell so far that's all hehehe k. Assalamualaikum....

Condition: Still Adapting to my blogs life 'again'

:+: Gonna b Missing :+:

2009-02-17T21:19:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum dear bloggers,

I wud be missing for a few days this tym due to certain reasons and things that need to be solve... sooo rily2 not gonna be involving myslf for d meantym to blog. *huhuhu im really gnna miss blogging~~* oh well~~

By then see you guyz in d nexttym im posting an entry then~~...*^-^*

Assalamualaikum

:+: Langit dan cahaya :+:

2009-02-14T14:21:00.000-08:00

Kelmarin diriku sekali terpesona dengan langit dan cahaya yang menembusinya.Tersentuh rasa hati ku... Diriku sgt2 boleh dikatakan begitu tersangkut apabila melihat langit, smpai mcm org angau pun ada gak kwengx3..

Reason kelmarin tu mendapat perhatianku ialah bilamana dari 1 part langit tu terdapat pusaran bulatan halus yg betul2 ketara,

Subhannallah... Seringkali ku perhatikan langit kerana diriku seringkali mudah merasakan kekuasaan Allah dari situ, tersentuh nya hati kerana ianya mengingati diri ini dengan Allah yang Maha Pencipta. Bilamana lihat langit diri tanpa sedari beristigfar pada kekurgan diri pada mengingati Allah. 'Subhannallah' itulah bingkisan yang keluar dri mulut ini bila melihat langit2. Sebut zikrullah itu sudah cukup mengentarkan hati ini, mengingatkan diri ini tentang kematian dan perkara2 dosa yg diri ini lakukan dalam sehari itu*muhasabah diri*.

Alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah yg telah memberikan nikmat dan kurnia-Nya yg byk pada sekalian manusia dan diri ini. Dan yang sentiasa mengingati diri ini tentang siapa lah diri ini, *hanya dari segumpal darah*....

:+: Picture smart :+:

2009-02-13T02:20:00.000-08:00

Today im having the intention to write something but terasa sgt susah untuk mengukirkan kata2. *sigh* mungkin kerana how i felt about myself, surrounding and etc telah jdi terbiasa utk disimpan kat dalam dada. Recently telah jdi agak pemendam *kahkahkah* cn't reason why but it better disimpan if it does not menambahkan iman pun... Kadang2 rasa tiz is the phase that i need to be more concentrated on benda2 yang mendatangkn faedah dalam D&T...i'Allah...

Hmmph yesterday was my 1st tym with p2 for art and it was like amazing seeing them with watercolour*In my primary, i never try watercolour b4, huhuhu so im totally jeles of them in addition to that was amazed*. But what amazed me more was how kids behave soo actively with their drawing, surrounding friends and etc... Suddenly i have the feeling of watching them more and more closely, get quite attached with them everynow and them. Sometime i felt as if we are in one very big family*since each of us have different names that cud be easily memorize and difference characteristics*.

*speechless* i don't know what to say anymore, hehe soo better jz liat gambar-gambar berikut hehehe*taken due to the way he colour his drawing..Quite smart~~*

:+: Another Song :+:

2009-02-12T15:56:00.000-08:00

Artist : Opick
Lirik Lagu : Opick - Rapuh

Opick - Rapuh

detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
kupersembahkan kepadaMu
yang terindah dalam hidup

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepadaMu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah padaMu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dadaku harap hanya
diriMu yang bertahta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir padaMu

PS: Recently im hearing tiz song mcm pagi, ptg, siang, malam smpai waktu tdo ani wahh~~ GEEZ perkara harus tah banar... During blogging this post pun, i was hearing to the song kwengx3 repeatedly huhuhuh *lagi parah*.... Actuallynya i was looking for the song untukmu teman but last2nya tersangkut this song.... Hmmph kan post gmbar plak my HP was on charge sooO iath mls kn diambil and dibuka2 lagi huhuhu *nxtym ja ku post gmbar one of the picture smart student ku heheheh cute~*

:+: Langit d bawah pantulan cahaya :+:

2009-02-11T04:50:00.000-08:00

Okai today, i was with cicitnya and Hani lepaking sama2 til around 5pm we hv to zoom-zoom ke jln lama tutong to send Hani back home. Soo all along the journey me and cicitnya was bla~bla~bla about one of the cutest student dalam our school smpai tahap dup~dup~ani wahh until suddenly i look up and SUBHANNALLAH~~MASYA'ALLAH~ the sky really are amazed me...Soo I got totally drawn to the sky smpai nda sadar that my hand quickly get my handphone and*KLIK*KLIK* few pictures throughout the journey of the sky i've taken till cicitnya cakap "Bah Jgn th ku dilayan nah" *hahaha bien* but seriously the Langit today was totally Subhannallah, Another breathtaking langit dat i have ever seen dengan izin Allah jua... Masya'Allah... So just wanna share it with the rest of the bloggers and frens out there...hehee soo here is the pictures

:+: BubbLy BubbLy :+:

2009-02-11T04:23:00.000-08:00

For the year 2009, i hv to admit that i hv been sort of away from some of my usual frens that used to be with me. *sigh* I do have to admit that i do miss them though.... Really misses them but it seem like d continous pullover have make me unable to totally have a great deal of together2 gathering with them everynow and then*sigh~feel bad about it really, hope able to jumpa you guz soon especially the PRinCEZZes*.

Soo since such frequent thing happen i started to hang out with my bubbly fren who love bubble and gez what~~ it seem as if i started to like bubble also hahahah... Eventho the bubble was not as big as i imagine it wud be when myBubbly Fren explaining it to be but alhamdulillah i felt calm watching*I STILL LOVE THE LANGIT!! Tho*..... the bluish colour are quite contrast and it wud be really nice if i were in a place like the underwater tunnel* hahaha overly dream*.

Thankz to my Bubbly-Bubbly frenz for such wonderful moment and for blanja'ing me whenever i felt totally lost.. Thankz also bcz bringing me to buy my strawberry Shortcake~~~nyum~nyum~nyaman hehehe....

It's aint about the bubble that touches me most but bcz of the ukhuwah which really showed...May Allay bless you and give you all the very best thing, AMEENx3.... See you asap soon i'Allah*hugz* *^-^*

:+: between will and Allah blessing :+:

2009-02-09T04:12:00.001-08:00

3weeks ago i was in the state of chaos actually due to my D&T factors, in addition to the facts that i have to let go people*it really frustrating*. even the discussion dat i have with sum1 doesn't really help me much. Only the soul of prayers lead me to the feeling of relieved eventhough tears always come out, warming the heart of the belonger.

all because of the doa that always come out from the mouth and reminder in the heart with Allah will make the heart stay come and purified...

" Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku hanyalah hamba-Mu yang hina, yang hanya inginkan keredhaan-Mu dan bukannya benda-benda yang melalaikan ku seperti benda-benda yg buatku tidak puas hati atas ketentuan yang Kau takdirkan. Ya Allah berikan ku rasa redha dengan ketentuan yang Kau takdirkan. Sesungguhnya itu lah yang terbaik dan tunjukkanlah aku jalan-jalan yang terbaik. Ya Allah hanya keredhaan-Mu yang aku inginkan..."

With thus and Allah Will i regain my stability and move on berusaha with the belief that what im facing and every decision made and every place that i hve been thrown to was the best place for me to gv my fullest effort even just as someone who are just doing the small parts.. Believing that small part's also a big part that complete a jigsaw puzzle.

In D&T that is what matter each responsibilities given, big o small are quite important... the major thing that need to be settle is "niat" *sigh*

Niat why we are doing it. On what purpose and etc. we could have like 101 schema answer that are dry but actually in D&T it is all about wanting redha Allah...

Think back.. it hurts in the 1st place but Allah always given the best for his hamba...soO whether we wanna choose our sturborn head to follow our own will or renewing our niat on what Allah have fated to us...

The major thing's Moga Allah redha dengan diri kita dan kita redha dengan apa yang Allah berikan dan takdirkan...

Assalamualaikum

Allah adalah tujuan kami,
Rasulullah teladan kami
Alquran pedoman hidup kami,
Jihad adalah jalan juang kami
Mati di jalan Allah adalah,
Cita-cita kami tertinggi

:+

2009-02-09T04:12:00.000-08:00

:+: Life's hard but Allah owez shows a way :+:

2009-02-04T07:30:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah

This recent days aren't quite tough as i think it wud be. Alhamdulillah it was like 'Tarbiyyah' dari Allah to actually make myHeart fill with joys and happiness eventho there are ujian that have to be face... Alhamdulillah*segala puji bagi Allah* Because of Allah Will and the strength given to this uncapable slave of Him, Alhamdulillah i was able to continue moving with a heart full of kesabaran dan kesyukuran. Alhamdulillah*Pada Allah yang memberi rasa tenang pada diri ini, *Alhamdulillah...

There are quite lots of rasa syukur that i wanna shout out loud such as :

Alhamdulillah Im still Living for another day
Alhamdulillah im still able to see daylight
Alhamdulillah im still able to see night
Alhamdulillah im stil given the ability to see
Alhamdulillah im still given the ability to smell
Alhamdulillah im still given the ability to feel
Alhamdulillah im still given the ability to touch
Alhamdulillah im still having healthy kidneys.
Alhamdulillah im still having a healthy heart
Alhamdulillah im still having a healthy pancreas
Alhamdulillah im still having a healthy body
Alhamdulillah im still having a healthy digestive system
Alhamdulillah im still having a functioning eyes
Alhamdulillah im still having a functioning ears
Alhamdulillah im still having my hand that could move, type, and do lot of stuff
Alhamdulillah im still having my leg that could stand, walk, jump and etc
Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah

Above all alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah im still having islam as my-Deen, Alhamdulillah im still living as a muslim, alhamdulillah im still putting all my effort to understand islam, Alhamdulillah im still looking for keredhaan-Allah, Alhamdulillah im still on the path that teaches, shows,and guide me to a mission as a hamba-Nya, Alhamdulillah...

Ps: Alhamdulillah lets us sama2 muhasabah how we are alhamdulillah in His Blessing masih dalam keadaan yang boleh berusaha mencari keredhaan-NYA... Alhamdulillah let us take a stop and think how much hv Allah give to us start from meniupkan roh kita ke jasad kita hinggalah hari kita bernafas kini.... May Allah sentiasa membuka hati kita untuk terima hidayah-Nya,

Ameen Ameen Ameen
* LET US STOP AND THINK*

:+: The idea of been cruel :+:

2009-01-30T02:14:00.000-08:00

Today i hv a new chatter fren who is quite frenly and direct braviz species nya.. "zie pernah tk suka lelaki yang ada gf udh?"-- atu nda direct nda th ku tau tu huhuhuhu. So i did dgn jujurnya share dgn ia abt my side story on dat.. Totally jujurlah *buat apa jua kan di hide kan, bende dah berlalu..Kisah lampau*

Ku ingat pertanyaan itu dan perbualan yang berlanjutan diantara diriku dan dirinya itu tkkn membuat hati ku terusik namun nyata ianya sedikit sebanyak mengingatkan ku akan diari kisah ku itu.. Byk pengorbanan yang terjadi kerana kisah tersebut.. Byk airmata yang mengalir.

One question dat make me feel more affected from d new fren is when she ask me "what wud u do if the gf tau udh?"....Honestly i cudn't rily answer her question bcz i do not wanna do anything bcz all i knw is dat guy rily love his gf...So i wudn't rily do anything stupid as in introducing a flaw in their relationship... I Myslf Like d guy gf personally...

"Zie wudn't ask for her forgiveness kh?" she ask again... Honestly i wudn't ask for that also bcz i know hw she wud feel... To forgive me for her wud be hard.. I won't be asking her to be more hurt then she already did..

Past is past..it is no more in the present... During those times i hv sacrifices d person that i love most, I hv hurt d person dat love me truthfully, i have dissapointed that person heart when i hv fall in love with sum1 bf... It was hurt for me too bcz honestly d person dat i sacrifices for the sake of that sum1 bf rily meants alot to me. I have destroy d belief that befall upon me, eventho forgiveness was given but i know how much i hurt the feeling of that particular person which after dat i decided to stop in love with that sum1 bf... *uptil now i cudn't look straight at d person anymore* totally an agony and pain.

To fall in love with sum1 that belong to sum1 is a troublesome thing... bcz we hurt like lots of ppl... i hurtz mine and f that sum1 gf know dat i hv love her bf once den it wud hurt her.... I know abt the words "Misuse of trust"... o d words "been betrayed" --- it is hurtful.... but for my case let me say it in capital "HE DOES LOVE U SO MUCH" Trust me...

Well in d end that new fren of mine introduce me to a blog of her friend*She is like love to blog hopping*, quite nice blog hehehe colouring2..

to that new fren thankz bcz make me remember abt my past and think... whoever urfren are who face the situation,i wnna ask her-- " Think wise and make the right decision, dn't be tergesa2 buat keputusan without pendekatan yg teliti"

:+: Kelmarin, Semalam dan Hari Ini... :+:

2009-01-27T03:40:00.000-08:00

PS: I feel i wanna share take this post and post it in my entry this time bcz suddenly it's quite spooky to actually muhasabah diri diz way*huhuhuhu* Apapun i really te"OUCH" wit it...hrp every1 pun jua... thank pada izzah 2 share it up...*miss her* *^~^*

KELMARIN...

Hujan turun lebat betul.

Sesekali Sang guruh berdentam dentum.

Kulihat Sang kilat berkejar-kejaran di langit tinggi.

KELMARIN...

Dalam kehujanan itu..

Kau datang kepadaku..

Kulihat..

Wajahmu basah..

Aku menjadi pilu..

KELMARIN..

Satu demi satu kisahmu kauceritakan padaku..

Kau bercerita lagi..

Dan lagi..

Tanpa henti..

Aku menjadi lebih pilu..

KELMARIN..

Kau katakan padaku..

Jiwamu sakit..

Hatimu sempit..

Kau mengongoi kesakitan...

Meratap kesilapan silam..

Kesilapan yang maha kejam!

Wahai Engkau!

Masakan jiwamu tidak sakit?

Masakan hatimu tidak sempit?

Apabila kau biarkan Si Pengkhianat JAHILIYAH bebas merempit?!

............ ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ....

Namun, itu kisah hari KELMARIN.

Dengar sini..aku nak bercerita kisah hari SEMALAM pula.

SEMALAM..

Hujan dah berhenti.

Sang guruh pun dah tak ada lagi..

Sang suria pula tersenyum berseri-seri. .

Aku dah tak nampak lagi Sang kilat berlari-lari. .

SEMALAM..

Kau datang lagi kepadaku..

Dan lagi..kau bercerita sesuatu...

SEMALAM...

Katamu..kau nak jadi orang baru..

Katamu..kau nak tinggalkan masa lalu..

Katamu ..kau nak bina hidup baru..

Katamu lagi..

Kau nak tangkap Si JAHILIYAH itu..

Nak sumbat dalam lokap..

Nak kunci kuat-kuat..

Tak nak bagi lepas..

Biar padan muka dia!!

Eh Engkau!

Kau nak tahu?

SEMALAM..

Aku dah tak pilu..

Aku dah tak sayu..

Sebab aku percaya dengan kata-katamu. .

Yalah..kau kan kawan aku!

Aku genggam kemas-kemas tanganmu..

Aku akan cuba yang terbaik untuk membantu..

Tapi..kau kena janji sesuatu..

Kau kena KUAT!

Kau kena TABAH!

Kau jangan mudah tunduk, kawan!

Sebab untuk berubah bukan mudah!

Aku akui..nak berubah, memang susah!

Sebab Si Pengkhianat Jahiliyah memang sengaja mahu jadikan engkau sampah!

Percayalah!!

Sebab itu aku benci dia!

Aku benci JAHILIYAH!

Jadi, kau jangan cuba-cuba berkawan dengan dia..

Kau mengerti?

Perlahan-lahan, kau anggukkan kepala.

Aku betul-betul lega..

............ ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... .....

Itu kisah SEMALAM..

Mari aku ceritakan pula kisah hari ini..

HARI INI...

Kulihat langit..

Gelap sangat..

Gelap!

Sumpah aku tak tipu!

Tiba-tiba..

Sang guruh sudah mula berlagu..

Kunampak di sebalik awan hitam itu..

Ada bayangan Sang kilat cuba main sembunyi-sembunyi. .

Aku cemas..

Tidak semena-mena. .

Bayangan wajahmu menerpa di balik retinaku..

Aku cemas..

Adakah Sang Jahiliyah - Si Pengkhianat bolos, lalu melarikan diri?

Dan menghurung dirimu kembali?

Aku sendiri tak pasti....... ......... ......... ......

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Satu Dedikasi buat Diri dan Teman-teman yang dicintai..

Buat yang masih teguh memerangi karat jahiliyah yang masih bersarang di hati, teruskan langkahanmu!

Namun, jika ada yang mula hilang arah tuju..

Kufaham, bukan mudah untuk memenggal musuh itu..

Namun, jangan pernah putus asa!

Teruskan memacu laju kuda perangmu..

Menuju ke medan jihad itu!

Menang atau syahid..

Itu sahaja pilihanmu.

Muhasabah Cintaku

(Jika diikutkan hati, ingin sahaja aku tagih janjimu dahulu. Namun, itu kau punya hati. Hanya Rabbi yang Maha memegang hati. Aku sudah cuba untuk memberi. Namun, pemberianku mungkin tidak cukup baik. Ataukah aku yang belum cukup baik? Sungguhpun begitu, dalam kidung doaku, kumohon agar janji yang kaupatri dahulu akan menjadi sesuatu yang PASTI. Itu doaku.)

Aku yang setia menanti..doaku tidak pernah henti,

Iman Muslihah

Sheffield

26 Muharram 1430

:+: Xperience tarbiyyah Best :+:

2009-01-22T23:28:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum bloggerz,

This is a story that r experience on the night of 20th january 2009... On that night we are having a gathering at Srusop. It was quite rainy that day, from morning til night*totally emotional, i love rain soo much*

It was 9++ pm when we all decided to go back home, that time it was really heavily raining.. Me, Cicitnya, Emy.F, mak yung and Qil was in one car*we were planning to send emy.F to her house in Penapar, Tutong but b4 that we nd to antar mak yung ke hostel UBD* while Miz and Idah in another car *she is sending Idah who leave in tanjung bunut* while Ami+her Bro*speedo* hv jz leave earlier b4 us*They are riding the so Awesome Lexus* and Ain and hani using another car*Ain nd to send tikah to her house at sg.Klugos*. Basically we all are using kereta yang kecil2. Soo there we goes zoom~zoom~ ke destinasi yang kami hajati.

All thru our journey, Me, cicitnya, emy.F, mak yung and Qil who are in one car are quite tentatively listening to Qil who are giving tadabur on surah Abasa. Quite interesting *jzkk pada Qil yang berusaha menyampaikan nya dengan pengetahuannya dalam berbahasa arab juga*.

"Bah kita sembahyang isya' dulu ah di masjid ubd" tiba2 kata cicitnya yang sedang sibuk memandu membuatkan kami semua mengiyakan*it wud be quite fun Praying bramai2* So the car head to masjid UBD but the weirder part is that all the light in the mosque was shut down *aik since when does masjid ubd close early*. Soo we then decide to send mak Yung dulu and then Zoom~Zoom~ we head ke Tutong using the highway..*still raining*

All along the journey, i was totally sleepy and tired because i was working that day with a full schedual that needed to be fulfilled and a responsibility that are put on my shoulders*totally Ngantuk* so i was like "Cicitnya Aku tidur dulu ahh~" and eventho i try so hard to sleep but i get totally worry since the car are like zigzaging in addition to it was following a car infront. Water was lashing toward the car not jz from the rain but also from the car infront *huhuhuhuh We almost have an accident when cicitnya try to overtake where a large amount of water are lashing toward our car* "Cicitnya!!! Bisai2 huhuhuhu biartah ku pengsan nah huhuhuh kan idup jua ku masih ni" Jeritan yang automatically kluar dari mulutku tanpa ku sedari kes terperanjat. Well *it was a total panic, which after that everyone chill* and emy.F cakap " Perlahan2 saja drive tu ehh" Soo with that kereta yang kami ikuti itu pun perlahan saja lalunya...well cut..

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Setelah melintasi jerudong tiba2 saja kereta yang kami ikuti itu berbunyi huhuhu jadi atas persetujuan semua kmi pun menunggu di tepi jalan dan merehatkan kereta itu slama 30 min *it was 10pm already...* while 1040pm cicitnya drive the car again and listening hard if the sound have stop...but there goes the sound again which everyone was confident that it come from the engine

"Bowhh masuk dalam enjin kali sudah air" kata emy.F huhuhuh den we hv to stop again and wait for another 30 min on the side of the road..It was 11pm and the road are so dark, den cicitnya wanna move a few more distant infront and we are exactly waiting near to the side of bukit panggal *tempat liat anak bulan* huhuhuhuhu everyone was like bising udah eventho some panicking don't know wat to do... Which we den decided to ask help from Abg mirah*si speedo* but no one was answering~~huhuhuhu with a total last decision of hope we dial up Adik Akhi Y and alhamdulillah he did answer*melegakan sedikit kepanikan*

"Knapa ukhTi? " tnya nya... maka kami pun menjelaskan mengapa kami menelepon nya... "Err kami pun terstranded jua rah jerudong tapi we try to help wat we can,ana wud call up g later, try to call CL " kata nya mengakhiri perbualan.. smpat juga Qil mendengar telepon sebelum menutup telepon berkenaan mencuri dgr perbualan paci2 nya "Wai kamu sister pun terstuck jua" wahahhaaha betapa lucunya... hampir dlm 20 min kami menanti langsung belum ada kbr berita bahwa paci berkenaan akan menghubungi kmi, kmi mula cemas kembali... Cicitnya lantas berusaha menghubungi Speedo skali lagi, "Alhamdulillah dia mengangkatnya" dan gez wat hehehha "Kami pun terstranded jua di jalan jangsak" kata speedo mengemparkan dan melucukan kami....hahahahaha kami terstranded beramai2 di jalan raya. Maka afta awhile utk menenangkan rsa cemas kami since kami rasa kami wud tido djalan raya malam itu Qil pun berkata "Jom bca mathurat" maka kami pun membaca mathurat beramai2 tenang rasanya...smasa hendak berdoa tiba2 telepon berdering nama adik Y terpapar di skrin hp, cicitnya lantas menjawab...Sementelah kami menyambung bacaan kami dan menghabiskan nya, tiba2 sebuah kereta berhenti di sebelah kmi dan nampak kelibatan 2 org lelaki didalam nya bertanya..."Ok kah?"

Alhamdulillah rsanya tika itu, akhirnya kami dibantu oleh kaum adam...Fuhh lantas kami turun dari kereta beramai2 dan beralih ke blakang kereta bertelepon...Masing2 tika itu sibuk dgn telepon *aku dgn panggilan dri kak Zu, Ayu dgn panggilan dri speedo, Qil dgn panggilan dri abgnya manakala emy dgn panggilan dri khiar*. totally Sibuk tanpa kmi sedari bahawa 2 lelaki itu menghilang dgn kereta mereka...hanya menyedarinya kala emy berkata "Aii mana tia durg ahh??" huhuhuhu meskipun diri ini cuba berfikir positif bahawa mereka mungkin meminta tolong pada rakan2 mereka lainnya *husnu zhon* namun tunggu punya tunggu kelibatan mereka langsung tk ada....

okai im gnna cut a few adegan yang melucukan kami eventho mungkin memanickan seperti apabila Qil meminta tolong abgnya to aga kami, d abg basically ckp "ermz nda dapat tow kah?? ada telepon towing kah??" *GRRRR~~ totally menguji kesabaran org, dahlah kmi semua yang dlm keta tu semua perempuan n kat jln raya yang serba gelap dia blh dok ckp gtu pulak alahai~~*...k cut..

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Last2 around 11sumthing2 skali lagi adik Y mengesahkan bahawa kak Zu dan suaminya akan mengambil kami, Emy pula di ambil oleh abgnya... Maka kami pun menanti dalam kereta dgn sabarnya... Sambil2 Kami memuhasabah diri mengenangkan kejadian yang berlaku pada kami malam itu hinggalah Qil berkata " Mungkin sebab kita lambat2kan solat kali tadi, sepatutnya kita sembahyg saja tdi tarus b4 kan balik di srusop ahh, LAJU EHH KITA SOLAT!!" PAP!! terasa benarnya lantas kami pun mula keluar dari kereta berhujan dan mengunakan botol yang berisi air utk berwudhu"

"Bah camna ni, dimana kan sembhyang?" soal Qil.
"Didalam ketalah ndakn kita kan sembahyang diluar keta, atas jalan raya berhujan2 krg lain pulang jadinya lagi. kata ucap kita ajaran sesat tah plang" balas cicitnya
"sesat apanya ehh~~kan sembahyang jua kita ni" balas Qil smula... memang nampak kenyataan trsebut tika itu namun jika kami sembahyg dijalan raya juga tika itu berhujan2 pasti benar kereta2 yang lalu lalang pasti akan rasa kami ni ajaran sesat atau kurg2 pun kurg siuman huhuhuhu.. lalu kami pun solat duduk didalam keta. It was 12sumthing2 and alhamdulillah around that time akhirnya ka Zu dan suaminya telah tiba...k Cut

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We reach home around 1++am di rimba..There another tarbiyyah awaits us hahahaaha gez wat~~ Me,Cicitnya and Qil have to knock the pintu rumah 4 abt 30 mins~~~*We dont hv the house key+ka Zu have already leave us infront of the house*

Bermacam2 usaha kmi cuba utk mmbangunkan pghuni rumah tersebut including message, telephone, mengetuk pintu *smpai kn pacah rasanya udh* but org rumah tk de response huhuhuh tarbiyyah~~tarbiyyah~~ masya'Allah macam bermacam2 memikiran melintas di kepala kami n d option are as follow :

teruskan mengetuk pintu*f nada jua terpaksalah kami tdo dluar rumah waktu tu berhujan2*
Bangunkan durg using alarm keta *since keta durg akan berbunyi as f kami kan merompaklah tu..which 4 tiz option kami hv to cncel it up bcz if we do it semua jiran2 yang berhampiran akan tbangun.. lain plang cetanya lagi tu*
Jalan kaki kumah Qil yang jaraknya wud take like 30mins *which aku and cicitnya malas kan buat since kami rily nd a rest*

Soo last2 nya i was like "Ok Qil if dalam 5 min urg umah alum g bgn2 den kita jalan kaki" Soo i was like knocking hard braviz smpai sakit2 tangan den Alhamdulillah min ke-6 akhirnya ternampak kelibatan k.k dan k.M d tangga lantas aku pun mejerit "tolong~~tolong~~* smbil tangan ku mengetuk tingkap menjelaskan kami berada di pintu umah...Alhamdulillah... It was 130am that tym and i got a msg from miz gto ia pun baru balik jua..with the end *Scary~~* barutah ku tau ia terstranded jua dibribi telanai... meskipun my instinct do tell me ia pun terstuck...

For the 1st tym ever afta balik Brunei, kami ditarbiyyah smpai kan menyedarkan kami betapa der's no such thing as coincidence + a lots more of stuff such as "Huhuhu lapas ni nda ku mau buat dosa g ehh" begitulah tahapnya.. begitu byk pengajaran dan rasa2 nya semua org yang menghadapi semua itu turut merasai perkara yang sama i'Allah... segala puji bagi Allah yang mengaturkan yang terbaik buat hamba-hamba-Nya.
Apapun Allah takkan uji hamba-hamba-Nya tanpa mengambil kira kemampuan hamba-hamba-Nya utk menghadapi ujian berkenaan.. Masya'Allah Subhannallah Allahuakhbar!! i'Allah semua i/a yang di uji merasa gembira dgn ujian yang ditimpa kan pada mereka..*secara peribadi , i did enjoy myslf*

Lotz was hppning namun kesinambungan kisah malam itu tidak berakhir sampai itu namun turut di cukupkan bentuknya dgn cerita dri Miz dan Speedo serta cicitnya*yang menjdi mgsa rompakan oleh 2 org lelaki yang kmi pkr membantu kami dijalan raya itu*....

JZKK buat i/a yang membantu kami serta juga pada rakan diri ini yang siap menemani diri ini menenangkan kebosanan waktu menanti di ambil olh kak Zu..jzkk...Jazakumullahu khairan khatira'

I end up it here wit d sharing of

"Believe in Allah make u believe that u cud go thru anything Allah takdirkan buat dirimu dgn rasa redha dan tawakal pada-Nya"

Assalamualaikum...

:+: Kembali Ke Brunei :+:

2009-01-17T04:29:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum bloggy

Miss Me?? Alhamdulillah i hv been back in brunei on the 15th january 2008 *2 days ago* hehehe haven't got an anything to update yet bcz need to get myslf like lotz of ideas and etc...hehehhe k. to all KYAAA!! i do MISS you GuyzZ hehehe...

:+: Seminars Going On :+:

2009-01-06T21:52:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum Bloggy^^

Alhamdulillah im glad that im back blogging after more or less a week (Dec30-Jan06) eventho tz gonna be like again my another chipmores blog huhuhu bcz i wouldn't be blogging for another a week (Jan07-Jan15) bcz im gonna be attending a seminars sumwhere out from Brunei....*WorkCall*

Well i really wanna scream, seriously....... hhahahaha bcz again time is moving faster than i expected... well let see...

i was back from KK on the 23rd den i was staying at my Grandmother house@Luagan Duduk for like 6 days(from jan01 to jan06) den hmmph on the 2nd i was interview for a jobs, OMG!! den on the jan4th all of sudden i was ask to attend a meeting in the job place and KYAAA!!! i was accepted *SHOCK!!!* that day it seem like again im having d word "SYSTEMSHOCK" which jz like during in Telbru... D Next day jan05 was my first day to work and guess wat?? First day working i was like 11mins late huhuhuhu n SERIoUSLy 1st day working's Tiring huhuhu...*sigh*Hmmph den on the 6th alhamdulillah i actually manage to masak Dimsum heheheh *Congratez to me and my adik nana n rina* eventho d shape aren't like dumpling but popia shape actually still our parent cakap "OK2 blh tahan nyamannya" hehehe d word's SUcCeSS!! alhamdulillah...Works?? hmmph my 2nd day working on the Jan06 arent' that bad bcz i start remembering names and get to know dem better....n it seem like im attached to them already wahahah cute kali~PS: I owez get tired after works soo afwan for nda terlayan msn

Jan07 dat's today, 3rd day of working*Tired* bcz i been transfer to a new environment hence again i have to start knowing names and new faces huhuhuhu ohwell but d most exciting part's "now i know hw to actually remember people names and faces*alhamdulillah...

k. i wud end up til here for my chipmores blog hehehe bcZ im getting tired and geezZ later@6pm i wud have to wen to a'port sooO again don't mizz me til the Jan15 heheheh n for dat im giving everyone a HuGZZ *hugZ*

k... a sharing today would be from wat a doa that i heard numbers of kids reading this morning, which really touches me... May Everyone have the same feeling too^^

"Ya Allah
ingatkanlah kmi apa yang kmi lupai
ajarknlahx3 apa yg kmi ketahui
pastikanlah kmi membacanya quran
jadikanlh ianya hujah kami.."masya'allah... subhannallah... jzkk

@Tungku, Jan0709, 2:13pm,Condition: im tired + ngantuk +OMG i leaving brunei again..

.may Allah permudahkan sgala urusan dan tidak susahkan*rabbi yassir wala tuassir ya Kareem*

:+: Updated Entry at my Other blog :+:

2008-12-30T20:59:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum all

hehehe it was like i have been totally enjoying myself on updating my other blog this day due to d series of event it make me to write related to d blog mood soo seriously f wanna see me updating my blog n daily life jz have a visit*not jz a visit but also reading* at my http://perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com k..chauz dulu..cz it's 31 today and OMG 1.03pm and i haven't clean-up d house yet..ghuhuhuhu k..see u all

assalamualaikum :)

@bilik abg*my lp2p still sakit*, 311208, 1.04pm, condition: later i wud have to stayover at umah nini huhuhuhu...

:+: Trying so hard :+:

2008-12-28T22:22:00.000-08:00

Eversince yesterday i have been having problem with updating my blog due to my laptop/ shud i say my lp2p batteries and adapter problem~~it's totally a chaos to me since my lp2p jz keep on shutting down own it on.*sigh*

It rily make me wanna be angry but ohwell no big deal, i have to start living with d problem and alhamdulillah tz evening i was able to write in my blog wit the always cautious feeling f just in case the lp2p wud suddnly shut again suddenly~~ hehehehe

Hmmph well maybe for this entry i wud be writing on wat i have been doing for the last 3 days... [26th,27th,28th] hehehe....

Well on the 26th my family members (my mum, dad, sisters(3 of them), nawi, alan) are leaving to bintulu for family vacation which dey actually brought me to join them the night b4 but i can't go with them since i have other commitment at tasiklama on the same day they are leaving... So it's decided dat i and 3 of my sibling( apai and 2 of my elder brother) are left at home... *actually i did ask n plead again and again at my mum asking permission f i could go by bus afta my commitment is over dat tengahari of the 26th but my mum with a stricts look n stern look at her face says "NO!! jgn kn ngada2 ani, f nya mama jgn, ertinya jgn kn bejalan ke bintulu with bus" hahahaha which really prove dat she believe me that i wud really be going by bus to bintulu f i have decided to do so *which i really am is serious~~* hahahaha

Around 645 dey leave the house for their vacation journey, while i was pick around 730am by the gengs~~*sigh* man we are late!! ohwell... so when we actually reach tasik lama we are like 30 mins late...we schedual the event shud start at 8am but we ourselves are late 30mins huhuhu sorry to those who wait for us.... *it really is something we shud always jaga n muhasabah diri*

Hmmph i wudn' be saying much abt the event cz it seem like i still got lots to be updated...soo let just cuts certain detail k..

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and alhamdulillah around 12pm we finish our event at tasik lama n succeed in hiking!! ahahahaha...
Den we n d gengs when to sai's place for lepaking and above all solat zohor and asar at her place and alhamdulillah we get back at our home somewhere before malam menjelma with my fren teasing at me saying that "aikk zie slalunya f ur parent are at home u r always late to come back at home, but ani your parent n family nada begagas ko kan balik..." *hhehee strange ryte~~* hahahaha

Dat nyte i was like cooking for myslf and do simple activity like cleaning my room hahahaha den at 10pm i when ZZZZZ xhausted.... noww cut..

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Morning arise..it's 271208...dat day i have nothing to do..no jalan2 o lepak2 o out from the house...it's quite suni actually at home sendiri + my fam says dey wud be home today so i decided to neglect sai invitation in playing bowling with them at grand utama dat nyte cz im worry my family wud be angry with me f i start going out again. hehehe...so dat day i jz fully used my time to clean d house, my room but i thing that im totally aint touching's throwing and burning my sisters past year book n paper huhuhuuu*it seem like alot~~ iath jd mcm malas menjangkau*...Other activity that i do that day is also blogging hahaha it seem as if i been putting to many entry on dat day hehehehe lotzz... hmmph around 11pm yay!! my family is home!!! hehe so i jz when to my bed and ZZZZZzz again xhausted...

281208....I have date with the geng at this date...hmmph we promise to attend KaDiana marriage!! WAAA subhannallah we arrive at her place at 1215pm and already der are lots of ppl..n once arriving we left our thing on the invited guest chair and rush to see her, excited *it been like 1 years we haven't met her and suddenly bila jumpa she was OMG married!! KYAAA!!!* alhamdulillah she look amazingly cute n pretty n cute n pretty....cudn't believe she married dat day whahahaaha...teasing her i say "nda percaya eh u r married ordy" and she say "believe it" at the same time showed her hand to me showing the wedding ring on her hand hahahaha...My My My she is still naughty as before.. hahahaha moga perkahwinan nya dan bro faisal wud be diredhai Allah amin...

For that day i was like happy for those i/a that have got married ordy... may Allah bless their wedding, may Allah gv them marriage which cud lead them to happiness n berada dalam biah yang soleh dan solehah n may dey are owez dapat terus maintain kuat dalam bidang SH dan petani....AMEEN AMEEN AMEEN...

Afta d wedding finish, we when to mall to disturb ukhti Qilah at her working place and lepak there for like 6 hours i guess...hmmph yep 6 hours, we been in mall from 1pm-6sumthing2...even we are able to actually meraihkan awal tahun baru hijrah der at the mall area...aduhai... it was like d full gengs was der accept for nurul and mimie...hmmph which Aisah thankz to her blanja kami mkn at cheezbox...jzkk aisah...we read msg ummi sama2 n also doa sama2 for the awal tahun baru hijrah 1430... May Allah give us all strengh to continually tsabat n may we are able to always berusaha perbaiki diri di jalan yang diredhai-NYA...AMEEN AMEEN AMEEN....

Well den afta solat maghrib d surau mall we decided to go to sai's place n to my terror der we hv curahat huhuhuhu it was about "Marriage" wahuhuhuhu no komen i wud cut dat part....cut

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n OMG!! me and cicitnya was at central mall at 1045pm huhuhu here i wud like to say "afwan cicitnya cz i hv make u felt terrible infront of ppl u wudn't wanna be feeling terrible to...afwan"

i was home at 11 something dat nyte and back home i was like OMG!! innallaha maal sobbirin*sabar2* bcz my room was a MESS!! *sigh* wat shud i do with my sibling~~~huhuhuhu ohwell

n today i was late in waking up..huhuhu it's 29 today n i hv dinner with ukhti ness later .. it's 3.09pm rytenow..k. i chau dulu..hehhe promise my driver dat i wud be ready at 330pm hehehe *let see wat shud i wear tonyte*

SLAMAT TAHUN BARU HIJRAH SMUA!!!

AHLAN WASAHLAN 1430H

asslmualaikum...

:+: Perginya seorang ibu.. :+:

2008-12-26T21:29:00.000-08:00

Aku ingin mengongsi satu post yang terjadi baru2 ini pada seorang guru yang ku anggap seperti abi ku sendiri yang ku gelar babah, buat telahan kita semua.... Meski tidak punyai hubungan darah namun ukhuwah islamiah juga yang menyatukan kami, ku dan rakan2 seperjuangan lain turut merasai kesedihan beliau kala mendapat tahu pemergian ibu beliau... ..takziah dari kami semua....

Perginya seorang ibu..
Masih tergaman hingga kini. dia meninggalkan aku semasa aku menggemggam erat tangannya.
Malam itu aku hampir tertidur setelah penat sebelumnya tidak tidur. Setelah membaca yasin sebanyak 3 kali (ada hadis dhaif yang menyebutkan bahawa elok membaca yasin pada orang yang orang hampir meninggal, kerana ia akan memudahkan keluar ruh).

Aku terbangun, mengambil wudhu’ lagi dan mula ingin menyambung bacaan yasin untuk kali keempat. Waktu dah jam 1.00 pagi. Aku pegang tangan ibu yang agak tercungap-cungap susah untuk bernafas. Aku pegang nadinya… aku mula membaca yasin.

Tiba ayat-ayat ke belasan, nafasnya mula pendek… kakak, abang dan nenekku semua berada di keliling. Aku membaca lagi perlahan-lahan. Ayat 15, 16 dan ayat 17. Ku rasai nadinya telah terhenti. aku baca lagi mengulangi ayat 17. Nadinya terhenti….

Ummmiiiiiiii……..

Ummi telah pergi. Aku pegang kepalanya merasai nadi pada tepi dahinya. semuanya telah terhenti. Terasa benar betapa dekatnya kematian yang baru sahaja melalui tepi tanganku.
Aku menangis habis-habisannn.. Semua adik beradikku menangis. aku tutup matanya (sebagaimana sunnah).

Alhamdulillah. Walaupun ummi telah pergi, namum aku puas. Ummi selalu sebut pada Abi yang sering kadangkala tidak membenarkan aku keluar dari kampung lama-lama. “Biarlah dia pergi. kita dah tak boleh buat apa yang dia buat. Kita tumpang pahala anak kita”.

Ia beri kekuatan padaku. Ummi tak kesah aku keluar. Tapi aku tetap akan pulang jika ada peluang. Memang, lebih separuh dari pendapatan bulananku adalah digunakan untuk membeli tiket untuk menziarahi ummi.

Paling ku hargai dan menyayukan aku, ummi berkata di saat-saat akhir dia boleh bercakap: “ummi maaf semua kesalahan….” selepas itu, ummi tidak lagi boleh berkata-kata lagi.
Jzklh ummi….. Allah lebih menyayangi mu.

Dan keesokan harinya, anak saudara ku telah bermimpi melihat ummi dalam pakaian yang baru dan tersenyum, datang berjumpanya… dan sedang berjalan menuju ke taman yang sangat indah !

:+: Ahlan Wasahlan :+:

2008-12-24T14:48:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah Allahu'Akhbar Subhannallah to those who are been having 'jalan2' sekitar dec ani. no matter ke Andalusia/ KK/ etc d main thing is dat all of us are looking forward to stand on our SH i'Allah.. ALLAHU'AKHBAR!!! Ahlan Wasahlan ke destination masing2

Oppsy b4 forgetting, assalamualaikum bloggy *^-^* it been 6 days dat i been away from having myslf on9/ blog/ surfing and alhamdulillah yesterday me and d gengs alhmdulillah reach brunei around 7am afta a nyte delay at limbang...

Subhannallah lots hv been happening during d 6 days which was quite alhamdulillah Allah hv give strength and melt up d ice dat hv been threatening d heart of the belonger, alhamdulillah... Seem like eventho d environment at our homestay in KK was as chilling as wat it suppose to be but still d heart are as starting to be burning each days it gone through Masya'Allah...

alhamdulillah Lots of knowledge are gained, experiences gathered, relationship mended, iman fulfilled and niat refreshed.

Above all, im grateful dat i was still at the road which i wanna be dgn Izin-NYA jua... May Allah give us strength every second and moments of our life to be able to do [2:30] and [51:56]...

For more go to http://perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com

Thursday,251208,@home,8:29am,condition: Im backk!!! alhamdulillah ahlan wasahlan 4 myslf

:+: Missing In Action :+:

2008-12-18T11:02:00.000-08:00

191208, Friday@Kumi for slpover....

Assalamualaikum bloggy and all keen readers..

It's 3.05am rytenow and im totally kinda getting myslf prepare for the journey that gonna be a 7 hr journey which the countdown are less than an hour now heheheehe so that mean that im ain't gonna be blogging/ onlining just after today heheheh*well that if i cudn't find any internet access*. SOOO don't miss me but jz rindu me hahahaha.. Well Take good care of each of urslf and make sure you guyz are well prepared for my return hahaha. Im gonna be Missing in Action starting tz 19-23.

This is it that i been waiting for.. A journey to which i cud start shaving on my physical, mental and spirit *gee i have been totally a mess eversince this last few months* Soo doa2 kn ku k all :) mudah2'an when im back already i wud be a total good fuel and a boast hehehe...

K. all i cud write is up til dat i gez *hahahah so much for an early waker i gez XP* heehe got other thing to do and etc...I pray for e.one of u guyz out 4 u guyz punya happiness i'Allah *wait 4 my return K*

PS: CONGRATEZ TO ALL HND intake 22 WHO CONFIRMLY ARE NOW HND HOLDER 99% STARTING FROM YESTERDAY 4.30pm*d result are out yesterday 181208* HOPE GONNA MEET YOU GUYS DURING GRADUATION DAY *hehehe i'Allah we gnna met b4 dat*

pray for the best and always rmmber to be grateful to Allah bcz have gv us all strengh in doing our exam and also gv us the capability to betawakal during waiting our result... Whatever that Allah have decided that is the best for us... Ketentuan-Nya there nothing less that we could expect dari-Nya because our fates lies at the hand of Our Maha Pencipta..hee don't forget that all.

Rabbi yassir Wala Tuasir *Ya Rabb Permudahkanlah dan Jgnlh disusahkan* Amin

:+: ppl are counting :+:

2008-12-17T19:30:00.000-08:00

i felt totally cramp with ppl surround me are actually counting hahahaha counting when the result are actually out... Which is 2day!! It's making me overall totally wholely OMG...Well dn't know f i shud count it too or not but i dn't hv d tendency to count it bcz i hv like lotz to think abt for today itslf such as hmmph

1. what things shud i pack 4 my KK since it is esk *KYAAA!!! I HVN'T PACK YET!!!*
2. Shud i bring my lptp??
3. Bunoi gonna b arriving at tutong around 4pm l8r huhuhu wat shud i do to get out from d event at kpg to get to kumi house? *ia blik hj*
4. Im,myslf nervous for the prog in KK *wahuuhuhuhuhu mcm nda pernah2 pigi jln2 4 prog*
5. Im not worrying abt money but wat i worry most is myslf preparation*i wnna d prog to gv impact to me wit a great hit*
6. My Niat!!
7. How are we gnna fill those 7 hr journey with something useful instead of talking nuisance
8. Myhead is on KK rytenow huhuhuhuhu im worry but at d same time excited.
9. Hving myslf reading more den usual....
10. MyGOSH no area for spacing out
11. Mttrs that shud be resolve after blik dari kk...

*KYAAA!!! im panicking* may Allah gv us ol strength to face all the things that been bothering the head...

"ya Allah gv us strength and may us all succeed. Sungguh if we are bhijrah because of You&Your Rasul den we would behijrah kearah-Mu dan RasulMu, namun jika kami berhijrah kerana inginkan dunia, maka kami akan berhijrah kearah itu. Ya Allah, sungguh takdir kami ditangan-Mu. Moga kami terus tsabat dijalan yang Engkau redhai, Permudahkanlah Ya Allah dan bantulah kami" Amin...

Rabbi Yassir Wala Tuasir

PS: May All Of us get thru HND tahun ani...AMIN

:+: Difficulties to write again :+:

2008-12-16T18:44:00.000-08:00

It been quite sometime that after last entry that i was trying to put words on my finger but nothing came up... I felt soo frustrated on how i have been..*i cn't no longer be a writer who could wrote a long essay and stuff..Sad*. It make me reflect on myslf wat have i done tiz time which make my words soo stiff and have no feeling at all*since i cn't expressed my feeling well and could write it to the limit of real*. i keep on asking until i remmber abt how UkhT Nurul saying during d nxtday of bbQ " Stop making Sin, because d sin would stop us from doing goodstuff"-- she was saying tz advice bcause she was sharing wat she had heard in d radio how imam *huhuhu i forgot his name, but basically he's one of the 4 imam besar* well leave dat 4 now basically d imam was quite good in hafalan n etc but for some period of time the imam cudn't longer do hafalan as good as b4 so he when to see another imam and tell him abt what he was facing.. d imam told him " Berhentilah buat maksiat kerana maksiat itulah yang menjadi punca kenapa Allah tidak mengizinkan lalunya kebaikkan" n d problematic imam did wat have been told and soon after he finally got into his original form...

huh?? wat relate d above story with me?? hmmph bcz it's d same as me tz day *im reflecting myslf* bcz i made sins tiz few days hence dat's y im totally a mess. I cudn't write, do thing properly, i also hv a v.hot temper recently+ my time gone totally a waste doing stupid and jahiliah stuff more worse is dat my mind is totally a mess *astagfirullah,masya'Allah...what hv i done to myslf* d worse part of all is i cn't do my MA properly...

It scared me.. rily does bcz it in d sense make me wanna say hello~hv i ever feel d fear to Allah doing all those sin?? . I cn't write a good words because my heart itslf is unsettle..my iman itself is unsettle...i cn't settle because my amal is also unsettle. It make me sad not because i cud't write but d fact dat my condition ryte now is not the ryte cndition to face people with a good example... n it's not a condition which i wanna present infront of Allah...*unsettled*

I wouldn't say it's ok to continue living like this bcause it's a nuisance..Iman mmg ada turun dan naiknya but setiap turun iman itu pastikan naiknya adalah lebih tinggi dari naik sebelumnya.. Hence Trying to improve is d only solution...Sungguh Allah Maha Penerima Taubat..

* a doa in d heart *

Back to Allah because there's everything dat a person could always have been confidence in doing kerana salah satu dri hak Allah ialah kita kembali kepada-Nya dalam sgala hal dan urusan..

Assalamualaikum....

:+: vacation :+:

2008-12-13T07:20:00.000-08:00

KYAA!!!!! it been abt more than a week dat i hvn't update my blogs whether tz blog nor my other blogs during this holiday... not dat im ain't dn't wnna blog anymore nor having a boring holiday but bcz of i jz dn't know wat to type in / tell abt. hhehehehe. *blushing* plus im having difficulties in having my fingers to create words and phrases appropriately tz day soooo dat is 1 of the thing which make me hesistate to be a writer hahahahaha

Well a lot been happening after the final exam which last on the 29thNovember2008 example like a visit n stayover from sis IPBA which are like 21 ppl to brunei(stay here from 291108-51208), den dgni k.mehran to be jln2 with sis labuan, perihal pindah rumah, blik tutong, buat ambuyat, hmmph pigi limbang wit parent, dinner invitations, hmmmphhh bbq, jmpa sis jepun with her family, akhi A flight, tkbir umah nini, wireless@home bepasang n bla bla bla.... *basically byklah hehehe*

Overall it was like those days are like a full days which flews slowly but at d same time a tressures to me..

well no pixes dz entry cz aku ngantuk tba2 kwengx3 heheh well nxt tyme lah ek:) k. that ol assalamualaikum..

CUTI TIA JUA BLOG KU ANI KWENGx3 heheheh

Loc: @umah k.Ros event : sleepover kondisi: rindu...rindu...rindu

:+: Alhamdulillah we SURVIVE :+:

2008-11-29T01:44:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah A big grateful dan kesyukuran praise to Allah.. alhamdulillah alhamdulillah berkat kesabaran, kekuatan&ketabahan yg diberikan-NYA berlalu lah sudah tempoh Final EXAM bagi CIS-INT22 pada hari ini tepat pukul 1140am tdi(291108) hehehe alhamdulillah

WaA~~~ lega rasanya abiz exam ordy alhamdulillah, berusah dgn laptop ku*for listening d rhythms* and also whiteboard heheheh utk buat notes and etc....

For this entry i would like to congratulate every1 includng me kerana mampu menghadapi hari2 kesibukkan final year, congratulate every1 n me krana bisa menjalani SDP dan mengharungi Final year exam dgn izin-NYA jua...mudah2an kita akan diberi kekuatan dan kesabaran utk terus bertawakal kepada Allah dalam menanti keputusan exam dan Sdp kita. mudah2an kita bisa berjaya dan memegang HND kita tahun ini dgn izin-Nya jua. AMIN.

terima kasih jua pada Ibubapa yg sering kali mendoakan keberjayaan kita, jazakallah bonda ayahanda

Jazakallah jua pd Rakan2 CIS krana sama2 mengharungi tahun2 di itb bersama2, syukran minna

Jazakallah jua pd Akhwatfillah yg turut mendoakan kejayaan kmi dan menyokong kmi dalam susah, senang, tawa dan sedih jzkk

Jazakallah jua pd ahli rumah ijau yg memahami ku dan membenarkan ku kluar waktu malam menghilangkan stress., trima kasih...

Jazakallah pd smua...

Ya Allah, ku syukuri akan takdir yang telah Kau tentukan buat diri ini. Pengajaran dan jua sgala dugaan yang dikau takdiri.. Ya Allah berikanlah kekuatan dan kesabaran pd kami2 dlm menghadapi apa jua liku2 takdir yang Kau tkdirkan....

let myFeet stay firm and myHeart stay unchanged---Dmana, kmana, bila biarlah kuserahkan tkdirku pdMu dan hatiku dlm usaha mencintai-Mu ya Rabbku, Cahaya Hatiku (NurulQalbi)

PADA UBD'AN & ITB'AN yang still exam all d best, bittaufiq wannajah

ps: ada msg buat anda di http://perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com dari NZ

so read it up K *^-^*

:+: Pengubat hati dari-Nya :+:

2008-11-14T23:47:00.000-08:00

" Setiap Kesakitan seorang Muslim hadapi, walaupun sedikit atau banyak, akan gugurlah dosanya seperti dedaunan pokok maka bersabarlah atas kesakitan itu kerana ianya mengugurkan dosa2 yang dimasa lalu "

:: ZJAZiE48:: kondisi [...memoir of d love song...]

:+: Preserving a Good Life :+:

2008-11-14T23:46:00.000-08:00

CHEMISTRY!!! that is salah satu subjek yg ku sukai di masa A'Level dan O'level ku... Quite interesting lah basically subject nya hehehe... well basically due to such interest in chemistry i was determine to do some research on melamine in a chemistry perspective.

SoOO basically those people who wanna know y melamine is dangerous and should be avoided in a scientific way instead of in a wordy way is because it is::

CHEMISTRY SIDE:

Melamine is an organic base and a trimer of cyanamide, with a 1,3,5-triazine skeleton. Like cyanamide

Molecular Formula

C3H6N6

it contains 66% nitrogen by mass and
if mixed with resins, has fire retardant properties due to its release of nitrogen gas when burned or charred, and has several other industrial uses.
Melamine is also a metabolite of cyromazine, a pesticide. It is formed in the body of mammals who have ingested cyromazine.
Melamine combines with cyanuric acid to form melamine cyanurate, which has been implicated in the Chinese protein export contaminations.

Well to make thing more easier to be understand, above diagram are the molecular diagram of melamine which could be see from above on how the chemistry of melamine is only NITROGEN, HYDROGEN AND CARBON... and above all from that it is also quite unstable due to the exist of the double bond between nitrogen and carbon

Sooo...logical thinking why melamine was quite dangerous to our body is dat when inside our body it would cause our kidney to do extra work. hence resulted to a kidney failure and also cancer....

BIOLOGY SIDE:

Hmmph~~Now here came the biology side.. Kidney as we know the work was to do remove excess urea(nitrogen + hydrogen), sugar level and etc from our body blood stream.

Melamine in low dose is quite not dangerous but when it combined with cyanuric acid which is ada in our body it causes fatal kidney stones due to formation of an insoluble melamine cyanurate.

bila melamine and cyanuric acid are absorbed into the bloodstream, they concentrate ( more melamine+cyanuric acid inside the blood rather that any other blood contents such as water and etc). bila melamine and cyanuric acid get concentrated, they interact in the urine filled renal microtubules, then crystallize and form large numbers of round, yellow crystals, which in turn block and damage the renal cells that line the tubes, causing the kidneys to malfunction.

SHARING SIDE:

well jz wanna gv my own idea from above research is that we have brain, feeling and also ability to think and etc so why gv a 80% of our life to do/ take something stupido which danger our life and decrease our chances to live life healthily?? hmmphh~~

One of the keperluan diri as a muslim dat shud be taken into account is JAGA HAK DIRI which conclude menjaga

Agama
Nyawa
Akal
Maruah/ keturunan
Harta

"Wahai orang-orang yg beriman! makanlah dari rezeki yang baik yang kami berikan kepada kamu dan bersyukurlah kepada Allah, jika kamu hanya menyembah kepada-Nya" (Al-Baqarah:172)

:+: Takdirnya...Takdirku.... :+:

2008-11-11T19:27:00.000-08:00

"HUH??KMI PrESENT ESK???" kejutan yg jdi satu perkara yg berat utk kmi terima.. seolah2 satu hempapan duniawi yg tidak sggp ku hdpi lagi kerana aku terlalu letih utk menguruskan kesibukkan duniawi lagi kerana kami segroup mengharap agar presesntation tersebut pada hari rabu, agar kami dpt rehat sehari dan mengumpul semula tenaga kami namun kenyataan itu terpaksa ditelan dan dihadapi...ketentuanNYA

'Pena telah diangkat, kalam telahpun kering' ---begitulah kenyataanNYA
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"Klu ku mati nanti ramai kah inda org ahh?" tnya rakanku pd ku yg ketika itu berdiri disebelahku.. aku hnya diam namun pertanyaan itu turut menimpa kedalam kepalaku selari dgn persoalan2 lainnya...

sekian lama aku tidak mghadiri mjlis org meninggal, sekian lama jua aku tdak ajukan diriku tntg kematian, ingat mati... terkaku diriku... terasa olehku betapa kesibukkan duniawi buat ku lupa. betapa diri sudah lama tidak terasa oleh kematian....*sedih*.... satu kenyataan yg perlu ku telan dan tekankn utk ku mencheck diriku, imanku, rohaniku...
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"semua nya bergantung pada kekuatan rohani kita, tawakal dan redha--iman dan ksabaran kita"...

kata2 ini sering kali terungkap dari mulut bicara, terlintas dalam kepala namun ianya jua ingatkn ku apakah aku mempraktikkannya??
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takdir nya selepas itu mgkin masuk hospital dan merasa kesakitan dan keluarga nya datang mengunjungi nya dihospital... takdirku pulak ialah merenung peristiwa itu dan memuhasabah kan diriku.... ini satu kenyataan... kerana individu tidak hnya effect dirinya sendiri..Allah telah ciptakn manusia, alam dan sgala2nya utk saling memahami dan mengambil plajaran antara satu dgn yg lainnya

kerana terpulang pada individu sendiri utk membuat stand bagaimana harus hadapi sesuatu yang Allah tentukan dan dri sini jua dtgnya keredhaan dan juga kesedaran bagaimana iman& juga kesabaran...

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Utk tau cerita ku yang sebetulnya sila baca pada http://perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com/ utk entry :+: takdirnya...takdirku....:+:

sekian assalamualaikum...

:+: Some advice for tz days masam muka :+:

2008-11-09T01:42:00.000-08:00

caution! do not! never ever have conclusion on something that u didn't clarify with the person involved! don't believe rumors, don't make assumptions. end.

“Hai orang-orang yang beriman, jika datang kepadamu orang fasik membawa suatu berita, maka periksalah dengan teliti agar kamu tidak menimpakan suatu musibah kepada suatu kaum tanpa mengetahui keadaannya yang menyebabkan kamu menyesal atas perbuatanmu itu.” Al-Hujurat:6

Note:: This is sumthing that i got from a fren sister blog who was jz 15-16yrs old*i dn't rmmber* but overall it was kinda HIT cz seriously i got sooo mental up abt sum1 tz day without understanding his/her situation..Well wateva situation dat she/he having tz day i hope she/he wud be able to be btenang dulu cz seriously he/she are causing every1 to have a long face. GeeZ look around man/girl thinks positive of ur environment. Again ur way of thinking's wat make how you view your life.... & im sorry f i ever hv never understand u/ hurt u again&again/ if i hv started to bsgka buruk abt you,Rily Sorry....

:+: Introducing d Samat's Girlz :+:

2008-11-08T01:29:00.000-08:00

today im kinda ngantuk ckit soo iath upload gmbr skajap hehehe. Hmmph soo i wanna upload abt d Girlz in Samat's Family...hehehe well here i go:

first of ol introducing d heart of the Samat's Girl jeng jeng jeng my Mum hehehe *she's young ryte?? jz 45yrs old kelmarin 071108 hehehe love her

Next introducing the rest of the Girlz in Samat's Life dat are jeng jeng jeng::

Me (the eldest daugther) with the initial,
Azie SamaT (the no.3/4 child) den
AzLiNa SamaT (the 7th child)
AziaWati SamaT (the 8th child)
AzRiNa SamaT (the 9th child)

hehehe cool ryte?? well dat's us 4 girlz including 5 with our sweet mum hahahaha

Okai dat's ol hehehe overall we are 10/9 in the fam. 10 bcz my eldest bro pass away when he was 21 which we proclaim no matter wat he's stil in d numbering of the fam. hence dn't get cnfuse...

there are 4 girlz and 6 guyz in the Samat's Family (make that 7 including my Dad hehehe)

the guyz initial are also with Az hehehe i dn't hv pics soo jz have d name, im introducing them up::

Azle@Sarin Samat (1st son)
AzMi Samat (2nd child)
AzHar Samat (3rd Child)
AzFar Samat (5th Child)
AzLan Samat (6th Child)
AzNawi Samat (the youngest among us hehehe)

Well~~apapun the girlz are like flowerZ blooming in the Garden of Samat hehehehe may we all goes on having our relationship as blossom as ever *Love my Family, my Mum, MySis,& myBro*

:+: Karena jiwa yang meronta Hampa sgala tanpa cahaya Mu :+:

2008-11-08T00:04:00.000-08:00

Dalam hitam kelam malam
Dalam sepi rinduku ya Allah
Suara rintih dalam dada
Dahaganya hati tanpa Mu

Ya Allah Ya Allah
Karna jiwa yang meronta
Hampa segala tanpa cahaya Mu

Ya Allah Ya Rohman
Ya Allah Ya Rohim
Subhanallah wabihamdihi
Subhanallah hil adzim...2x

Dalam lelah dalam resah
Dalam bimbang hilang arahku Zikrullah
Karena jiwa yang meronta
Hampa segala tanpa cahaya Mu

Allah Ya Nurul
Allah Ya Nurul Mukminin
Allah Ya Nurul Adzim
Allah Allah Ya Nur

Lagu:: Allah Ya Nur (opick)

:+: SDP Pushing Point :+:

2008-11-04T22:50:00.000-08:00

It left with 5 more days toward SDP submission date and guess wat??!! every1 seem as bz but stil relax as it's far from submission..kuikuikui but behind all those not soOO bz look actually every1 was having headaches.. Well i'm having headache if wanna cnfirm things up sooO that is one prove hw SDP rily pressurize ppl...

Still i have sumthing dat make me hold on and stand still dat is the one that i love was beside me this few days, supporting me from behind and making me smile eventho the stress was actually above limit ordy*thanks lots love* its all started everytym i was back to 22ng, meet up my precious ppl of all and having the tym spend together with...

If ppl ask me how much did i love this person, i would say i love that person sooo much that i wud cry soo badly if i misses the person and i wud wish i was beside that person if i was stress nor feel sick..SERIOUSLY that is how that person meant to me...

So heheheh thank again love...

F u are reading this dear, mind me to say--> I rily Love You, Love til my Heart wanna say I love you all the tym whenever i was with you... thankz to Allah cz giving me the chances to be with you and be able to love you soo... *Hugs and Kisses from this girl who love you soo much& thankz 4 becoming my pushing factors for SDP*

To all CIS'an intake 22 JAYO 4 SDP!!! wish all the best!!!

:+: Raya'ing KB :+:

2008-10-17T09:39:00.000-07:00

okai im not gnna say much on dz entry jz kn masukkan gmbar ja hehehe but tz event was on the Sunday 121008. a day b4 school day...hehehe read 4 more on perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com hehehe

:+: Odw seria-kb :+:

:+: View yg aku suka liat heheh tasik :+:

:+: kt umah kNess :+:
(i like the book)

(i like d tmpat hntaran cincin tunangnya..d shell especially )

(i like the design kad raya)

(we even voice chat with izzah di umahnya hehe)

:+: for more check my perjalananpengembara.blogspot.com :+:

:+: YAY!! Baby Abrar&Abg Abqari :+:

2008-10-17T08:54:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah msa 151008 ritu dat's on wednesday durg kak Sofa kerumah di rimba. WAAA!! jumpa baby Abrar heheheh cute braviz ia..mula2 tu as usual mcm ia nda mau ma kami pghuni umah ijau tu ditambah g dgn mukanya yang garang mcm muka abi-nya jua hehe ohwell but afta awhile baruth ia mau wahaha afta panas enjinnya...

CUTE braviz lah cz ia ani baru jua 10 thn. but i also misses abgnya ABQAri which is hahaha cutE jua hahahaha myb sal ia baru dtg brunei around 2 bln kali from cambodia(tggl tmpat nininya dri baby g) hence abg Abqari ani nda pandai ckp brunei/malay p only pandai ckp cambodia n arab which is QUITE COOL!! hehe i still ingat tym aritu ku g salam rh ia dri branda umah ijau,

"AbQari assalamualaikum"
n gez wat ia balas
ia balas "salammah"
WAAA~~~CUTE CUTE CUTE!!!... i rily misses ia ryte now SERIOUSLY kalah bah org lain olehnya..hehehe p syg ku nda dapat ambil gmbr ma ia cz ia ikut abi-nya huuhuhu ohwell hope4lly wud ketemu ia g nanTi i'Allah

but i did klik klik some picture of Abrar heehehe soo enjoy!!

Note::

Nama 'AbQari' dalam bahasa arab bermaksud Orang yang sgt pandai+genius (which is quite true)

while 'Abrar' pula membawa salah satu nama dari golongan syurga yang berada dekat di sisi Allah seperti mana tersebut dalam surah At-Mutafifin.

Heee jz wanna say kn nama itu 1 doa buat kita..jdi alangkah indahnya buat orang2 yang punyai nama yang indah2 yang juga i'Allah membawa perwatakan yang baik buat orang tersebut, i'Allah *^-^*

:+: Minggu Raya Pertamaku :+:

2008-10-17T08:23:00.000-07:00

:+: Inferior rumah raya yang menarik hatiku :+:

:+: makan puding made by mirah di umah ummi on d 3th raya hehe:+:

cute ryte??

:+: greeting to my eldest brother :+:

2008-10-10T22:54:00.000-07:00

saturday,111008 i wake up around 9am tz date. pagi2 aja i start it with merapu2 with dgnku chat *sigh* anyway biar ia temanku atu hehehe *kes penderaan* XP

hmmph well i wanna greet my eldest brother aka my 2nd brother actually for having his b'day 2day...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

AZMI SAMAT

yg ke 24 tahun

*WAAAHH i jz knew dat my special sum1 's much tua den my own abg hahahaha*

well~~smbung2 wish him apa2 yang terbaik...hmmph apapun let keep my doa a secret hehehehe...

overall chill

:+: Keadaan lappyku :+:

2008-10-09T08:28:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah lappy ku udah sehat sedikit selepas 3 hari berada dalam workshop. sgt penat rasa nya menghiburkan diri dgn desktop. apapun i rily have fun ngan desktop d umah meskipun ngak ada modem huhuhu.

hmmph i seriously doesn't know what i should be writing or blogging about *sigh* quite tired actuallynya, jz return from bndar tadi and i was glad utk jmpa para orang2 yang ingin ku temui hehehe..where smua org hyper active ari ni ntah mgapa. but 1 thing for sure i was glad to jmpa kak su and her husband (babah) hehehe eventho i haven't got the chance to ckp apa2 to babah but hey i going to see him esk...hehehe but above all i do miss ka Su alot!!

Tiba2 jua malam ani discussion topicku wit cicitnya is jeng~jeng~jeng *K**W*N* hahahaha secret sikit..beri malu ehh hahahaha well what i could say is seriously if dapat dcepatkan mau plang ku tu*blushing* heee...

hmmph well to those who miss me, seriously i miss u guyz too. To my basketball mate, i miss basketball. To my SG, i miss talking with you guyz. To my Alert, *sigh* let wish we got time to hang out nanti tym sdp month ani. Overall missing is a correct word dear here *^~^*

k. assalamualaikum

with love
zjazie48

:+: as night spread it wings :+:

2008-10-09T03:07:00.000-07:00

it's 612pm ryte now... n i am still at the internet cafe d tutong..*sigh* it's thursday btw 91008... i was waiting for cicitnya to aga n bwa ku ke beribi rh umah one of the kakak der...

hmmph actuallynya today i was not in a good mood. ntahlah mcm2 dlm kepalaku ani which buat ku rily tired*sigh* ohwell~~

before i got on blabbering i would like to apologize to nuneh, chacha& dyNie cz nda dpt attend durg punya openhouse today...bien guyz seriously huhuuhu nada th ku ampit duit raya ni~~..aside from that sory to wan jua cz been jnji ma ia kn jln braya rh rumah2 durg2 ani 2day p i hv to cncel my availability due to something major...Bien guyzz totally...

k.got to go now...ada dah cicitnya..next tym ja kita raya sama2 ek..i promise i'Allah

love you guyzz

love zjazie48

:+: kecintaan ku :+:

2008-10-08T01:25:00.000-07:00

sebelum apa2 aku ungkapkn selamat hari raya pda semua:)

hehee

hmmph tgh2 raya ini otakku hnya berputar pada seorang insan saja dan ianya amat pelik kahkahakh...

byk benda yg ingin ku luahkn namun biarlah...kini aku cuba bercinta dgn lebih rapat lagi dgnnya dan aku cuba..pelik bukan namun itulah bila kembali kepd fitrah rasa cinta akan semakin meluap2. kini aku berdoa agar aku akan bisa istiqomah dalam menyintainya....

:+: lagi-lagi fav.song saffone :+:

2008-09-09T21:06:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum again lagu saffone hehee ENJOY*^-^*

Kembali Padamu

Album : Emas Awanan

Munsyid : Saff-One

http://liriknasyid.com

Padamu Tuhanku

Hanya kau yang satu

Puji-pujianmu hanyalah untukmu

Dunia yang fanaBuatku terpedaya

Lupa padamu sesat entah kemana

kini...ku sedari

dosa-daosaku selama ini

(Chorus)

Keangkuhan diriku

kejahilan yang lalu

kuturutkan hati mengingkari suruhanmu

kan ku tinggalkan semua

dosa-dosa dan noda

ingin kembali kepadamu..oh

kini ku sedarikecilnya diri ini

kepadamu aku akan kembali pasti

akhirnya ku mengerti

perjalanan hidup ini

segalanya disaksi sejak azali

ampun...

tuhankusegala kesalahanku

Chorus

(Ya allah terimalah taubatku)

Chorus
keinsafan yang kurasa

kekesalan tak terkira

mengharap keampunan darimu yang maha esa

pintu taubat terbuka

kuharap engkau terima

kepulanganku ke jalan yang kau redha...

:+: Rayuan Nurani:+:

2008-09-07T04:38:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum update my new fav.song tiz day is jeng~jeng~jeng~ hehehhe

RAYUAN NURANI

Di antara kudrat Tuhan
Dia mencipta mnusia
Sebagai khalifah mentadbir bumi ini
Juga sebagai hamba nan berbakti dan berbudi
Ingatlah Tuhan yang Maha Kuasa

Ombak yang menderu
Dedaun berterbangan
Terkadang mengkhayalkan diriku
Terlupa aku pada pencipta yang Esa
Yang sentiasa melihat diriku

Di mana... Di mana berada
Di mana... Oh di manakah diriku

Adakah di jalan lurus atau dijalan yang berliku
Oh Tuhan tunjukkan ku jalan kebenaran
Ku tahu jalan bahagia
Penuh onak jua cabaran
Oh Tuhan beri kekuatan pada ku

Demi mendapat keredhaan dari Mu
Sanggup ku tempuhi ranjau yang penuh berliku
Dengan rahmat Mu ya Tuhan
Selamatkanlah diriku
Dari seksaan api neraka Mu

nice song n overall i have to keepon dgr diz song balik2 cz rily as a reminder for that im not juz a mirror for my self but a mirror to others as well..k..assalamualaikum n slamat bpuasa^^

:+: 21 big deals :+:

2008-08-27T22:36:00.000-07:00

PERTAMA:

Bersedekahlah kepada orang lain lebih daripada yang mereka perlukan dan lakukanlah dengan penuh kerelaan.

KEDUA.
Kahwinilah lelaki / wanita yang gemar anda berbicara dengannya, kerana kemahiran berbicara antara satu dengan lain akan menjadi lebih penting pabila usia semakin tua.

KETIGA.
Usahlah mempercayai segala perkara yang anda dengari. Berbelanjalah sekadar apa yang ada atau tidurlah seberapa lama yang anda perlu

KEEMPAT.
Apabila kamu berkata, " Aku Cinta Padamu", maka tunaikanlah.

KELIMA.
Pabila mengatakan, "Maaf", tenunglah matanya.

KEENAM.
Bertunanglah sekurang-kurangnya enam bulan sebelum kamu diijabkabulkan.

KETUJUH.
Percayailah cinta pandang pertama.

KELAPAN.
Usah tertawakan impian orang lain. Manusia tanpa impian tidak memiliki apa-apa.

KESEMBILAN.
Cintailah seseorang dengan sepenuh hati dan penuh kasih sayang. Sungguhpun anda akan berasa seolah-olah diri anda tersiksa, tapi percayalah itulah satu-satunya untuk melengkapkan kehidupan ini.

KESEPULUH.
Jika berlaku perselisihan pendapat, bertengkarlah secara aman. Usahlah menyebut nama sesiapa ketika bertengkar.

KESEBELAS.
Usahlah menilai seseorang berdasarkan peribadi keluarga mereka.

KEDUABELAS.
Berbicaralah dengan tenang dan berfikirlah dengan pantas.

KETIGABELAS.
Apabila seseorang bertanyakan satu soalan yang tidak anda gemari, lontarkanlah senyuman dan bertanyalah padanya,"Kenapa anda ingin tahu?"

KEEMPATBELAS.
Ingatlah bahawa setiap cinta dan pencapaian yang besar akan melibatkan pengorbanan dan risiko yang besar.

KELIMABELAS.
Ucaplah "Semoga anda diberkati" apabila mendengar seseorang bersin.

KEENAMBELAS.
Apabila anda kerugian, janganlah jadi kurang ajar.

KETUJUHBELAS.
Berpeganglah kepada tiga R:

1. Rasa hormat pada diri sendiri;
2. Rasa hormat kepada orang lain;
3. Rasa tanggungjawab terhadap semua tindakan anda

KELAPANBELAS.

Usahlah benarkan pertikaian yang sebesar hama merosakkan sebuah persahabatan yang besar.

KESEMBILANBELAS.

Apabila menyedari bahawa anda telah melakukan kesalahan, usahlah berlengah untuk perbetulkan kesalahan itu.

KEDUAPULUH.

Tersenyumlah ketika menjawab telefon. Pemanggil akan melihatnya daripada suara yang mereka dengar.

KEDUAPULUH SATU

Ada ketikanya anda perlu bersendirian.

:+: Bermula smula :+:

2008-08-26T04:43:00.000-07:00

Ok~ i wouldn't take long in typing entry ku kali ani, jz kn summarize apa ku buat 2day cz aku tgh research2 utk CN assignment ku huhuhu*if blik ghuraba'/ baitul syi'f@ wud ada benda2 yg perlu diuruskan,nda ku mampu membahagikan/ mempriorkan mana2 kja ku krg* ceh pnjg ceta ehh...

so 2day's 260808

Btolak dari Lambak@645am
G tadika alif n again WAA!!bahaya ehh~~seeing org yg nda spatutnya...
smpai itb@806am
STUDY
Ke RTB ngantar potokopi ic&buku bank
Lunch ma ayu, mkn nasi katok ja
oh ya nda lupa juga rini main Alice, Trudy&Bob*chewah best game nya* buat ku bpkir *pyh jua jdi hacker ani ah, no wonder hacker ani slalunya kaya2* n oso *waa~~cmna kan decrypt code ani kan* Thankz to mz Serina 4 introducing the games
Tdo til 3pm
Last but not least *GEE~~im @ itb masa ni buat kaja CN ku wahahaha lama ordy nda buat kaja til malam d concourse hehehe best Yo!! (with aida)
k. chau..baru ja chardy melintas tdi..Cehh kacau ketenangan urg awam aja ia ani huh!!

K.Assalamualaikum n to all int22 CP ::

ALL thE BEST BUAT KAJA CN & CDC. 2 MORE ASSIGNMENT TO GO!! JAYO!!!

:+: Tarbiyah itu bkn utk org yang manja :+:

2008-08-25T15:40:00.000-07:00

Baru2 ani aku dan hani kluar bsama slepas mengadakan SG d suampripad. dalam perjalanan pulang ke ghuraba'/ UI kami melalui terowong.. rasa seronok dlm terowong tersebut*hehehe itu pun slepas menjerit dgn spuasnya didalam itu dtamabah lagi hnya keta kmi saja yg berada dlm terowong tersebut* lalu smbil ku merasa kenikmatan itu, lantas ku gapai hp dan *klik*kliK* sudah lama ku ingin gmbr suasana dlm terowong itu dan alhamdulillah tercapai..

Klmarin lntas ku liat gmbr yg ambil dan SUBHANNALLAH aku berpkir bhwa jalan yg dlalui ini masih pnjg dan ianya nyata mmg bkn utk org yg manja...

kerna pnjgnya bermkna byk dugaan dan ujian menanti maka org yg hendak melaluinya juga kenalah org yg kuat dan sentiasa bertabah..

ya'Allah kuatknlah kmi kerna sungguh jalan kmi ini mash panjang lagi

:+: Could i be selfish?? :+:

2008-08-25T08:12:00.000-07:00

Tarikh:250808, environment: dalam keta c Accurate

Me:: Liz blh ku jdi selfish kh?
Liz:: maksud??
Me:: i rily wish dat aku blh jdi selfish n pentingkan diri sendiri cz buat apa care abt ppl yg nda tau appreciate diri ani
Liz:: knapa??
Me:: ntahlh liz, i jz feel rily TIRED rily~~ cz seriously there no way dat i wnna be with ppl who thinkz dat i doesn't sincerely care/ love dem..its rily hurtZZ..cz as ko tau kn, caring/loving sum1 to me is i love them guna HATI bkn guna LUTUT/OTAK
Liz:: if u can be selfish den be 1...

End of conversation...

I'm an half art and half science type of person. Half art bcz i myself love to understand benda2 sastera eventho ppl tend to say it's hard to be understand+i have the sensitivity of the human art. half science bcz i took pure science stream subject during mystudent timeline (Physics,Biology,Chemistry,Maths, Additional Maths,Geography and etc) which lead me to relate art & science facts quite emotionally. But still it doesn't mean dat i like to directly express how i felt.

Recently it's quite a Tiring days, seriously lah..i neva takes account in apa2 that hurt me..seriously i could handle lotz and lotz and lotz of assignments, my Love problem, my lotz of priorities stuff, pressure coming from ummi,sisters&brothers but i jz couldn't help to stand the dissapointment when it face ukhuwah (relationship)--> whether it's friendship relationship/sisterhood relationship.

When my relationship goes chaotic with my special sum1, i jz set my nick

"f dunia ni berputar jz bcz of CINTA, PEDAH2 ja idup to Yo!! so dn't bother"

with this nick i stop headaching my self and move on cz i gots lots of stuff more important to do

When my assignment goes out of limit, i jz set my nick:

"mau makan mamee"

with this, i chill and hv the motivation to goes on cz seriously it's juz assignment

When i got damam, sick, nosebleed o whatsoever, i jz set my nick:

"nosebleed"/ "JAYO!!"

with this, i start smiling n grateful that im still living n knowing dat i would be healthy the next day

But when my Ukhuwah gets into accidents/ problems/ misery/ sadness/ stressful/feeling as if kan mati o kn give up!! i rily feel as if i wanna hugs dat person who bond UKHUWAH with me!!! SINCERELY because i feels that my heart kn explode n i felt useless f i done nothing!! because as a half art& half science type, i myself gets emotionally attached to that person. Because the love that i been pour to this relationship is dat i'm using my HATI SINCERELY LILLAHI'TAALA... honestly i felt irritated!! i'm a no person yg suka kapit2 rh org yg nda mau kn diri ani, i am also bknnya org yg syg org nda bertempat, i'm also a bkn org yg suka paksa org but when i start giving my TRUST,LOVE&SYG to sum1, i would SINCERELY wanna be anything to that sum1. so its ok f i been jd tmpat kana marah by dat sum1/ tmpat apa2. cz i rily wanna be meaningful to that person. bcz as far as im concern, the person also wanna be sum1 special to me. (that's wat meant by appreaciating each other)...PlZ dn't make me start writing to my nick again this:

"myCondition rytenw's myOwn Deal"

i hate myself bcz i been thinking to be selfish knowing that i cudn't do so...

:+: The day i felt sooo~~fed up:+:

2008-08-19T06:53:00.000-07:00

Arini 190808, aku sgt2 marah pd beberapa org. mood ku hancuZZ n rosak huhuhuhhuu sedih ku ehh kana buat miani ani as f mcm dey dn't know hw it was to be let feel dissapointed!!

sedih beraViz taraf kritikal mcm dibawa bertenang pun ku nda mampu g!!! kejam braViz urg2 yg buat haTi ku n hati org2 lainnya sedih... GOSH dgn sanang2 nya org2 berkenaan buat ku rasa kn nangiz stress ku tarus!! ntahlah mgapa aku sensitif sgt p atulah mcm nda kna appreciate atu 1 thing bisa g dbawa optimis pikir2 maybe org tu bininya branak kli*f ia bbini jua*

Entahlah bila ku marah tahap kan nangiz that rily mean i totally streZZ. kcu banar ehh nda concentrate ku olehnya tarus. kcu jua ku kn study DB,CN and etc tu!!!

Bila tahap marah2 ani, i rily misses kWan huhuhuhu i rily miss ia...bila lah kn jumpa ia g...

for the first tym ever afta a long tym i rily P****D ofF...

tolong th ku deh~~jgn buat ku marah ani!!mun pandai diamkan kemarahan n kesedihanku nda jua apa!!

k chau!!.

:+: As Flowery as ever :+:

2008-08-11T21:49:00.000-07:00

ALERT!! 2day i sees a guyz waiting d luar pintu lobi dgn sjmbak bunga ros!! waAAA!! feel so romantik hehehehe aii also want a dozens of roses *sniff*sniff* but as im telling this i was reminded dat baru2 ani jua ku dapat bunga dri cicitnya heehee well eventho it's jz skuntum bknnya sejambak but still thankz cicitnya 4 d flower~~ feel ROMANTIK plak kwangx3

:+: bunga ros putih yg ku dapat dri cicitnya :+:

Hmmph~ sjak bila ku suka bunga??

hehehe it all started wen i wen to kb wit my mum and nini where kami when to the tamu disana..suddenly kn kami melintasi tmpat org jual bunga n den hmmph mataku suddenly

got attracted to a very white flower n it was like a magik, i approach it and smell the sweer odour dat comes out from the flower..seeing me like that flower so much my mum bought sejmbak of that flower n give it to me..Reasonnya?? heehe bcz dat day is my 17 yrs old b'day n i hv neva been so girlish as i hv ever been jz like on dat day *^-^* it's really a sweet memory cz eversince dat day my mum would say as i get older i act as if im getting younger not older or more mature... STrange?? it not rily strange cz seriously lots of things happen in my childhood period and i know the feeling of been acting an adult eventho ur are stil not an adult age.. Curious to know bunga apa?? hehehe the flower is more like this one

romantik bukan?? hehehe well i wish sum1 wud gv me lily aka casablanca putih hehehe my very favourite flower...

been flowery doesnt mean dat im a very girl style but it more like to say been a girl 4 once is ok..behaving like one is also ok cz seriously one day i wish i cud be the perfect girl for mySum1 special dat given by Allah melalui hati...

:+: ayat-ayat cinta :+:

2008-08-07T21:41:00.000-07:00

hehehe my fav. song tiz day jeng jeng jeng ayat2 cinta which also bcuming myringtone...it rily meant sumthing dat song!~~

desir pasir di padang tandus

segersang pemikiran hati

terkisah ku di antara cinta yang ruhi
bila keyakinanku datang

kasih bukan sekadar cinta

pengorbanan cinta yang agung

ku pertaruhkan

reff:

maafkan bila ku tak sempurna

cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah

ayat-ayat cinta bercerita

cintaku padamu

bila bahagia mulai menyentuh

seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama

namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta

ketika ku bersujud

bila keyakinanku datang

kasih bukan sekedar cinta

pengorbanan cinta yang agungku pertaruhkan

repeat reff

ketika ku bersujud

hehehehe k im creating a hobi of understanding this son =g sooo badly heheheh cz rily it does meaningful to me

2008-08-06T22:05:00.000-07:00

1. Tell us your name
Zjazie48 aka Azie

2. Three things about yourself
restlezz, day dreamer n JIWANG

3. What’s in your playlist
Tashiru hmmph ayat2 cinta

4. Your favourite music
hmmph wat ahhh myb half sentimental n half semangat typo

5. Favourite guilty pleasure
hmmph repeking myself with something insensitive as f i forget myself

6. Favourite food
pusu masak merah nyum~nyum cooked by my mum n also heheh icecream

7. Define love
Love kh?? hmmphh i dunno cz love is something yg buat aku berexpression "to touch, it's a SIN, to deny, it's HURT..moreover jz able to stay on the BOUNDARIES jz like a BOMB

8. Define sex
Errr~~biological term o something book wud say?? *not answering*

9. Any celebrity crushes
hehee only d keeper hehehe

10. The last person you hugged
PAU..my newly name bunny rag doll

11. The last person you talked to
hmmph no one~~jz cudn't expressed myself clearly only able to say..i rily miss u

12. The last time you cried
the nyte b4 my b'day 3ogos2008

13.The last time you had sex
-----

14. The last time you made out
----

15. The last person you dated
hmmph~~secretly forbidden to answer

16. The last time you went out
lastnyte in itb...

17. What’s on your mind now?
thinking bila lah elaun kn kuar ni

18. What’s bothering you?
my assignment

19. This year’s resolutions
get my HND asap n out ITB asap *not that i hate itb it jz dat hmmpph~~*

20. Your MSN nick
:: SYiF@ QH :: closer to U

21. What’s your MSN nick about?
closer to sum1 that i wanna be close to

22. The people you miss the most
no komen *u know who u r*

23. Current mood
breezing

24. What are you thinking?
could i have myslf msgging u??

25. Best childhood memory
main masak2 ma cuzin hehehe

26. 3 of your biggest fears
not been able to stay wat i suppose to be doing
living a life of lies
missing sum1 so badly which in d end hurts me

27. Who do you love?
myFamily

28. 3 of the things you hate
in love
missing ppl
couldn't comfort d myLove1

29. Do you blog?
da~~~ Geezz obviously yep

30. Tag 6 people
is tiz a question?? hmmph later~~

:+: stupidly been stupid :+:

2008-08-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

shhh~~silently i get up this morning looking soo havoc n chaos *sigh~~where goes my sweet spirit* but stil last nyte i'm sleeping with Pau*the rag doll bunny that Wan gv me--it's sooo round that i start calling him Pau not to forget it also cute hehehe* getting back to my main point..i rily have a great nyte lastnyte, getting my legs felt sore due to posting 62 flyers to 20 spots in itb..huhuhu soo xhausted, not to forget with my highheel kwangx3 it rily become so unbearable...but wen i was walking alone in the itb area i was thinking abt d sum1..stupidly i miss u, wanna see u...hahaha stupidly i been stupid. but seriously i rily miss u....couldn't help myslf with this feeling any longer...GEE jiwang~~kahkahkah..*dn't know wat i shud do now*

hmmph no more thinking!!! hahahah let dn't stop the high spirit of me..hahaha nywy i'm blushing ryte now kwangx3..new comic?? hmmph well 2day i been reading a comic call "It's Not Like That,Darling" hmmph comment?? well it's a nice comic tho wit cute kids character hahahaha.... soo chip in the character *buang kes*::

now my very fav.character is jeng jeng jeng~~

:+: NAGASE TOUYA :+:

hahahah kawaiieee~~~

to touch, its a SIN, to deny, its HURT..jz like a ticking BOMB..i wish i able to hold on long enough..*sighH~~*

:+: hujan dan komik :+:

2008-08-05T21:11:00.000-07:00

okai now masa ku buat blog ani aku tgh baca komik on9 *huhuhu repeking myself again alahai~~* well wat to say ahh HAH!! cuteness of the characters?? hmmph rily cute~~~ waaahuhuhu *i'm repeking here* well the story was call " Fall in Love like a Comic" hehehe well chip in the main characters::

:+:RENA SAKURA:+:

:+:TOMOYA OKITA:+:

:+:HIROKI OKITA:+:

:+: THE COMPLETE FALL IN LOVE LIKE A COMIC HAPPY FAMILY :+:

hehehe comment?? hmmph my comment is seriously i need to be denda'ing my self cz seriously i sees lots of this comics thing this dayy!!WAAA!!! need to hafal 5 surah!! huhuhu berusaha!!!*gara2 melampau insensitive*

:+: a suprise with my family :+:

2008-08-04T23:37:00.000-07:00

kerana usia ku yang lewat 21 thn ordy kelmarin..mamaku telah hubungiku n minta ku balik pd subuh2 hari g..waaa~~kajut2 aja mobile ani..

mama: mna ko tdo krg?bila ko blik?
aku: i'Allah krg ku balik umah
mama: awu jgn ko nda balik ehh
aku: awu2 blik ku tu heheh ma~~~masakkan ku smbal pusu
mama: bah2 kn suruh masak g tu..bah blik k, assalamualaikum
aku: ok..waalaikumussalam

jdi selesai klaz cicitnya klmarin aku terus ekorinya n zoom~zoom kami meninggalkan perkarangan itb menuju bukit beruang dan kerumahku...hmmph kul 5tepat!!

smbil menunggu2 maghrib utk sungkai kami menonton cd red shoes*ntah apa2 cetanya nda ku phm* den bila azan yay!!sungkai alhamdulillah hehehe

selesai sungkai, cicitnya mnta izin utk blik namun sebelum itu mamaku "ehh kek Ayong dulu ehh* WAA~ a suprise cake 4 me hehehe thankz mum&dad 4 the cake n thankz oso to my adik2 bini2 yg make the wording..heheh SO SWEET.. terharu ku...

My BesT wisheS may ALLAH gv me&myFamily HIS blessing alwayzz

LOVE myFamily *hugzz*...thankzz mum,dad,nana,adik,rina,nawi,apai,alan,n not to forget my 2 elder brother mimi n jipun

ya Allah ku syukuri atas kasih syg yang Kau berikan pd diri ku melalui ahli keluargaku...

:+: The ticking time that pass :+:

2008-08-04T22:14:00.000-07:00

it seem as if just yesterday that i receive my A'level result and got myself entering itb but the truth is dat yesterday was my 21 years old b'day n GOSH!! i cudn't believe myself that i'm ordy pass the age of 2oth yrs old...huhuhuhuhu getting 1 yrs older each year n getting few kilo heavier also kwangx3 *trust me i was 55 wen i enter itb and tiz day wahuhuhu i'm gaining myself 10 kilo!! SWEETLY say it's way too much changes...*

well sooo b4 i get myself terlalu blabbering on how times have pass soo quickly without i noticing it, i would like to thankz ALERT PRINCEZZ for the suprised&present that they gave me and to every1 who wishes me b'day*THANKZ ALL, it's way too SWEET of you guyzz*

notes:: i 4gotted to take the picture of the cake b4 chopping it up huhuhu so jadilah kek ku ani kek yang miani..pastu d other thing's dat hmmph pisau nya patah hahaha macam2 saja nywy yang dpat ku simpulkan is *Cha~ko marah aku kah??* hehehe XP

Beside that i also wanna update about school n environment d itb ehehe LOTZZ have start to evolved d itb n guess wat?!! we have a new lecture room evolution!! well it's a bigger screen n volume but well comment's that it's too crampy...well sort of~~anyway NICE JOB to those who make the changes *clap*clap*

:+: the princess with the new envi..hmmph still having the same relax poses hahaah HAYUNG:+:

okai den afta clazz klmarin tym lunch time, i wen out dgn durang2 ani with jijol n amy also..hmmph lizzie nda dpt ikut sama cz homesicknya datang.. well kan bercerita klmarin tu aku puasa kn iath makanan cEnergetic ni keep on lah mengoda2 diriku hahaha nasib baik dpt ku elak f nda fuhhh cnfirm sungkai stgh hari hahaha...To Sharul nxt time th ku blanja i'Allah..elaun wah lum kuar,fulus sani g hehehe cukup2 utk makan bujangku saja hahahaha. *CEnergetic mmbazir diz day, alahai~sejak bila tu wan??*

Overall suppose to be aku oso masukkan gmbr hadiah n oso gmbr kad yg dey make 4 me but den aku lupa gmbr huhuhu nyway...

To nuneh:: thank 4 the watch n kad n oso the kiki&lala hehe it'soooo blink2 smpai adikku cNawi plang yg main the kiki&lala. susah atiku abiz batteri nya apanda time tdo dmalam ia stil buka d light..ehehe i oso like the jam hehehe

To Wan:: nice i love the bunny soo much hahaha n thankz oso 4 the wishing bear... psl bunny 2 its soo bulat beri kan memicit2 saja hehehe

To Yan:: Lawa d bantal ahh~~~hehehe mcm sma ja broadband kita tu, cz i been thinking kan bawa bantal dri tutong 4 rimba n Jeng jeng jeng u bought me a pillow gmbar belle g tu..heheh suka ku ehh.. thankz dear

To mySum1:: ehem~ehem~eventho nada hadiah but stil i'm happy cz u did admit dat u lupa abt my b'day p wat make me happy most's dat you still greet me n apologize to me tz pagi...hehehe dat's wat make me wait 4 u d whole day kelmarin cz i knew u will forget...thankz n hugz from me

hehehe well pada sesapa yang i hvn't greet i'Allah i wud update myself to greet& thankz every1 hehehe apa2 pun all i wish is every1 happiness n thankz 4 been a friend to me...hugz n kisses to all XOXOXO *hugzZZ*

:+: RestleZZ :+:

2008-07-20T15:15:00.000-07:00

i got my self tdo umah chacha lastnyte heheheh she provide me an orange bed waa bahagia ehh..*thankQ cha for the understanding* hehehe well klmarin tu kn tunaikan jnji kn spend tym ma ia hehehe iath tdo umahnya. Gpun she got majlis doa slamat di umahnya on 20th kelmarin tu soo rily2 alang2 kcu ia biar kcu terus the whole nyte hehe...p kn pyh kn kcu cz aku ni nda jua gundah tdo heheheh

ok. so mlm smlm dtg ja umah nya tarus ku buat cm umah sendri . aduh nda pemalu upanya aku ani wahuhuhu. dtg2 kna bwa jln hehehe Shhhh XP p ada certain things hppn soo jz able to jln2 dmall..well aside from dat aku dpt kenal c katakludin nya hmmph no komen on dat feel mcm pendiam plang ia tu hehehe.

blik umahnya @11pm kli, dtg2 lapar ku p b4 dat trikah baju den baru th ku masak indo mee *See~nda jua pemalu ku tu, kwang3* well thank to Teaser aka chacha cz bawa ku jln2 n tolong ku masak indo mee lain kali rajin2 kan g ahh hahahaha...

overall nice room hehehe n nice pemandangan bilik hahaha mcm2 wah gmbr dlm biliknya ni...

:+:Hayung~POS SURAT?? huh??:+:

2008-07-09T04:58:00.000-07:00

"Arah pos surat kah?" txt yg ku dpt dari akhi D mlm ini buatku terkedu dan ketawa, hilang marahku pada nya...

huh? POS SURAT?? hahahahah becali kali akhi ani. Kahkahkah lantas ku balas'in

"Huh? pos surat? alahai zaman moden msa ani manalah ada org rajin ngantar kai pos surat, akhi ani kenapa? mcm email nada ja XP" kahkahkah

Hee yang pastinya sementelah itu hubungan kami baik2 saja. Hilang lesap marahku padanya. hilang nyamalku yang ku kumpul kan sejak 22June2008 itu padanya. yang pasti kini kami baik2 sahaja. Wasey~~

P kan cali wah adakah patut pos surat~aduhai batah wah ku nda ke pos surat. p kan menemani org adalah kesana hehehe

Shhh~~chau dulu heheehe andainya punya waktu akan ku pigi ke pos ofiz dan pos surat pdmu hehehehe *malu ku eh*blushing~blushing*

9:16pm\9708\@home\song::U&I\Condition:: Stil Blushing

:+:Mksd Ungkapan:+:

2008-07-07T07:03:00.000-07:00

"U noe Zimh, once u dclre dt u lyk sum1,its hrd 4 u 2 4gt him!&highner chance 4 u 2 b frustrt8!zimah, its x wrng 2b fal inluv, but we hv 2 control it. Aku udh trima pdhnya. i dun 1 u 2 feel d sme way. i noe u jnisnya emoC. aku tkut f u gt frustrt8, u will lose cntrol."07:04:39pm 27-06-2008

Msg ini ku trima dri cicitnya pd 1 ketika. ntah kenapa aku smpai kini belum lagi mendelete msg tersebut untillah malam ini kala ku buat blogku.

Kala ku dpt msg ini aku bfkr yep mmg aku jenis yg emosi dgn byknya lebih2 lagi jika ianya berkaitan dgn hal2 hati*para2 ahli ALERT lainnya mgkin juga fikirkn mmg aku sensitif bab haTi* malah ku akui bahawa terdahulu jatuh bangunku jua kerana bab2 haTi.SEDIH~~

Namun jelas masa ku mendapat msg ini aku dlm diam ketawa, entah kenapa, mgkin sebab hatiku yg telah mula FED UP, yg pasTi apa yg ada dlm diriku kini beberapa hari kebelakangan ini ialah kekosongan dlm diri. Aku tidak mengharap,bahkan perasaan yg dulunya panas kini HanCuZz dan aku tidak sesalinya. Kini biarlah apa yg berlalu itu berlalu, yg nyata Allah beri ku peluang utk baiki diri dgn sebesar2 mujahadah....

Republik - Sudah Cukup

mungkin hati ini tak ingin kau kembali

namun mimpi ini selalu aku banggakan

dan di saat terindah bersama dirimu

kan selalu ada di setiap jejak langkahku

* dan tak pernah aku sesali cintaku untukmu

karena bagiku tlah milikimu sudah cukup untukku

kemanapun aku pergi selalu sepi tanpamu

dimanapun aku berpijak selalu hadir bayangmu

kuteteskan air mata ini untukmu

saat kau lepaskan cintaku untuk dirinya

dan di saat terindah bersama dirimu

kan selalu ada di setiap jejak langkahku
repeat * [2x]

tnpa ku sedari sementelah hidup smula kini aku jdi zombie smula..Aku cuma ingin segera kembali pada ilahi, mencintainya dan mendapatkan redhanya mskipun cinta dunia ku terluka berkali2 asalkan cinta akhiratku terus mekar di hati, aku sggp berkorban

WALA GHOLIB ALA LLAH

*TIADA PENAKLUK MELAINKAN ALLAH*

[syd naquib al artas asyam 9 arum90]

1023pm\7708\@home tutong\song:: sudah cukup\condition:: kusut kerana aku di gigit nyamuk saja sejak balik tutong ani abz bah badanku kana gigit (^~^)

:+:Inginkan sebuah cerita:+:

2008-07-06T07:25:00.000-07:00

WAAAAAA!!!! tanpa ku sedari ianya sudah bulan JULAI. dan bila mana ianya JULAI cerita yang ku nanti2 kan pengeluarannya akan diedarkan sekitar hujung bulan ini. Cerita berjudul SANG MURABBI yang miliki subtitle MENCARI SPIRIT YANG HILANG. cerita yang cukup ku nanti2kan wahhuhuhuhu harap2 ianya akan keluar lebih awal dari yang dirancang...jeng jeng jeng. tidak ku pasti kenapa aku menyukai movie yang satu ini, namun ianya cukup memperkuatkan hatiku semenjak aku melihat trailernya.

huh?? bagaimana aku tau cerita ini? mgkin lebih jujur lagi jika ku katakan aku baru teringat tntang movie ini swaktu melihat trailernya d laptop kMar dan kala itu KWaN tiba2 menjerit "ehh, bknnya ani movie yg msih dlm buatan masa kita pigi indon last tym??" mendengar itu tba2 aku teringat..yep pd waktu msa lawatan kami di indonesia tahun lepas mmg rakan2 di indon sedang dalam situasi ingin siapkan movie ini. tk sgka tk lama lagi ianya akan disiarkan. betapa harap sgt2 brunei akan ada mengeluarkan movie ini kerana seriously aku mau!!! Aku mau simpan 1 DVD on it kerna ia bkn seperti cerita AYAT AYAT CINTA yg cukup jauh dari novelnya, movie SANG MURABBI ini lebih mengikut fikrah pd pendapatku, lebih memberi smangat. i'A

hehehe diam2 aku sudah punya hasrat utk miliki nya..seperti mana aku miliki cerita2 yang jdi tontonanku kini seperti SALAHUDDIN&lain2nya. Cerita yg lebih bersifat muhasabah diri. mungkin pelik namun lantaklah apa kata2 org kerana yg pasti aku ingin milikinya!! Wlu apapun pasti mahu milikinya jika Allah mengizinkan...JAYO!!!

:+:Truth,Cry and Lies:+:

2008-07-04T19:11:00.000-07:00

there's a truth behind a cry

and there's a cry behind a lie

on every thought that come out wrong

just learn from it and please stay strong

on every grudge and every fight

i miss u all day and night

it's not easy to understand

but you must hold on you stand

i know u know, u know i know

there's a truth behind a cry

and there's a cry behind a lie

there's a hope on every fright

there's a light on every night

Believing is all that counts from the start..i'm having my smile 2day as 2day der wud b a SQUASH game YAY!!!! akhirnya i wud be playing SQUASH hehehe *JENG JENG JENG* bside dat i also have a smile bcz of a decision dat i made FINALLY~~fuhh may Allah gv me strength to keep on strong and stand on my determination... JAYO!!!GANBATEH NEH!!

:: lain2 hal ::

seeing eZZah l8r@2pm
Playing SQUASH at 2pm later
my sdp meeting
d end of "bestfriend" relationship
seeing upon myGuppies
missing para DATIN2 nya...Wai!! Kmu2 ke KL jgn lupa bawa ole2 ekK!!
my new LETTO album wahuhuhuhu *merepek kali*
play frank n honesty with d ONE who love me
obviously i miss KWaN*hugz* how r u KWaN?? do u miss me?? how's ur kpg in Malaysia??have u decide on working in Terengganu?? i'm rily worried abt u...honestly>_<

1023am\5708\@itb 1f.116\song:: Sandaran Hati\

Condition:: Can't wait to SQUASH,SQUASH,SQUASH hehehehe....

:+:My Pic Updates:+:

2008-07-04T15:23:00.005-07:00

"Awu zie pedah2 wah ko ngambil gmbr nda jua ko publish rh blog mu" kata2 teaser mencuri mendengaranku. hehehe memang tepat bagi gadis tinggi itu berkata2 sedemikian kerana memang diantara ahli ALERT akulah yg paling malas utk mengupload gmbr pd blog ku meskipun begitu rajinnya aku mengeluarkan mobile ku dan mengambil gmbr2 manusia2 dan kejadian yg berkaitan dgnku. hahaha kerana mmg aku mls menunggu saat2 gmbr tersebut diupload dtambah lagi dgn keperluan utk mengupload gambar aku kena menghabiskan berminit2 dhadapan laptopku memikirkan gambar apakan yg perlu ku upload..fuuhhh~ leceh amat...

namun kali ini ku rajinkan mengupload gmbr yg sekian lama ku peram.

::Gmbar dibawah ialah gmbar2 yg ku klik kala di PDI (pusat dakwah islam)::

::bangunan2 di KJK::

:: Bunga yg menarik hatiku kala ini ::

:: Bangunan PDI ::

hahaha tgk betapa malasnya aku upload gmbr belum g papa aku sudah letih...well gtg cz kn g mandi g...hehehe been totally dazzy tiz morning cz aku telah jujur dgn diri sendiri skrg yg dpt aku pkrkan ialah meraih bahagia dgn kebolehan yg Allah berikan ykni kebolehan berfikir utk diri sendiri as our happiness lies upon our decision^^

6:44am\5708\@home\song::Truth,Cry and Lies\Condition:: May Allah help me in becoming stronger in my determination of ending a relationship cz hatred is rily difficult

:+:ku dongak ke angkasa dan ku saksi...:+:

2008-07-03T00:23:00.000-07:00

ku dongak ke angkasa dan ku saksikan langit yg membiru dan menarik diriku seolah ingin menelan hati ini namun lebih nyata lagi jika ku katakan aku ingin menelan langit dan memakannya. wahahaha ganasnya diriku

"Zie jgn dmakan benda yg Allah belum turunkan utk kita makan zie" kata2 hani ku dgri dari pada tmpat org memandu kereta. Sesungguhnya pd hari itu dia lh yg memandu kereta bkn cicitnya/ diriku kerana kereta itu sendiri adalah milik Hani...laju saja kereta itu dipandunya. jika org biasa yg ikut nescaya akan muntah2 tahap kronik tidak pun akan menjerit2 tahap kn putus urat saraf namun bagiku dan cicitnya cara pndu hani itu masih lagi tahap biasa. Mskipun sudah ada bunyi screeching2 ordy kala kereta itu meluncur laju di jalan lama yg basah. ditambah lagi dgn hujan.

hari itu selesai menghantar KWaN kmi lantas pergi ke Mall utk mengambil kaca mata hani. Smentelah itu dlm kul 5pm kmi pun menjamu selera d CAM gadong fuhh mengalas rasa keringnya leher dan laparnya perut namun bagiku aku cukup kenyang* aneh sementelah cuti aku cukup kuat tdo namun makan agak sedikit* ganjil namun alhamdulillah

mlm itu hani menghantarku pulang ke rumah namun tidak ku nafikan aku dgn hani sering kali mendongak ke langit menyaksikan kebesaran ilahi SUBHANNALLAH awan berarak, langit cukup membuat ku dan hani mengengulf malam dgn secukupnya...sesampainya ku d rumah ku di tutong aku lantas turun dri keretanya dan mengucapkan terima kasih kepadanya yg sanggup pulang lewat smata2 utk menghantarku pulang...

sepi kala ku jejakkan kakiku ke dalam umah namun ku cuba memeriahkan suasana tika itu dgn tidak menunjukkan keletihan ku..resultnya

"bah lajuth jln dinner" kta2 abangku mimi yg mngajak keseluruhan family keluar. lantas ku gapai barang2 mandiku, membasuh mukaku dan bersiwak...alhamdulillah rasa lebih lega...dan pd malam itu kmi makan sate dan pergi ke jp sekeluarga.. dimana ku punya pantun utk itu::

mama&papa was the bos
mimi&jipun was the driver
me wearing pinkish
apai, alan blackish
nana, adik giggling hving their girls talk
rina and nawi d youngest passengers

ku dongak ke langit dan ku saksikan betapa saat tika itu sudah lama kmi tdak harungi bersama. sudah sekian lama saat itu bagai memecahkan memori ingatan ku saja...sudah begitu lama...

3708\523pm\@umah\song::Insensitive\condition:: hayung kli lelaki atu beri kn menampar

:+:Havent ada masa:+:

2008-06-23T13:13:00.000-07:00

ermzz ngalih ku 2,3 ari ani menghadapi perjalanan yg panjang2 saja...tired lah...tau2 saja everytime blik umah, slalu saja akhir2 nganya afta hal2 family...

tired~tired~huhuhu...kekuburan g tu aritu..hmmph no komen on...

tired~tired~tau2 everytime blik ja kumah, tmpat pertama is TILAM kwengx3 tinggal smbhyg i'sya ku which in d end terkena jua ku bgn kul 1am jz utk smbhyg isya...

tired~tired~siap solat, kena plak ku buat assignment d tgh2 org lain tdo dgn seronoknya udah*aii best tul tdo*

tired~tired~dah lah spnjg masa yg p2tnya ku tdo, esok paginya aii upa2nya kerjaku yg cmplete udah upa2nya salah cara buatnya...

tired~tired~jadi kenalh ku hdpi masa lunch ku 24 hr buat smula...

tired~tired~hnya tinggal 1 features saja lagi namun aku kena blik cz nnT dimarahi oleh bos ku huhuhu tk nak aku dimarahi cz nda attend fam.function jdi dgn jnji "esok pagi akn ku serahkan kerjaku" aku pun berlari ke kereta

tired~tired~ kpalaku headache dan nak pecah rsanya, pening dan berputar2... alhamdulillah malam smalam awal balik dari perjalanan family yg jauh itu sampai keumah lebih awal dari hari sbelumnya...

hari ini skali g dgn "senangnya" diminta utk mengubah assignment yg sudah siap...waa!!

tired~tired~unExpected thing is happening here~~rily2 bisa membuatkn org kehilangan kesabaran...

apapun

HAPI to b in dz State...state

24608

:+:PUITIS_02:+:

2008-06-18T20:49:00.000-07:00

perlahan2 masa berlalu
berdetik2 berputar menyelubungi diri
riang, sedih, tawa, tangis, jatuh, bangun diri lalui
setiap kali berkecai
diri cuba mengutip kembali serpihan2
yg jatuh berderai dan berselerak

kebangkitan datang dan pergi
seperti datang dan perginya angin ribut
seperti hilangnya memori diri
dalam meraih nekad yg kerap kali memerlukan muhasabah diri

kala hadirnya kekuatan untuk bangkit
bertungkus lumus diri mengejar impian
berlari dan berlari
mengejar impian, mengejar tujuan kehidupan
Alangkah indahnya tika itu...

Kala kemunduran meniti hari
jiwa dirundung kegelisahan tak henti2
terasa kedewasaan tersekat2
sedih,sgt2 sedih
andainya diri bisa berfikir seeloknya
pasti kesesalan dan kesedihan itu takkan pernah merelung hati ini

Takdir??
usahlah disalahkan takdir,
kerana keputusan berfikir tetap ditangan sndiri

Kasih??
usah salahkannya
kerana ia mengundah hidup
namun ia tetap satu ketetapan yg mengikut alam

Cinta??
tidak..
ianya bukan salah cinta
kerana cinta tetap satu anugerah ilahi
namun terpulanglh pd diri untuk mengawalnya...

diri??
ya...setentunya ianya salah diri..
kerana gagal mengawal cinta yg hadir
gagal memandu kasih yg terbit.

Kini hanya bisa menyusuri perubahan
menyusuri arus yg perlahan2 merubah diri
meskipun terseksa dan terusik dgn kehidupan
namun tetap perlu meniti kehidupan
berlari-lari tanpa perlu menoleh smula kebelakang
jika tertoleh lekas2 menarik diri
jika tertenggelam smula lekas2 memegang pelampung penyelamat
jika terlantar kepenatan jgn pernah berfikir utk berputus asa
hidup bukan utk masa silam
hidup adalah utk hari seterusnya
meskipun perlu menyusuri dlm kesedihan
itulah kehidupan
itulah arus nafas diri....

:+:PUITIS_01:+:

2008-06-18T14:14:00.000-07:00

Sinking down the darkness

Missing as the darkness polluting
Wanting as the desire engulfing
Shaking as the tide enlarge
Could only see the one whose own the heart
Could only hold the temptation as time pass by

Time feel as if it rotate so slow
Couldn’t feel the presence was the cause
Slowly it freeze this small heart
Freezing it to a maximum temperature
Till it could no longer feel happiness
Just pain, agony, sadness, darkness

Sinking down the darkness
The small heart misses the presence
Grieving for the loss make it so sore and painful
Pretentious even make it breaks slowly forming jigsaw
Loved, hatred and forgiveness even start to lost it balance

Could not stop the heart from loving
Couldn’t even stop the heart from hating
Or from beating so hard
Because really it is a temptation of the heart
To love & hate
To cry & dumbstruck because of u
Even though its shattered this small jigsaw heart to more smallest pieces
Which BREAKS vulnerably like a thin glass
But still it just could not be stop
This heart misses u so much and it’s an agony

The love is painful
But as sinking down the darkness
It is still valuable and memorable
Even though
it produce more hatred and tears everynow and then
but still couldn’t stop the heart from loving u each single days…

:+:TEST TEST TEST:+:

2008-06-17T09:50:00.000-07:00

okai dlm 10 min g aku test nam..heheheh ALL D BEST TO ALL OF CP INTAKE 22&21...JAYO !!AZAAZA!!! hehhehe

:+:The Pain is an agony:+:

2008-06-10T20:14:00.000-07:00

hate myself ryte now, sick with myself....trouble th bnr ehh!!! huhuhuhu ol i wish ryte noe is blik 22ng hving my shower, tdo n kcu2 my mum n ulit2 myNawi... just cn't stand perpisahan diz coming few weeks as days passes i wish dat i wud be strong but dat not it!! tears jz couldn't held anymore!! %#^$%&

huhuhuhu not seeing dat particular person dat i hate, make me sad but why??
den remembering dat kWaN is leaving brunei tz july also distressing me as Kwan is d only person who understand and talk to me as clear as ever, hugs me when i cry, guling2 n ulit2 with me during tdo tym. i afraid it wud b jz like last tym when Kwan left without telling me, making me frustrated as ever...it rilys is broken me
Den it either tiz month o nxtmonth, akhi D also would left brunei as he got to leave for work travelling again on d wide ocean...huhuhuhu i mz him ordy as he is part of d reason i hold on my tear til d end of that particular exam as he gv me spirit to fight myself n love myself...he does means something..

up til d end i wish i wud b strong..rily~~~ i mizz lotss and it's an agony

:+:My Otha Update:+:

2008-06-10T14:09:00.000-07:00

-gmbr adikku Aznawi, kuat main gameboy yo!!kalah aku masa ni dlm bab2 games hehehe lating lah dz adi of my cz kn ada tahilalat wah dkt2 mulutnya iath kes nyeluru kakaknya cAzlina(another adik of my yg miliki tahilalat dkt mulut) siap adikku c Nawi ani panggil kakaknya atu cAzlina "TaieLalat basar" hahaha sarcastic jua tu...tuptup ja ia pun baru2 ani betai'e lalat jua rh dkt2 mulutnya hahahaha

-another koleksi gmbr kura2 hehe tz tym kura2 ani milik myUkhti Nurul hehehe lasttym lepak umahnya, iath smpat bergmbr ma kura2nya ani c Joyah & Dan

--Bila balik kpg lasttym@tutong,umah nini makan 100 hari tkajut liat d place yg slalu jdi tmpat lepak kmi org bujang2 (cuzin2) kana robohkan huhuhu sedihlah cz it is kira childhood playground kmilah dulu tu..kini yg tggl hnyalah kenangan--

l8r g kan skulah plang ku ni...@umah nuneh @703am....status:: kurg tdo

:+:another xpired update but stil fresh yo!!:+:

2008-06-10T11:36:00.000-07:00

Ok~i'm not making a big deal on fuss just dat im sort of bz lately kuikuikui well bz with sumthing,sum1 and sum event anyway hahaha + internet connection yg slalu out of my box rily make me nda t'upate2 my blog huhuhuh nyway since ada org menagih gambar soo i juz gv gmbar2 yg swktu dgnnya lah hehehe XP (*no idea kn buat apa wa ni actuallynya kuikuikui*)

-tym celebration b'day nuneh-

-Me n Liz new badges hehehe thankZZ YaN 4 d badges rily love it hehehe-

--our activity dat day--

--para hadirin--

k aku malas tym ani kn update actuallynya cz kul 3 lbih udh n aku alum tdo huhuhuhu ngantuk...k.nyte2...

:+:GuppiesKu:+:

2008-06-01T21:21:00.000-07:00

well for the last 1 week, i been going out spending my lots of time with my guppies hehehe well i stil hvn't got myself a guts to introduce my cute guppies to any of mt frens yet cz rily hehehe dey are quite cute takut ku guppies ku kna culik heheehe

sooo..wat i like abt my guppies is dat no matter watever name i gave to dem dey are stil myGuppies...hw to say ahh looking upon dem gv me d sensation of responsibility since dey r my fav. afta myMoon die 5 yrs ago..n making d guppies as part of my family is rily SWEET!!

d otha things is bcz dey are "fish type".
"jdilah seperti ikan, meskipun tggl d air yg masin/tawar rsa mereka stil tidak masin/tawar mengikut air" kta2 ummi mnjdi motivation buat ku..terasa akan kebenarannya hehehe jdi kiranya i wanna b jz like fish no matter in wat situation/cndition/environment i rily shud be able to jaga things dat shud be take care of n be wat i'm suppose to be..not taking side o emotion i'Allah :)

well been seeing myPanda jua hehehe bgolek2 ku olehnya hahaha well my fav.word recently ani "bgolek2" kahakahakah...

enuf abt myGuppies, nnT f i got d chance i wud introduce myGuppies..hehe evn guppyLoveyDovey pun ku introduce i'Allah heehehhe

:+:Lain2 hal:+:

i'm bz wit yahooGrp masa ni..hv to update every now n den
cramp cz bnkrap
bgolek2 cz tym ani durg mamaku ke miri hmmph nda bw2 org alahai~~
yesterday 31508 lepak umah nurul hehehe jumpa ngan kura2 nya yg nama durg joyah&dan hehehe cute lah jua p c joyah pemarah type nya bkn cam kura2 pkck Y hehe yg mau bgambar...c Dan plak jenis aktif maybe sal ia damit atu...hehehe mybe afta a while kn ke petlink ku bli kura2 4 my self oso
BBQ @ umah ummi yesterday jua heheh n talking abt ummi ani kn teringat ku akhi dini marah2 kmari, beri watir p mlm atu hee...*rhsia*
aku rajin baca buku dasar2 islam tz day yuhooo siuk kali ahh
hmmph~~i dunno ahh cz aku mls on9 tiz day..hmmph kn kai email baru ku online karang kana marah ku iath
well overall i hving a guppies days!! k,janei!!

::QUDWaH HASSANaH:: fiQh Aulawiyat--pilihlah yg TBAIK&PRIORITY agar hidup lebih bermanfaat

1608\sunday\@hoMeSweetHoMe\song::none\Condition:: i love myGuppies,myPanda,myBunny but overall i love ....hehe ana uhibbuki fillah*hugs*

:+:CintaYangHilang:+:

2008-05-28T22:10:00.001-07:00

* hilang semua janji
semua mimpi-mimpi indah
hancur hati ini melihat semua ini
lenyap telah lenyap
kebahagiaan di hati
ku hanya bisa menangisi semua ini
hancur hati ini melihat kau telah pergi

** langit menjadi gelap berkelabu
menyelimuti hatiku
mengubah seluruh hidupku
mengapa semua jadi begini
perpisahan yang terjadi
di antara kita berdua
ku akan menanti sebuah keajaiban
yang membuat kita bisa bersama kembali

repeat *, **

hmmph actually nya just saja2 kn post doesn't meant anything seriously~~~cz aku ni bkn jua pemajal type nya hahaha nda pedah2 saja wah bab2 loveydovey ani wuhuhuhu i got lots of works to do jz dat iathbah mun namanya bini2 obviously der wud b a pain jua..hmmph idn't know?? cz d unhighlighted part is rily not wat i felt n wanted...

:+:BeNCi KU!!!!:+:

2008-05-27T18:42:00.001-07:00

today i wnna luahkan things dat i hate most of ol afta lama udah mcm ditahan2,atu pun sbab aku nampak benda yg ku bnci atu!!! beri benci th banar!!!

:+:Things dat zjazie48 hate:+:
(1)sikap kepura2 an as f mcm nothing hppn!!
cz when diz things hppn in my life as f mcm org yg bersikap miatu atu mcm hurting myslf... apakan ia ingat aku ani??!! i'm just a GIRL wah!! i don't claim myself to be tough as i suppose to be, i hate myself acting tough but wat hurt me more is dat when dat particular person is trying to make me suffer by asking me to be tough n pretending of not been d one who hurt me...i rily hate dat particular person..!!!!!

afta a long period of afta my pain tym 1 tahap kebencian dalam hidupku yg tkkn pernah pudar, sejenis species yg sama jua menimbul kn kebencian dlm hidupku...apakn!!!! $*#(%*%*)@*

:+:menjemputBidadari:+:

2008-05-27T18:27:00.000-07:00

Bila yakin tlah tiba,
Teguh didalam jiwa
Kesabaran menjadi bunga

Sementara waktu berlalu
Penantian tak berarti sia sia
Saat perjalanan adalah pencarian diri

Laksana Zulaikha jalani hari
Sabar menanti Yusuf sang tambatan hati
Dipenantian mencari diri
Memohonkan ampunan dipertemukan

Reff
Segera kan kujemput engkau bidadari
Bila tiba waktu kutemukan aku
Ya Ilahi Robbi keras ku mencari diri sepenuh hati
Teguhkanlahku dilangkah ini
Dipenantian hakikat diri
Dan izinkan kujemput bidadari
Tuk bersama menuju Mu sepenuh hati...

Kini yakin tlah tiba
Teguh didalam jiwa
Kesabaran adalah permata

Dan waktu terus berlalu
Penantian tak berarti sia sia
Saat perjalanan adalah pencarian diri

Laksana Adam dan Hawa
Turun kebumi terpisah jarak waktu
Dipenantian mencari diri
Memohonkan ampunan dipertemukan

Bidadari tlah menyentuh hati
Teguhkan nurani
Bidadari tlah menyapa jiwa
Memberikan makna

:+:CeritaHati:+:

2008-05-27T18:11:00.000-07:00

Cerita Hati
Album : Hafiz Hamidun
Munsyid : Hafiz Hamidun
http://liriknasyid.com

Semalam yang telah pergi
Menghilang tanpa jejak
Membawa bersama cereka
Duka dan ketawa

Dan kini ku mencari
Kalau masih ada kesan
Yang terus tersisa di dada
Pantai permainan

Jalanan yang panjang
Bersimpang haluan
Bagai pentas luahan rasa
Tiada sempadan

Pada awan biru ku melakar kata-kata
Pada langit cerah ku panah semua cerita
Dengarlah mentari suara hatiku menyanyi
Bertebangan jiwa merentasi pelangi

Gerimis menitis gugur membasahi bumi
Bagai menangisi sebuah cerita hati
Andai kau fahami semua hikayat pendeta
Seribu tahun kau pasti bisa setia ke alam syurga

Mungkin ada esok
tuk ku ukirkan kalimah
Menjadi arca pembuktian
Pengabdian cinta

:+:MatahariYgTerbenam:+:

2008-05-27T00:57:00.000-07:00

Agnes Monica - Matahariku (Ost Jelita)

Tertutup Sudah Pintu,
Pintu Hatiku
Yang Pernah Dibuka Waktu Hanya Untukmu
Kini Kau Pergi Dari Hidupku
Kuharus Relakanmu Walau Aku Tak Mau

Reff :
Berjuta Warna Pelangi Di Dalam Hati
Sejenak Luluh Bergeming Menjauh Pergi
Tak Ada Lagi Cahaya Suci
Semua Nada Beranjak Aku Terdiam Sepi

Reff 2 :
Dengarlah Matahariku,
Suara TangisankuKu
bersedih Karna Panah Cinta Menusuk Jantungku
Ucapkan Matahariku Puisi Tentang Hidupku
Tentangku Yang Tak Mampu Menaklukkan Waktu

Back To Reff 1

Backl To Reff 2

i had no komen on tiz song jz wish that time wud goes by asap n i'm gonna b in a new environment asap cz i had to admit dat wlu macamna skali pun dipksa dan dpksa i hvn't got heart a new space to fit in any1...

:+:KesibukkanZJAZiE48:+:

2008-05-27T00:38:00.000-07:00

berada dlm sebuah kesibukkan yg tidak berapa nyata bulan ini kerana masih jua puteri miliki masa utk utk tidur dgn berlebihan... saat diri puteri menaip blog ini puteri baru selesai membaca email yg dikirim oleh pkcik Y yg amat dhormatinya sgt2 slain dri diri babah yg sekarang kedua2 nya brada di malaysia..

kebelakangan ini keadaan puteri baik2 sahaja meskipun kdg2 digoyah olh angin yg cuba menculik puteri lari... kata2 nasihat dri umi dan kata2 smangat dri babah utknya terus bertahan terus menjdi refleksi diri buat puteri...

berbalik pd email pakcik Y, dia mengatakan bahawa dia rasa terpinggir sebab tiada org brunei yg hendak update dia dgn perihal tanaman di brunei ini jz gara2 ptani2 punyai seribu satu alasan sedangkn ptani2 lain yg miliki 3 tanah pun masih miliki waktu utk berkomunikasi dgn satu dan yg lain nya...mendgr komen pkcik Y, puteri akui kebenaran nya krana ternyata puteri punyai waktu utk buat blog di blogspot tapi tiada punyai waktu utk memblog d YahooGroup....

kpd pakcik Y,puteri b2l2 minta maaf... sebab alasan sibuk dan tk ada internet connction menjdi alasan..huhu...

mgkin benar, time management puteri belum lagi teratur dan tersusun...i'Allah puteri cuba usahakan mengubah time management puteri...jazakillah kerana tguran pkck Y

:+:ThingsAboutZJAZiE48:+:

2008-05-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

kehidupan agak merimaskan tatkala ini... aku tk mengerti akan sesuatu tatkala ku jatuh dgn dlm nya dlm masalahku..terbuai2 dlm emosi ku....

dahulu ada seorg puteri yg begitu inginkan kebebasan dlm kehidupan...miliki keluarga yg dlmnya mak, ayah, 3 org abang, dan 6 org adik (3lelaki & 3 perempuan) sbuah keluarga yg cukup dri perspektif mata masyarakat... si puteri merupakan anak ke-4 dlm 10 org adik bradik tersebut...sedari kecil lagi puteri tidak meyukai rambutnya yg ikal dan agak tebal dimana tiap kli sebelum tdur dia pasti berdoa agar esuk hari rmbutnya akan menjadi lurus dan halus seperti rakan2nya yg lain disamping itu puteri juga berdoa agar dia dikurniakan kakak kerana dia begitu berharap ada tmpat mengadu msalah&bercerita...

Meningkat remaja puteri tidak lagi berharap utk miliki rambut yg lurus, bagi puteri cukuplah dgn apa yg ada pd dirinya itu namun puteri berharap dia dpt lari keluar dari rumahnya, keluarganya membawa dirinya jauh dari ingatan keluarga tersebut...sang puteri merasa jengkel utk berada dirumah..bkn kerana dia tidak menyayangi ibu bapanya namun misteri gelap telah menyelubungi masa remaja membuat nya benci pd diri sendiri dan ingin hilang dari ingatan keluarga...hatinya terluka, dirinya sedih dan terasa dikhianati...benci namun dia tetap bernafas..berkali2 puteri lukai dan cuba membunuh dirinya dgn menyaksikan darah keluar dari tubuhnya namun itu tidak cukup utk menamatkan riwayatnya...lalu puteri terus berhidup mengharungi kebencian pd dirinya&rasa luka di hati yg stiap hari terus menerus berdarah...dia berdoa pd Allah agar nyawanya menghilang dan dia luput dari ingatan serta jauh dri umahnya..

Meningkat ke 1 thp dewasa, 1 peristiwa menyentap puteri..dia kehilangan seseorg yg baginya org tersebut hnya pengkhianat...namun ternyata kehilangan itu turut menrentap seluruh hidup puteri..hilangnya org tersebut membawa puteri kepada pertanyaan "kenapa aku msih disini??,KENAPA!!" kerana org itu lh yg menjdi sumber kebencian dlm hidup puteri dan org itulah jua punca kenapa puteri terus berhidup dalam perasaan benci...hidup puteri jdi ilang arah, hanyut dan terhunbam lantas puteri brcadang biarlh dia terus hidup dlm kehidupan yg tiada matlamat...di bwa ombak~~puteri mghilang dan berkeraguan kerna dirinya sudah tiada apa2 yg mmbawanya utk hidup...hilanglah hidup puteri...

Meningkat dewasa, puteri yg telupa akan doanya bahawa dia ingin lari dri umah, diculik oleh petani2 yg mmbawanya kepada 1 matlamat yg puteri sendiri tidak miliki lagi.... petani2 yg menbawanya kpd sbuah hidup yg baru, bertanam...jasad dan roh siputeri yg mati hidup semula, puteri diculik dari keluarganya...berseri dan berkehidupan kerana kini puteri bkn lagi seorg puteri yg hilang arah tuju dan tidak tau matlamat hidup tapi seorg puteri yg baru dan miliki matlamat hidup... puteri hidup semula, bangkit dari tangisan yg tidak akan pernah reda2 nya....namun byk benda yg menimpa puteri slepas itu dmana puteri berharap dirinya akan kuat harungi kehidupan

kini puteri bkn lagi berdoa agar dia miliki rambut yg lurus/ jauh dri umah/keluarga..p puteri berdoa agar puteri bisa ketawa, menangis, berusaha, bersama dgn petani2 dan bisa menjdikan diri nya seorg petani jua...kerna puteri selalu saja menangis kala dirinya hanyut dibawa oleh keseronokkan kehidupan, menangis kala dirinya disambar oleh cinta duniawi, menangis kala menyaksikan keluarganya masih di waktu yg dibencinya...menangis kala tanaman2 yg diusaha bersama petani tidak membuahkn hasilnya...menangis kala hatinya digoyah, menangis kala rakan2 mengetepikannya...kerana puteri bkn lagi puteri yg hidup dlm kebencian tapi puteri ingin hidup semula memberikan kasih syg...

namun puteri merindui ibu bapanya...puteri merindui...kini puteri ingin berhidup, berhidup dan berhidup utk menjdi seorg petani yg betul2 mantap...

moga Allah beri kekuatan pd puteri ini kerana puteri ini takut utk kehilangan apa yg telah diberikan padanya...kerana puteri takut sgt2 takut....

klu puteri hilang lagi, puteri bkn sja hilang matlamat hidup p puteri akan kehilangan seluruh dirinya sendiri...dan menjadi jasad yg berjalan tpi tidak miliki roh!! moga jauh lah perkara itu dri terjdi...

sedayu2 angin menghembus, moga puteri terus kuat hingga ke akhirnya

:+: ALERT!! RESTLEZZ APOLOGIES:+:

2008-05-17T20:40:00.000-07:00

Pada hari jumat minggu ini dat's on d 165 baru2 ni, scara tba2 rkn ku, bob chat dgnku yg dri chat nya itu buat ku terkejut dan hairan cz ianya berkenaan dgn hubungan kmi ALERT princeZZ...

bob:: Zie kmu ada mslh kh dgn alert??
zie:: huh?? mslh?? mksd?? i dn't know ahh, rsa2 ok ja..
bob:: nada i jz bca dri blog..
zie:: blog?? mksdnya??
bob:: hmpph f u guyz nada mslh den oklah...
zie:: hmmph...mslh??
bob:: yep u shud read durg punya blog, well it 3 part plang dari d 3 alert..
zie:: owhh ykh?? hmmph wat do u think of it??
bob:: i think its *tut..tut..tut*

bgitulah serpihan chat ku dgn bob yg pd petang itu aku ambil keputusan utk mmbaca blog2 d 3 alert namun disebabkn ksibukkan ku yg pnjg dan slalu saja tk dpt online akhirnya ari ni barulah ku berpeluang mmbaca blog2 berkenaan yg milikki 3 part....smua nya dari d 3 alert each...

part 1 by alert teaser::
pada hari ini aku telah membuat sejarah pertama ku di kuliah. aku menyamal and marah arah orang yang inda ada kena mengena. im sorry =s especially c hardi. terasa pulang ku yang ku marah arahnya padahal ia inda jua buat salah. ngok jua tu aku ah *sigh* selalu aku ani terkenal dengan pemarah ku.. yes terkenal dari segi orang seperti wan, nuneh, HK dan yang lain-lain tau lah hehehe its just kinda disappointing when you have friends but you can't really rely on them. close friends should i say. where we spend most time together in school. buying things for each other. doing work together. well, we used to. but now hardly. i dont mean to say i dont like them.. tau plg ku yang kami ani andang kadang2 jahat. thats what ada orang cakap. cause mengalert orang saja kraja kami. but indakan pasal atu kamu inda mau sama kami kan? so, could you state the reason napa macam kamu inda brapa mau sama kami atu kan? why sometimes when you faced a problem, you dont wanna share it with us. aren't we your friends. paling kesian aku lah. kisah2 kamu banyak aku inda tau. when i you ask pun nada kena gitau. so aku pandai2 saja sendiri mengurik mengali dengan dalam di lobang jamban ah. macam you have your love story. the problems you faced. do you expect i dont understand who do you mean? indakan selama aku bekawan sama kamu ani aku inda tau apa2. macam si palui jua ku tu.. i was kinda upset lah. padahal tani macam ke tahap rapat sudah. kamu inda suka aku kah sama kamu? am i annoying in some kind of way? or too busy body? pemarah berabis and moody? macam asi2 kan sama kamu. i know dulu i wasn't so close with you guys since aku macam semua tune ku masuki. nada kawan tetap lah setiap masa ku sama atu saja. but now aku macam jadi rapat sama kamu. selalu sama2 n stuff. inda ku faham lah whats happening. we are friends. friends try to understand each other. friends help each other. am i your friends?well, you know who you are. malas ku cakap sudah. bukan plg ku marah. faham2 lah sebagai kawan ani. macam bukan kawan jua. orang iski kamu inda iski. inda ku faham lah. aku minta maaf lah kalau aku ani menyakitkan hati kamu, menyusahkan apa...

ALERT?? part 2 ::
wAT Happen 2 prince'z ALERT???... Seem lyk ada aura2 nya dat durg mulai menjauhi kmi.. Hmmmmmm.. y?? a vry BIG Y?? i would lyk to continue + i wann 2 add up abit story lh psl apa my fren'z ani moody.. yg menyebabkan ia nda mkn tgt ari.. cian ehh my frenz ahhh.. kmi offer udh ia but moody nya really kuat dat tym..yg pelik + ganjil nya we 're de one pujuk rayu ia... (ukan jua kmi punya salah ehh!!)Hhmmmmphhh.. antah lh nda ku tau.. itz really2 membari dispoint'ed bnar lh; ya tah nama nya kwn nie.. which der actz lyk we 're ok.. but we hurtz inside. :( my frenz atu lh yg parah. apa tah erti kwn sbanar2nya kn?? napa perlu br'rahsia... or we 're not ur frenz lh, ukan level yg sma kli.. ku akui jua lh we do abit noty jua... (",) AnnooOoying.. which we LOVE 2 ALERT pplz...if dulu we do hang out together2 msa ani hmmmmm.. pyh wahhh.. i really dnt have any commentz 'bout dat.. i hate being nice yo!! mun paham bisai. but i dnt thinkz der under stand. Wat happen kan?? y we lyk diz?? y u change?? yyy??
Click diz to read de real story : ALERT Part1

ALERT PART 3 ::
Helloo..Now I wanna add some from blog ofALERT ENERGETIC(Wan) and ALERT TEASER(Chacha)..On that da, aku marah bravs to them sal ia buat my fren moody and belapar..Kononnya concern sal parut kwnku, tpnya dsebabkan perangai durang yg siuk sendiri atu membuatkan kami annoyed with them..Kenapa kan durang mesti berubah perangai atu..AKu masih ingat hati atu, durang mcm nda bedusa wh..sudah tah ia liat kwnku tu moody tapi durang tinggalkan g saja tu eh...kawan apa tu..Penting lagi cinta durang atu dari kawannya ni kah??Aku merasa durang atu cuba menjauhi diri dari kami saja..tapi mun ada something yg durang mau, baru th kan adacari kami..aku marah ni masani...Sudah tah selalunya yang iski makai barang sama2 is just 3 powerpuff, ngalih aja planning kan mau semua barang sama, tapi ahirnya 3 powerpuff jua ganya yang iski tu..Kalau bulih to ALERT yg kami maksudkan atu, ubah tah perangai..Peranan kawan ialah:1. Menghadapi masalah sama2 and sharing sama2..2. No secret among them3. Do not say thank you4. Take care with each other..5. Antah nda g ku tau..Hee..

komen slepas membaca?? hmmph mula2 skali obviously aku terkesima mmbaca nya dan aku mulai fhm apa mksd komen cbob...

sblm apa2 aku mohon maaf atas sikap dan perilaku dan apa2 rahsia yg wujud shingga kn teaser rsa sgt sedih hati dan rsa aku&alert yg 1 lagi seolah2 ingin jauhkan diri dan membuat rsa bahawa kmi tk menyukai nya...ingin minta maaf juga pd d other 2 alert cz kmi bersikap seolah2 kala susah baruth kn ngunjar kwn& kala timbulnya pemikiran bahawa kmi kini berubah sikap ingin jauh dari kmu smua..betul2 minta maaf...maaf sgt2 pd teaser juga sebab kmi bersikap s'olah2 tk ambil tau sedangkan sebtulnya(), maaf pd lovable sebab sikap kmi s'olah2 "cinta itu lebih penting" sedangkn sebtulnya(), maaf pd energetic sebab sikap kmi s'olah2 kmi brubah sikap sedangkn sbtulnya()

fkr2 punya fkr mgkin smuanya kmi akui salah kmi....dimana kmi jrg lagi bersama kmu dan jrg spending tym sperti slalu dgn kmu shingga timbul isu ingin jauhkan diri...maaf sgt2..

namun trima ksih sebab bersikap jujur mskipun diri ku sdikit terkilan dgn luahan melalui blog ini sedangkan hal tersebut patutnya diluahkn dgn face to face...dan aku mengetahui bahwa hubungan kita serta perasaan korg melalui kwn ku yg nyatakn meminta ku baca blog korg klu tidak, aku smpai kini tk kn mengetahui mslh yg wujud hingga akhirnya wud lead kepada hal "aku tk tau knapa,sebab aku tk baca dan hubungan kita jdi mcm seolah2 tiada apa2 terjadi"

jadi aku minta maaf skali lagi..betul2 minta maaf, mgkin liz juga belum tbaca blog korg2 itu jdi aku mewakili dirinya utk meminta maaf...

k.smpai sini sja dulu..cz kn slebihnya akan di ungkapkn kala kita bersemuka...sejujurnya zie ingin gto bagi zie

"hubungan persahabatan yg akrab itu datangnya dari hati"

spertimana korg zie dan juga liz juga menghargai hubungan yg terbina antara ALERT kerana ianya syg yg timbul sebab hati bkn sebab hal2 lain...harap kita dpt bertemu dan berjujur dgn 1 sama lain bila bertemu di skulah esok...zie mengharapkn sgt2....

185\1:19pm\@umah\song:: none\condition:: ???

:+:BerSama BinTang:+:

2008-05-13T13:25:00.000-07:00

Hmmph~~i like tiz song sooo much rily hehehe cz myb because of the lyrik yeahh mayb...well jz chip in::

Bersama Bintang - Drive
senja kini berganti malam

menutup hari yg lelah

dimanakah engkau berada

aku tak tahu dimana

pernah kita lalui semua

jerit, tangis, canda, tawa

kini hanya untaian kata

hanya itulah yg aku punya

reff:

tidurlah selamat malam

lupakan sajalah aku

mimpilah dalam tidurmu

bersama bintang

sesungguhnya aku tak bisa

jalani waktu tanpamu

perpisahan bukanlah duka

meski harus menyisakan luka

repeat reff

i love d highlighted part cz it rily does reflect on sum1*jeng*jeng*jeng* hahaha*^-^*

:+:hal2 lain:+:

i'm l8 kitb 2day cz kn kklinik dgni my adik, ia damam..2 ari ordy damamnya nda pandai surut2 ohwell~~
hmmph ngadap lap2p 24 jam 2day
dimalam blik 22ng (125), iatah melawat guppy ku huhuhu..well i'm planning 2 buy new guppy butden abiz stockk!!WAAA!!! huhuhu sedih eh
ada bnda halus singgah d umah beberapa ari yg lalu,waduh jd hotel umah kmi...p2tlh abgku malar teliat ja.so parentku pun panggil pak ustaz kumah dimalam..hmmph no komen on dat part cz rily "superstitious's not mystuff, i believe Allah more"
krg meeting @ 5pm ditb hmmph~~(135)

k.dat's oll~~k.janei!!

:+:YAY!! CN TeSt1 OveR:+:

2008-05-10T23:15:00.000-07:00

105 is d date of when i write tiz blog n my mood tym ani is moody+ngantuk+tired+exhausted+hmmph+sleepy~~but den alhamdulillah CN test hv been away ordy @ around 10am tdi (start kul 8am) hmmph how was it?? well cn tell much abt d question n d ans cz rily i hvn't put my full effort in tiz test*sniff*sniff*(doing rubbish stuff lastnyte) kwengx3 sadist ehh~~ 2 question dat i definitely cnnt jwb is::

Wat's d functions of NIC? and oso why's it important to hv standard in the OSI layer&it roles? n well another question is dat i.explaining abt message circuit, datagram and virtual circuit...well mmg cnfirm ku nda jwb huhuhuhu sedih2*main antam2 sja ni wah~~cnfirm markah nya pun antam2* huhuh hope nda...*sapa suruh merepek2 tym revision,alahai~*

hmmph leceh ehh knapa tia mood ku hampas ani tdi alahai~~fuuhh~~myb sebab gmbar2 yg tk sepatutnya aku xcitedly liat*huhuhu which in d end hurt me* aiii~~

ohwell den kn oleh sebab lama udh nda update blog ku hence bttr 4 me update it now...*avoiding to think*

well kn hmmph apabek ahh ohya hehehe on d 505 nda kn ku blik 22ng tu kes kn jumpa parent hehe rindu durg masa ani hmmph wish dpt bli tutong 2day cz ryte now strezzup n need to b jauh dri bandar... bebalik pd ceta heehe aku blik 2 around mlm wah diantar olh Sis.Ai ke umah iatah blik2 kumah apanah kraja ku hahaha memriuhkn umah smasa beri watir ani wah, mcm2 ulah ku main game g tu, games ps alahai~nda mabuk mananya huhuhu gara2 mmenuhkn request adikku yg lelaki, phm2 lh dumah atu kn smua lelaki kli hahaha*i got 3 adik lelaki n 2 abang and 3 adik bini2 in which aku anak ke 4(d eldest daughter) but den kn aku dikelilingi oleh sibling lelaki 4 abt 6 yrs i guess soo i'm more 2 boyish style, kasar2 sikit n LOUD*huhuhu pyh ni...

esknya 705 is tuesday n i hv klaz@8am n i was late braviz dtg klaz....it been rutin udh mun ku blik tutong grenti ku akhir dtg klaz...but kn yg ku kn point out 's aku b'lurih hadiah wah blik 22ng atu..hehehe i got my self a new hair klip hehehe from my mum *thankz mum, i love u lotzz *hugzz* hhehehe

okai dat's ol 4 diz 105 yg lain2 i think i juz gnna masukkan gmbar kli hmmph*i guess cz i hvn't design anything 4 my new gmbr taking iath dat's y*

k.Janei!! again i rily love my mum *hugZZ*

:+:A.L.E.R.T!! BlaJaR jua Kmi ni:+:

2008-05-05T16:10:00.000-07:00

Hmmph today it's jz~SYiF@~ [percaya pd jnji]loc:: itb.... cz kn dgn tiba2 sja mood ku jdi rosak sgala aiii~~

well pagi ani kn i hv another adventurous morning with d keta..adakah ia suddnly branti rh jlnraya..alhamdulillah i'm stil nda brapa jauh dri umah ijau f not i hv to face d fact dat i need to call d ehem~ehem~ to help me up aii cz mmg dri awal g i wanna cntact ia to tolong checkkn d keta...hmmph p alhamdulillah since ia stil nda jauh dri umah, i jz hv to cntact my k.w hehehe thankz kak..where durg th yg ngantar aku ke itb am atu..dugaan in d early a.m. kwengx3 alhamdulillah (syukur jua dat aku ni bkn jenis kelam kabut afta undergoing lots of things in my life..tarbiyyah)

den dtg2 itb hmmph as usual AP start up mula2 skali...well result Java come out ordy soo~~hv to hdpi nya dgn kekuatan yg nyata...aiii my AP result dn't ask~~

but den kn smngt bljr stil ada...hahahah am.2 AP bljr abt "ARRAYS" hmmph my least fav.topic butden kn it was actually a fun topic~~err~apakn 2??

well kn soo skip2 dat yg pastinya kn d spirit of blajar still ada 4 d int 22 hehehe well jdilah kmi2 sgt2 dgn sweetnya blajar...k..see 4 ur self lah picTures rajin kmi hehehe final year kli ahh~mestilah cncentrate dgn byknya~~

Now finale but not least gmbr2 alert princess plakk!!! inilah suasana alert princesses nya studying chewahh penuh knsentrasi ani wahh...errr p kn hehehe obviously yg ngambar ani nda brapa knsentrate *ntah apa ku pikirkn,hmmph* hahaha but stil i get apa yg lecturer tu ajar k....^_^

yg ani hehehe well jz to show more envi. kmi studying hmmph f kelihatan mcm org tdo siring2 atu paham2 ahh cnfirm mmg thp ngantuk n lintuk2 udh tu hahaha well phm2 lah cz mmg period nya jua wahh~~period hw d lecture are totally err~~~p kn slalunyalah bgn2 n pemedulian kli ah kmi ani hehehe jz mcm main2 ckit2 ja *errr~~luruskn tu kmu2??*

My notes yg hancur~~ani tndanya org bljar ni hehehe mun nya bersih notes atu, hmmph mksdnya d opposite way tu..but overall i found this semester kdg2 ada lecture yg beri ngantuk thp tdo2 ordy but kdg2 ada lec. yg mmg fuuhh~~best sgt2 smpai thp salute ni wahh buat prac.nya hehehe mcm DB heheehe i like d prac.alot...mwa d coding, ermmzz apa g ahh hahaha dats ol ehh...k...janei*hugz*^-^*

p/s:: 505 ani kn is d day junior test sam~~hmmph wish all of dem d best especially dz 1 special sum1 yg dgn mudahnya buat ku gigitan cz in d end ia nyeluru aku hmmph beri kn ngatuk saja ani wahh!! stil i rily care but well hmmph No KoMeN~~k..all d best yo!!!*hugzz*

::lain2 hal::

-Mistaken tarikh lahir izzat nyway happy advance 5 days b'day zat!! hahahaha

-lunch--Khspital ku cz a fren damam

-krg meeting@5 iath bincang ma pkck asri miana

-i'm sick today 505, need to recharged myself plus i mizz my BintangHati hmmph mizz u lot*mwahh*

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condition:: sick~~need recharger